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A letter Jodi claims came from Travis, following an event where Jodi walked in on Travis masturbating to photos of young boys on his computer. Prosecution made claims to journalists that it was a proven forgery, however this was later confirmed to be a lie. The letter has not been confirmed to be neither real nor a forgery, as it is a copy, and it's authenticity could not be determined. The letter was eventually disregarded due to mistrial.

"His own expert did not say those letters were forged," [Kirk] Nurmi said. Instead, Nurmi claimed, the expert only said they could not be authenticated because they were copies.

[Full transcript of the letter below]

Jodi,

Please give me a chance to explain what you saw. I know it looks bad and honestly it is. Your probably the only person on the planet who has the capacity to understand and the compassion to even try. This goes back years. I have desires I can’t explain. What is worse is I’ve acted on those desires. I have hurt children because of urges I can’t control. I can’t help it. I know it’s pure evil but I can’t stop. I’ve prayed about it repeatedly, I’ve gotten a blessing, but nothing helps. I have gone to my bishop but I cannot tell him directly about it for obvious reasons. I had “toys” in the attic which is I never let you up there to clean. Even after I said I was done I didn’t get rid of them right away because I thought what if? What if I might need them again? I finally donated them. Enough is enough. I want to stop and at times I think I can. Other times it feels like I’ll never be able to. I can only imagine that it’s like a drug problem. I worry about getting married. I worry that my wife won’t suffice. I worry about having kids. What if I have to adopt? If they are not my seed will it be too easy? I’m scared to be alone with a boy. I get unwanted thoughts and I don’t want to act on them. It’s true, kids can get annoying but the truth is I’m scared to be alone with them.I worry about going to the Hughes in the future because Ryell is getting close to that age. It would be so easy. I know you think this is sick. I am sick. I’ve had sex with boys and I don’t know if they’ll ever get past what I’ve done. The truth is I fucking hate myself! I want to kill myself! I want to blow my fucking head off! Sometimes I can’t stand being alive. I’m sorry you had to see what you saw. Honestly you’ve helped me on several occasions without even knowing it. You’ve been an outlet frustrations via the fantasy enactments. It’s one of the reasons I like anal sex so much. It’s the reason for the boys underwear. Don’t get me wrong I’m not gay. I’m not a fag. I’ve just had this inside me. And when I’m getting it from girls I desire boys less. I know this is evil. But this is not who I am nor who I am becoming. Jodi, I don’t want to be labeled a pedophile or a child molester. Do you understand what I am saying? Please just call me. I need to know that I can trust you. I know I can trust you. I’ll tell you everything. Just call me. You have never judged me before. Please do not judge me now. Just call me when your done reading this. T.V.A.

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my mugshots if dr spencer reid was watching

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Let me be the girl whose innocence he stole. Let me watch as he takes away my young girlhood and leaves and unloved woman in her place.

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these porn ads really make my daily tumblr scrolls difficult & traumatizing asf

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I'm not immune to men covered in blood

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obsession or nothing

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Chaumont, New York

built in 1878

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made by me

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a note from kurt to courtney. c 1991.

i parade you around proudly like the ring on my finger.

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who wants to come over and do this

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where is my boy with good music taste who wears cute sweaters and loves me sooo much