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“After that, your negotiations to purchase an airship go pretty smoothly!”

*battle music starts playing*

“… ignore that.”

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Rose Rose cake from mynameisyeh.com

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Hm.

I could keep talking to people here, or I could go kiss the handsome seadweller currently asleep in my room.

Truly a conundrum.

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“Do you identify as a man or a woman?”

Actually I identify as an eldritch horror

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And thank you for the greeting, I hope you're doing well.

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:O) We have spoken but thank you for the follow, brother.

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It takes a certain kind of person, I think, to enjoy such a thing. If we weren't all so different everything would be terribly dull, wouldn't it?

...Well I'm glad you like that shit sib, I aint uh, real interested in doin somethin like that, my own self but thats prolly why we got real different gods from each other

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Understandable. Funnily enough, you could say that's my title now - at least, with regards to the ones I'm in contact with.

Well, that depends on where you are. Being here is one thing, but spending time in the void with them directly ... that's something else entirely. It's hard to put words to it. You forget who you are, what you are, where you are ... nothing but the their voices and the endless, roiling static. It's ... oddly comforting. Like they've wrapped you up in a blanket and tossed you into the abyss to untangle yourself back down to nothing.

Maybe I should go back and visit some time soon. It's been a while.

aah, the eldritch ones, I aint had much truck with them aside from the emissary The mirthful twain is more intimate than that, present in our lives an showin us their miracles in every moment an also sometimes stealin my food, cause the gods are always hungry

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If that doesn't sum up the way they think, I don't know what would. To be honest, I don't mind it much? It can be a little frustrating from time to time but on the other hand being stuck out in the Furthest Ring must get boring. There's not much to do aside from talk to one another and watch what we get up to.

If you're lucky - or unlucky, depending on your perspective - you'll get picked to watch for them. That's essentially what happened to me.

The gods do like t' laugh at our follies hahahahaha, you just learn to take a fall an keep goin, play it up, give em a show, cause you're always on stage in their eyes

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Oh, I doubt they will. If anything they'll have fun watching me fumble around, as they usually do. But I can't begrudge them their own whimsy, some of my mistakes are quite amusing.

I've been there brother, good luck t'ya, an may the gods guide your steps and grant you their favors :o)

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Well, I don't know if I can change a whole system, but I sure can try. Or, at least, support those that do.

Wouldn't that be something ... a former lapdog finally realizing he's got teeth. It's about damn time, heh.

Thank you. I think I needed a little advice to get my head back on straight.

things aint fair brother, the universe aint fair, and theres a lot of motherfuckers workin to make it even less fair

so we gotta make it fairer

thats the work

if you got regrets? make it fairer, make it so that shit caint happen again.

you will probably always get maudlin moments, you did bad, thats facts, you just have to keep goin and try to be better

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That's the problem. The person I wish I was would've been friends with them, in another life. Was, for a lot of the ones I've met.

To be fair, I wouldn't be here if things had gone the way they had for him. So I guess there are some good things about it. But in another way that just seems more unfair.

I mean, a guy like me gets to live and they don't? That's kind of screwed up, don't you think?

Letting go of that feeling is hard. It just comes back to bite me in the ass when I least expect it, don't mind me.

Sib I was The Grand Highblood once, I did a lot of things. I know at least one brother who does feel like I betrayed him that way, he caint be the only one.

You cant bring back th' dead. Well, most of the time you caint anyhow.

The past is gone, its past, you have proceeded forward, an th' only way you can go is forward. The only thing a motherfucker can do is try to be better than they were.

Theres no point in suffering, your suffering dont mean nothing to the departed.

Be someone you wish you were, and let their memories rest

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That's also very true. But that doesn't bring back those I've killed. I could live a dozen lifetimes and that blood will still be on my hands.

Let me ask you a question. Have you ever convinced people you were someone worth trusting, and then betrayed that trust? Gave them hope, then pulled the rug out from under them at the last moment?

I have. That look of betrayal and hatred is never going to leave me alone.

the best kinda day :o) well, sib y cant change th' past, but you can move forward with new eyes an try and balance your scales as best you can puttin good out into the world

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True. I've not regretted it before and been a much worse individual because of it. But the desire to go back and change things, even though I can't? That I could live without.

Ah, I see. I'll admit I've spent the day in bed with someone I care deeply for, so, you know. It's not all bad.

I think regret is a fuckin sign of growth, and self knowing though. regrets a good thing (o: doin pretty good with mine clade sayin hi t' me earlier

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It is certainly something. Regret doesn't help either.

How are you doing?

Ah, yeah I know that'n

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Memories are probably the worst thing to be haunted by when you should be sleeping.

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Sometimes you just wanna be under layers of fluffy blankets and lie surrounded by pillows and plushes and sleep for a thousand years