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she let me hit because i say stuff like goodness gracious

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Robert “Rosie” Rosenthal and Harry Crosby

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we’re all boring to someone, annoying to someone, ugly to someone, but it’s not that deep

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hey btw if ur transphobic don’t interact with my blog. we support trans people here

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LEWIS PULLMAN as CALVIN EVANS

LESSONS IN CHEMISTRY (2023)

1.02 - Her and Him

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Friend: Don't you want to have a romance?

Me: I'm good, I have romance at home.

Romance I have at home:

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Hot, confident girl + weird, shy guy is already gold. But hot, confident girl + weird, shy guy with a deceptively high libido and a dick that leaves her speechless?

18+, minors dni

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That’s how Bob had you now.

You never would’ve guessed how insatiable he could be. But here you were, legs trembling, moans spilling out as half-formed words, eyes glazed over with tears, drool glistening at the corner of your mouth. And Bob? He wasn’t stopping anytime soon.

He wasn’t dominant—not in the usual sense. He was a mess himself. His forehead was pressed into the crook of your neck, breath hot against your skin as he murmured breathless apologies and praise between every thrust.

“I’m sorry— you feel so good— I can’t stop— so perfect—”

There was no rhythm. No control. Just a desperate, stuttering need that left you unraveling under him. It was chaotic. Intense. Overwhelming. And it felt unbearably good.

Oh, you thought he was done?

Sure, he was already spent, hips twitching through the last few weak thrusts, breath ragged as he collapsed against you. But even when he was shooting nothing, his body still moved like it didn’t know how to stop. And neither did he.

Because Bob couldn’t leave you like this — ruined, dripping, overstimulated and dazed. What kind of boyfriend would he be if he didn’t take care of you properly?

“I’m sorry,” he whispered, already moving down your body, hands trembling as they caressed your thighs. “You were so good… I didn’t mean to make a mess. Let me clean you up. Please…”

The moment his mouth touched you, he let out the softest moan, like he’d been waiting for this all night. His tongue was desperate, frantic, slurping and licking with no rhythm, just raw hunger. He wasn’t trying to be sexy. He was trying to make it right.

“You taste so good,” he whimpered into you. “You’re so perfect. I don’t deserve you. God, I love you—”

It was messy. Loud. Filthy. His mouth moved like he was starving, like worshipping you was the only thing keeping him grounded. Every time you twitched or cried out, he whimpered in response, overwhelmed by how good you still tasted, how soft you were, how you let him do this.

“I’m sorry, I’m sorry… but I need you to feel good again. Let me do this. Just one more… I promise—”

But you both knew he wouldn’t stop at just one more.

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lewis pullman as calvin evans in lessons in chemistry

primetime emmy award nominee for outstanding supporting actor in a limited series or movie

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lewis pullmans laugh. that’s it. that’s the post.

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nobody:

men in the 70s:

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Me reading the Trump/Musk breakup news this week:

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Lewis in a tank top

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i love her. i’m so glad she said something.

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Bob Reynolds and his Shame Rooms

Here’s something that has been on my mind for a while. One day, I was thinking about what the Void would show me, as you do, and then I remembered, they also called it “The Shame Room”, and it led me to wonder about Bob’s rooms. He says that the more rooms that they go through, the worse his shame is, so keep that in mind as I dig deeper here.

Childhood Dinner Scene:

This scene is pretty self-explanatory, but I still want to talk about it. In this room, Bob’s dad is yelling and throwing plates all around, and we can hear him hitting someone off screen too, showing how this is a daily occurrence in Bob’s life. There are theories of just how bad the abuse was, which is often so much worse than what we see, but why is this scene used for his shame room? I think it’s more to do with how it encompasses everything that Bob had to deal with, his father’s physical abuse, his mother’s emotional abuse, and how common it was for him. It’s also where we hear his mom say “You’re always making things worse”, a line that he said earlier to himself in the shaft. And what his mother says to him, a feeling he carries into adulthood, how he makes things worse, and he truly believes that he is the reason his father beats them and the cause of his mother’s mental illness. He pretty much feels he's responsible for the terrible things that happen to him, which is why he has such a defeatist attitude when it comes to his well being, thinking he deserves to be punished for causing bad things.

