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and so it goes I write and wait and write and wait. repetition of small actions. in and out each day waiting for movements and moments to click into place. I anticipate all that is around me to suddenly come to life and fill my senses with motion and awareness. This is it. The only capability I possess to convey any sense of my lostness and fear is through words. I must write. And, while writing is the only action I can take to lessen my fear, I still find the wind and storm of ideas in my mind to overwhelm me. I wonder if I will ever truly express all that I see and know. Pressure upon my chest, as if I were being squeezed in a manner similar to that of a bellow. Slowly air is being forced out of my lungs into a fire. My chest cries out for breaths but I only am gifted with little gasps and pockets of air. At times I find a burst of air being stored, waiting for me. I frantically inhale and my lungs are satisified. In this moment I feel no fear or pressure to explain myself and pour forth my heart into the streams of life. But as soon as I begin to rest in this newfound air it is once more squeezed from me. The pressure begins, I start to leak out and feel scattered. And overwhelming urge to collect and document all that I discover about living drives me. Madly I try to record, paint, draw, design, dance and sing of all that I have come to know and the beauty surrounding it. Settling on one form is too confining yet I find that in using so many forms I cannot dedicate enough time to each to convey coherently through them. Shall I ever find peace? Waiting, with hope that patience will reward me. But will it ever? A horrid combination of desire to remain patient and trust in the passage of time along with a desire to jump into action and fight to discover satisfaction rips me into slivers. I know not what to do. I sit here and feel my soul screaming. It is silent all around. At moments I glimpse peace but recently it has been harder to see. I do not know why I desire to share all that I find with others, I cannot help it. Perhaps if I let go of this desire I will find more peace. But alas, I am afraid. I fear letting go. I foolishly run after control yet never have grasped any. Perchance that should be reason enough to let it go. However I cannot tell. All I know is that I must write.

anne fortune

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https://freesound.org/people/SoundFlakes/sounds/413732/

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https://freesound.org/people/frankum/sounds/394286/

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angel choir music

https://freesound.org/people/esistnichtsoernst/sounds/434700/

use angel sounds to reference wanting to fly

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MUSIC!

https://freesound.org/people/esistnichtsoernst/sounds/414442/

THIS IS GIVING MY LOTR HOBBIT VIBES HOLD UP THAT IS WHAT I WANTED MORE THAN ANYTHING YES

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PERFECT FOR OPENING MAYBE???

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i need to create a version for both simple and elaborate versions.

because this ain’t gonna have much financial support so I gotta make sure the show it captivating in and of itself

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doll divine aka the savior to us all. messed around. this is a rough idea of the first costume for the first scene. Flowy and light colored. To give idea of wings and flight. Dirt gradually staining it immensely due to constant falling and climbing. bloodied hands. definitely some dancing and stumbling where it flows a lot while also tangling and “ensnaring”

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a clear destination, a knowledge of where we are now, and a path to follow, we have the ingredients to begin the journey

wesley balk

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There is one word which describes what you should bring on to the stage with you in this part. Radiance. And don't be frightened of it, pet, and don't let self-mockery guy you out of it

Laurence Oliver

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The move from inner to outer. We can support that move more fully by freeing ourselves from the addictive authority dependence that has long plagued the field as a whole. If the essence of the music theater form - the performers- are to allow that form to be fully expressed from the essence of themselves, then the essence of each performer must be opened by free human energy systems- systems capable of allowing that radiant essence to be expressed in performance by their voices, emotions, and bodies; systems free to allow the unfolding of radiant performing. When that happens we will have not only radiant performing, but a newly empowered form whose potential we have only occasionally glimpsed.

Wesley Balk

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rather than changing the environment, we can allow the development of the performer to create an energy field of greater wholeness that can interact with and become the environment

wesley balk

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We find that within the voice, the body, the face, and the emotions are other energies of increasing refinement and power

wesley balk

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when money and size become the issue rather than the needs of the art and its audience the art is reduced to the materialistic levels imposed upon it

Wesley Balk - the radiant performer

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Music theater presents a situation in which everyone can be openhearted, awake and radiant. If for one or two hours, each of us can experience feelings that we may have forgotten or see/hear things in a fresh, vivid way, then our lives will have been changed and enriched. We will go back to our daily living with a new understanding of what we are missing, what we cannot do without.

meredith monk - the radiant performer

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He is speaking of the human condition and the way we can affirm our lives, our hearts, our minds, and our bodies, and synchronize them so we are present and alive at every moment.

Meredith Monk - the radiant performer