seekersoul1

[seekersoul1]

Am I going mad

Writting here in isolation about personal topics

I guess it might be working as well

I can't talk about these stuff with anyone

And keeping them inside will eat me up

So it's better to release it here

I can also look back and see the trajectory as well

Tbh I miss tweets🩶 still have a very big room for her inside

But what and how she do things now surprises me

Even if shes doing it for herself she could have choose someother way

But atleast she is happy now 💟 that makes me feel relieved and stressfree 🙂

I don't know what future holds for me

But I can't run away with her impact on my life

I should also feel happy and move ahead 🥂

[seekersoul1]

Kya hi chutiapa tha

I used to miss and feel upset

I can't be more thankfull

The conversation happened at the end

I know now it was a joke

I can laugh 😅

[seekersoul1]

25 dec 24

Finally she came out of no where ....solved incomplete puzzle of that relationship which meant soo much to me

And it turns out to be a complete joke

"socha esa kya kia jo itni nafrat bhari hai

Ab pta chla

koi galti nahi, usko pagalpan ki bimari hai.......

Galati thi jo tere bare acha socha

Girne par tere sahare ne uthaya tha

Ab pta chla

Galatfemi thi, mazak to bich mehfil bnaya tha........

Galti kisi or ki hume sazishh krke fsaya tha

Ab pta chla

Nadan tha 🥲 hume bina sunwai saza sunaya ta.....

Par Ab jo kuch darwaze tum band krna bhul gyi ho

Jan lo

lgadi aaag unpe hamne ab sirf rakh bachi hai.....

Pyar to beh gya ansuo me

jan lo

Ab to sirf dafae or wafae or khakh bachi hai......

Jate jate ek acha kam bhi kr gyi tum

Pyar tha nahi or jiwan ki seekh degyi tum

Jan lo

Idhr to nafrat abhi bhi bhari nahi

tume sab mile jo chaho yhi dua akhri bhi"

last tribute .... Chapter close

Within a snap kafi sare lessons milgye

Now we are even

Hate each other equally 🥂

But this doesn't mean whole relationship all those years were lie went into vain , meaningless

It was best time with you jab tak you were you

Now I don't know you it's preety sad that pepl change like this and loose genuine pepl

And I never want to engage with you in such conversation

You miss out the wisdom to understand

Your akhri words

Theek hai kya bolu ?

My reply

Goodbye love

[seekersoul1]

I hope you happy

Tweets 🩶

Cz that's the reason I stop myself from contacting 🫠

[seekersoul1]

[seekersoul1]

Miss you tweets 💟

I hope you are fine and happy bby

I wish I could just call you

And tell you all what I feel

I wish 🩶

[seekersoul1]

Life is inherently unfair since we born, noone gets everything in their life's 💯

[seekersoul1]

Ill still say ...I find u soo different than other unique in crowd

Ull still say .... Just because u are with me I feel that way

Well well well

You are far away from me now

My belief just grow stronger 🥂

You beauty

Miss you 🩶

[seekersoul1]

Passion and aggression is what makes you apart

[seekersoul1]

You were my cute lil tweets 🐥 yr .... I always wanted to be there around you taking care of you and taking positivity from you but I guess tweets is all grown up now never realised she doesn't need anymore caring she is a bird now 🕊️ made to fly away

Obviously I miss you actually more to that bond and our memories because I know you are not that tweets which I am missing she is gone 🩶

But I feel soo good that sometimes I used to feel my two lil babies you and mini ..I have to do something for you guys

But now you both moving ahead in life's very progressively and happily I feel satisfied and now that burden is not there

I am happy to see you both happy 😉

Ill always now try to be that anonymous shadow to cover you up

Bs bc ye journey wese hi end ho jese I have imagined I am giving my everything to make it happen

Thanks for being there u cutieee in my 80% journey 😂😂

Miss you ❤️

[seekersoul1]

My life ❤️

[seekersoul1]

Mom literally said

Tum ek yodha ho

I will fight

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[seekersoul1]

All those years struggles sleepless nghts anxiety loneliness why is it for ?

If you don't get it now

It will all go into vain

You will stand parallel with those who have throughout these years not only enjoyed but achieved more than you

One last mile baby 🔥

[seekersoul1]

Every time I open Zomato it reminds me of you 🩶

Whenever romeolane or lune appears 💜

I hope our path may cross and we could understand eachother better ❤️

Not love but if the bond we always had it could re ignite 💟

Miss you tweets🙂

[seekersoul1]

The kind of treatment I got in last few months I can't believe it was ignorance that u were not giving Fcks it may be some grudges or anger on me I must have hurted you too

I don't feel good about us that we had an awkward end initially it was ego and anger whc stopped me from doing this but then I couldn't stop thinking about it the person who meant soo much to me with whum I have shared more part of my life than I lived alone I have this burden this feeling of incomplete

I wna share some stuff may be repetitive but going to stay with me forever

You have always been specl i miss the way u say appu nobody even calls me that now and

that happiness which I felt evrytym we planned house party it's irreplaceable only comparable to those family trips I made all those kiddish games it's just soo fulfilling thinking about them

Everytime when we shared silence having no topics to talk still be on call awai bate whc never bored us

Fucking talked 365 days in some years 😂

That fun and teasing whc remained consistent between us that moment when dadu showed me new phone and my reply and ur look 😂 and still it's unconcluded who play better badminton

Well not digging past much you were also there know it already 😁 I remember evryphase and it's jst good good good

school days me trips college days me my room and after that our house parties and i20 drives

About me also I want to share some stuff it has been tough yr past year drained me in all spheres in short just turned me to someone I never wanted to be it is temporary I know but still sorry to let u down

And that's life I guess

All I hold now is love and wishes for you and as I always said I am always there for you when u face any sort of crisis

And I am super proud of the life u made from that tweety who stopped stepping out meeting pepl evn bathing 😂 keeps on asking have I become saddist

To this confident ready to take risks forcing herself to break comfort zones PRAGATI MAM

Thankyou yr for making me experience soo mch happiness..love

logo ke sath crazy crazy chize hojati hai we had soo many long stable years

And my last bad bad lesson Gyan would be -i also had tons of grudges and bad feeling but they are weightless incomparisson to good that you have done in my life pls forgive me and erase the bad part you have for me

(I assume you have done already but if not me boldeta I AM SORRY🙂)

And this is not an attempt to normalise as I know complexities we have are beyond repair I understand ur insecurities too even those whc you have not shared

We have that emptiness between us now but that rope of past is still tied and will be there forever it can not be cut or forgotten

And please don't respond to this message if it made u mad delete if good absorb it

stay happy you cutie will always miss you ❤️