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honestly speaking for myself i feel like having to claw your way up from the grave would be really cathartic and existentially meaningful. so like if anyone was considering kidnapping me and burying me alive i'm cool with it.

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i love you blunt I love you highway I love you black ice

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Unstoppable force (my desire to ramble) meets unmovable force (my desire to never say a word ever)

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Sometimes you're just coping well and then BAM BOOM BADABING your liked songs on shuffle conspire to emotionally destroy you.

Lucy Dacus you are too powerful, please go back in time and stop yourself from writing Please Stay.

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Tumblrinas when jesse pinkman sells methamphetamine to people in recovery meetings instead of selling lemonade to fund his top surgery or whatever

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i think far too many people have only seen this video as that one sped up gif version of it and that is a crime that needs to be fixed because this video actually changed my life

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the general population’s education of indigenous american cultures is literally painful like people walk around not knowing that native americans domesticated dogs and turkeys, that many communities had farms that stretched for hundreds of miles, that many communities had completely terraformed their territories, that there were native trade systems stretching across the continent, that there were native metalsmiths before european arrival, that most native people were multilingual etc

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a little silly comic of kratos ordering atreus a happy meal

also want to credit @mikamoony since it’s based off a scenario we both created, Rainbowdash for Atreus was her expert opinion!!!!

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Yeah, I probably will just use this as a space to vent and maybe post some of what I've been writing lately. Really like this site tbh.

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It feels weird that for once, my feelings of loneliness feel pretty isolated from my sense of self. I don't feel like it reflects poorly on me, I don't feel any lesser for going through a breakup and dealing with these emotions.

It still hurts and the loneliness I feel still borders on crippling at times, but at the very least I know it is best for both of us and that we are both still wonderful people with a lot to give to the world.

I've grown up so much these past few years and I owe a lot of that to their relentless encouragement and support. No matter what the future holds for us, I'm so greatful to have known them.

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my 2022 highlight was when a guy was driving me home after a date and his phone was playing songs on youtube thru the aux on autoplay BUT he was also using it as a satnav so we had to just cope with whatever song came on. anyway we listened to the isolated vocals for "eye of the tiger" in silence because neither of us acknowledged it and it got to a certain point where it would be even weirder if one of us did say something

/edit: I realise a text post doesn't even do it justice, it went exactly like this

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problem with dating apps is having to describe yourself in a way that makes you seem like a person with a rich interior life and sometimes you’re just not that guy. sometimes you’re just a guy who takes psychedelics and electrocutes himself constantly. and thats it

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ZERI art i have done in my mind she is naphs older sister

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Idk what to post on grumblr what the heck!