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same sh&t, different day

I get invested in people, and they don’t enjoy the thrill of savings/free like me and I wonder WTF? FREE groceries at GRLC- 2 huge pumpkins (jon’s Halloween projects), 2 pineapples, bag of red/green peppers, bag red potatoes, bag sweet potatoes, 4 bags carrots, 2 bags corn on the cob(these were not so great- no flavor).. i tell mr new neighbor about it- has 3 kids so would be great for him,, call Diane-well she just wouldn’t use all of that stuff- I say just pay it forward-lots of friends around to spread the extras to,, PJ said no, H wl get pumpkin at the pumpkin ptch and just wouldn;t use the stuff--this is the same gal that complains about little $,, and I never did see Mr NN leave to get any-so I’m sure that was a dead end also.. I love free food, make sure I try new recipies to use it up, will roast veggies, and some over to Jon’s.  Any extras- I know where the garbage can is at.

Just like I figured, AH pissy until I called tivo and went through the reset up, and all was back(all the time slots for the shows) and now he’s Mr happy go lucky- like he’d never bit off my head, we’re all ‘back to normal’ no TY, no apology- all is buried under that rug over there! did I mention he is an AH??  I went and got new drops for the eyes, get all kinds of stuff for him-- but that’s just ‘my job’ I guess- no actual appreciation around here..

and don’t get me started on dumb dora across the street (names have been changed to protect the mentally challenged here). Yes, I sold lake property- we’re splitting it 3 ways (her and 2 kids) no idea how much D is getting- no idea how much I got- not sure where that $ is--they should’ve put that in my chking, don’t you think??? OMG! and she’s not just fucking around with me to avoid telling me amounts-I believe she really doesn’t know- as she’s open to telling me a lot of other stuff. I’ll post more about DD some 0ther time, as it will take many, many of these pages here.  i wonder sometimes if I’m the odd one- I love to save, get a good deal, make my own meals, and I know how much $ I have--although that one I would bull shit you about- only us 3 and L know how much $ are invested here,, and there’s a little more that’s been put out there that we won’t talk about here either.  Yes, SS-DD, for sure!

on the plus side- got a ton of shws on my magic box,, lots of bks on my ereader, wbvp downstairs that’s saving my life--well, my bones anyway,, got my mind and it’s wkg well, I do great at finances- so many things to be grateful for-

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beaten down again--

i should know better, after watching MAID, how spousal abuse works- but how to handle it back is my condundrum. OK- tivo doesn;t have all the channels- back and forth, is it tivo or cable??  IDK, how are you going to handle it??- badger badger- I’m not sure, but don;t worry I’ll work on it today- blew up at me- fine, you’ll do something but won;t tell me what- no, we’re just getting into a fight- cuts me off when i want to talk, and then goes on and on--this is the usual pattern,, he badgers-- what are you going to do about it?? and whatever I say is in cement at that time- i can’t change, delay, cuz that;s what i said i;d do, by golly-- so i’ve learned to be non-comittal   I’ll do what i want when i see fit- that way i don;t have to reexplain what changes i’m making--eg i said i’d call this am- but i got busy so now i’ll call this pm instead- i know this is enough to send him spiraling out of control- gotta walk the eggshells around him when he;s spinning like this..  now he’s flying off the handle cuz i’m not taking it seriously enuf to commit to what exactly i’m going to try to do--damned if I do,, damned if I don’t. Jeesz- what a piece of work- Go mediate for a while, calm myself down, peace, peace peace...