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i feel so not good . but i also feel ridiculous and stupid so ig i should just get hit by a train tbh. nothing i can rlly do abt it.

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ough its hard rn . that self hate and overthinking and thinking im nothing but a bother and everyone probably wishes id drop dead already im not feelin okayyyyy

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bashing my head in a wqll until.im dead dead dead deaaad please just die already

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there is something so self destructive inside of me. i have to be careful. i ruin everything i touch.

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im so tired ive felt awful genuinely all fucking day and my head sure isnt giving me a helpful thing to do abt this either.

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i’m sick of the ache in my chest that constantly tells me i will never be good enough.

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Huvember day 14!

Little Goody Two Shoes is such a cute little lesbian witch RPG horror game. (if any of those words interest you you should play it)

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i’m horrified by the fact that this is all i’ll ever be.

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do i just sleep for the next week or so until im over whatever tf is wrong with me or do i just kill myself now. genuinely dont know.

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no matter how hard i try i will always be that little girl wondering why everyone is better friends with eachother than her and begging to be loved

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i feel like an unlovable and unlucky person

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I scream for love with the same mouth that spits venom, and I wonder why no one stays

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i rlly do wish id just go to sleep and never wake up im kinda super fucking tired of being sad for days on end and i Cant Make It Go Away and i refuse to vent to ppl theyre all busy and dont need to listen to my bullshit Again. i wanna go back to when i was just so numb i didnt feel anything. life was easier then. i wanna be happy and promote love cause i love a LOT but my own self hate is overriding it rn and i just want it to stop.

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keep waking up wishing i hadnt can i pls just get killed already

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man i rlly would be better off dead ngl what do i even bring to anything / what do i even have to live for. crying all day tomorrow? i did that today.

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I’ve been engaging in behaviours not beneficial to my wellbeing

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death isnt enough. i need to never have existed