Chicken Bob (I don’t know what else to call this):

While we can chuckle at the ridiculousness of Bob dressed as a chicken hitting people with signs, as well as the iconic “I was on meth!” line, it does show Bob’s shame. Something to remember during this scene, Bob was still a kid, as we hear him recall his summer job when Yelena asks for “anymore pointless childhood stories”. He is roughly high school age and he already was an addict. In his bio, it says he started becoming an addict in 8th grade after a car accident, addicted to morphine, meaning that Bob had been jumping from drug to drug, anything to give him the high he longed for. He dropped out of school by 9th grade, meaning he was on his own, addicted to whatever he could get, struggling to survive.

He explains to Yelena that since childhood, he would have lows and highs, and even experience moments of memory lapse, meaning he is by this point, dealing with his own mental health issues, on his own. It's the beginning of his spiral downward.

I think the other reason why he was ashamed of this moment was because of the violence he inflicted, and as we see Bob sober, he isn’t someone that wants to hurt people. I wonder if this was seen as a shameful moment for him because, in this moment, he was acting like his dad. His father who hurt people without caring, and it's confirmed that Bob did hurt a civilian, which led him to getting fired. And it still carries the same theme of Bob’s life “Always making things worse.” All he had to do was wear a suit and carry a sign, and yet, he couldn’t even do that without hurting someone, without nearly becoming his father.

Medical Room:

This room was described by Bob as his worst room, which on surface level doesn’t seem awful, but let’s review what Bob says that led him there.

Bob: "This is where it started. I was roaming through Southeast Asia. Thought I'd figure something out. At least find more drugs. Then there was this guy talking to me about a medical study. A trial drug that could make me stronger. Felt like a miracle. Finally, I get to show everyone that I was more, that I was… something.”

The Void: “And look what you unleased. The most shameful thing of all is thinking you could be anything more than nothing.”

The Void responds to Bob's story with venom, mocking him for believing he could mean anything. The darkest part of him telling him it was for nothing.

At this point in Bob’s life, he is at his lowest, bottom of the barrel low. He has been carrying years of trauma from his childhood, been addicted to multiple drugs, has spells where he can’t remember parts of his life, depression really kicking in, to the point of self-harm and even suicidal thoughts. He has had a record of being in jail, and we know that finding a job with a prison record is hard, even harder when you’re an addict with mental health issues. Other people have pointed this out, but Bob at this point doesn’t see himself as a person anymore, just willing to be used or die. Bob may be naive, but he isn't stupid; he knows there is a very real possibility that he won't survive this, but he figures, it will either kill him and end his misery, or succeed and be the kind of person he dreamt of being.

Bon didn't see himself having much of a life at this point, but he had the tiniest of glimmer of hope that he could be better, it's what led to not only Sentry being born, but also the Void, hurting people right off the bat (as we can see the shadows on the wall indicate that New York wasn't the Void's first victim). Running theme, even when he is trying, he manages to "always make things worse".

It doesn't matter how hard he tries, Bob always somehow makes it worse, so much so that when he returned back to himself, the program deemed him a failure, packed him in a container, and shipped to the vault, to be forgotten, and nearly destroyed.

The Void blames him for hoping, shames him into wishing he could be something, when all he had done so far in his life was ruin everyone else's lives. If Bob hadn't gone to the O.X.E facility, those people in the medical room would still be ok, New York wouldn't have gone under like it did. Bob's ultimate shame is the belief that everything that had ever happened to him was his fault, that he is nothing but a menace to the world, incapable of being loved or cared for by anyone.

In conclusion: the line "Always making things worse" is more than just a throw away line or just a reference, it's the motto of Bob's life up to this point. Thankfully, he had started to see by the end of the movie that it's not always the case, but it is his greatest burden.

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