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almost one year later and I’m still wondering the same thing

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!

Not going to lie, I didn’t think I was going to live to see 20

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fuck your depression here’s what we’re doing

get out of your bed

clean up in every way you can think of (shower, floss, trim nails, face cleanser, everything, freshen yourself up to put it behind you)

go out in your favorite clothes and get air, go running if you can

Eat nutritious food, drink actual water, take your meds

Find the roots of your sadness and brainstorm solutions (and suicide is NEVER a solution. NEVER.)

listen to uplifting music (my playlist)

the project you’ve wanted to start or skill you’ve been wanting to learn, start working towards it today.

Remind yourself that you will make it past this and no matter what happens, you will be fine as long as you continue to push forward.

instead of writing a comment saying you can’t do these things, do these things

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Hey, do you know that feeling of hitching up a long skirt so you don’t fall on your face when walking upstairs, and then you immediately become a wretched yet resolute Jane Austen character? It’s a universal thing, right?

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when you hear mariah carey humming at the beginning of we belong together and you have to mentally collect yourself to sing your ass off for the next 3 minutes and 20 seconds

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GIVE HIM THE FISH

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“If there is any good in me, it’s from God.”

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no offense but the soft uncertain kiss followed by a pause where the people look each other in the eyes and then fucking pull eachother back into a more passionate kiss will always be the most soul destroying trope , catch me lying on the fucking ground sobbing and rewatching The Scene™✌🏼✌🏼✌🏼

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I babysit for a girl who use to think her mom’s name was “my love” because her dad said it so often to her and that’s just freaking cute I can’t

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Just cus i cant live off pasta doesnt mean i wont live off pasta

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There is power in prayer.

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Time-lapse of a rain storm. This is located in a lake in Carinthia, Austria called “Millstättersee”. Video taken by Peter Maier. More interesting posts here: sixpenceee.com/tagged/world

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Harvey Ball- creator of The Smiley Face

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God’s compassion for the suicidal

In 1 Kings 19:4-14 Elijah feels suicidal, and tells God to take his life. 

God doesn’t get angry at Elijah.

He doesn’t tell him that he’s being silly, or that suicide won’t solve anything. He doesn’t freak out, nor does he ignore Elijah’s cry. God validates Elijah’s pain. Through an angel, God provides Elijah with food and water because Elijah is probably exhausted (he had fallen asleep under a tree after telling God that he wanted to die, and this was probably the safest thing at that point for Elijah). Getting to the point where you don’t want to live any more is an exhausting place to be. You cannot think of anything else other than wanting to end the pain.

Once he’d finished eating, Elijah lies down again. But God wants to continue validating Elijah, and continues to have compassion over him. He wants to be with Elijah during his crisis. He wants to keep Elijah safe. The angel comes back again (1 Kings 19:7) and this time adds (and validates) that the journey is too much for Elijah (1 Kings 19:8) and that he needed more food. Elijah was then able to move on and travel for forty days and nights to reach Horeb.

I really love 1 Kings 19:4-14. It tells us a lot about God. He cares about people who are suicidal – he is loving, gentle, patient, compassionate, and he knows what we need. He provides Elijah with physical, spiritual and emotional healing. 

The church could probably learn a lot from the way God deals with Elijah. Suicidal thoughts are something which are incredibly common but the church doesn’t always deal with them in the best way. Often, suicidal thoughts are invalidated and ignored rather than validated and accepted. 

The angel is gentle with Elijah. He doesn’t tell him to pray more, nor does he tell Elijah that suicide’s a sin or that he’s demon possessed. He doesn’t even tell Elijah to stop feeling suicidal – he simply tells Elijah to eat.

When you feel invalidated, remember that God validates you fully. He accepts and acknowledges how you feel, and he says it’s okay.

If you feel suicidal, I encourage you to reach out for emergency help.

My ask is also always open for people who need help.