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Silenced (pt.5)

pairing : max mayfield x reader

warnings : angst, curse words, abuse

summary : max and y/n have been best friends for years, although they are quite the opposite from one another when it comes to communicating. y/n has always had the habit of talking a lot. which usually has never been a problem for max. but sometimes all it takes is the wrong moment.

words : 2.2k

notes : this was a request <3

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Sunday

“And I regret everything I said that-, I regret what I-…. I- Come on Max, get your shit together.. I am more than sorry for what I said to you but-, no, no but.”

Max had been practicing her apology back and forth as she made her way towards y/n’s place. And she would have already been there more than an hour ago, if it wasn’t for her frayed nerves. Because when she finally stood in front of y/n’s home, her courage had suddenly left her. Ultimately she decided to go back and stroll around the neighborhood for a little longer before confronting her best friend. Since one thing she didn’t plan on doing, was messing this up.

Her head was filled with a hundred different thoughts, which she had all written down on a piece of paper. By now it was crumbled inside her fist, since she’s been holding onto it like her life depended on it.

“I cannot live without you y/n and no mat-…..god no, that sounds so manipulative. Again… I cannot imagine a life without you… yea that’s better.”

But the redhead’s mind was also filled with doubt about the entire situation. She thought about just going back to her trailer multiple times in the past couple of minutes. Worrying about whether y/n would be able to forgive her, she tried to prepare herself for the worst outcome.

About an hour later, Max finally stood in front of y/n’s door. She quickly folded her note again and put it in her back pocket. It took her a few minutes to collect herself but she managed to overcome her fears and pressed the doorbell after all. While she was waiting for someone to open the door, she kept practicing her first sentences out loud.

“Hey y/n, I was wondering if you have time to talk? To me? No, that sounds so stupid. Hi y/n. Do you by any chance have a minute or two for me? No. Hey, could we maybe talk?… God, why does-“

Her practice was soon interrupted as someone surprisingly tapped her on the shoulder.

“Max?”, a familiar voice asked from behind her.

As Max turned around she saw y/n with a half-smile on their face, standing awkwardly in front of her. They put their hands behind their back and stood as straight as possible.

“Oh uhm-.. hey y/n.”, Max greeted them, obviously embarrassed.

“Hi Max… Uhm, lucky for you I do have one or two minutes.”, y/n declared, trying to ease the tension a little.

Understanding that y/n had heard Max’s rambling, a red taint started spreading across her face. It wasn’t like y/n had never heard Max practice her sentences before. They knew exactly how she behaves in similar situations, nervous to say something that comes across different than she intends it to. But still, it just hit a wrong nerve in that very moment.

“Well we’re off to a good start. Great.”, she whispered to herself.

Already sorry for making Max uncomfortable, y/n’s smile dropped quickly. They always secretly admired their best friend for her efforts to find the right words. And they admired her right now. It just wasn’t the right moment to admit to it. As the two of them just stood there in silence, y/n decided to take the lead.

“Shall we sit by the oak tree? To talk?”, y/n asked in a soft tone.

Max just nodded in response, following y/n as they started walking towards the tree. It was actually one of their favorite places in Hawkins. The oak tree looked like it came out of a fairytale, old and mystical. Sitting underneath it just felt like entering a different realm, but an exceptionally magical one. Also, they would sit there often, as it is the only bench in the vicinity of like five miles.

When they arrived, y/n sat down on the old bench and patted the spot next to them. Hesitant about where exactly to sit, Max sat down at the other end of the bench.

“Okay so. There is no easy way to say this but..”, the redhead started off saying.

She fumbled inside her pockets until she found the almost completely demolished note she‘s been carrying around. Looking over to y/n, Max saw their eyes widen.

“Don’t judge okay, there is a lot to say and I don’t want to forget anything.”, Max mumbled, still unsure of how to approach this situation.

Y/n shook their head, also unsure of what to expect. They were still a little hurt by Max’s words. Her voice was still replaying in their head now and then, reminding them how upset they felt in that situation. It was probably the most hurtful thing someone has ever said to them. They didn’t mind random strangers or people at school insulting them anymore. But hearing it from your own best friend? That just hits in a different place.

Nevertheless, y/n missed Max badly. More than they have ever missed anyone. It was weird going about their every day life, knowing that Max wasn’t there to vent to. Spending no time with her. Not knowing what was going on in her life. Ultimately, y/n knew that they were the one who actively decided to isolate themselves and cut Max off. But god, how much they wished things to be different again.

“Me judging you? Never. I’m all ears.”, y/n replied honestly, focusing their gaze on Max.

“So uhm… as we both know I made a mistake.”, she started off saying while unfolding the piece of paper. She then took a small pause, waiting for y/n’s agreement.

However, y/n showed no reaction as they kept on waiting for Max to continue. The redhead focused her attention back on her paper and cleared her throat.

“And on that day, I said the words that I said and there is no excuse for that. However, I would like to explain why I was an asshole in general on that day.”

Max’s mom had the habit of drinking too much. Well, that’s at least the more innocent way to describe it. After all, she was what people would call an alcoholic. Coming home each day and not knowing what exactly to expect wasn’t easy for Max. Although she was supposed to be a carefree teenager, it felt like she had to be the mom in the household.

When Max came home last Sunday, her mom was asleep on the couch, a half empty bottle standing right next to her. Since Max didn’t have the energy to wake her mom up, she simply emptied the other half of the bottle and put it away. After that, she covered her mom in a blanket and went to bed herself. It wasn’t the first time for a situation like this to happen and it surely wouldn’t be the last time.

But the next morning, Max’s actions had a different outcome. Usually her mom would barely remember the night before. But on this monday morning, she came storming into Max’s space.

“Where is my bottle Maxine??”, she shouted almost incomprehensible.

Max, who was barely awake, opened her eyes and looked over to her enraged mother.

“Mom I-, I don’t know.”, she replied, not knowing how to estimate the situation.

“Don’t act stupid young lady. Where is it??”, her mom shouted out again, walking over to her half-asleep daughter.

Max didn’t answer quick enough, still confused by her mom’s sudden outburst. In response, her mother grabbed her by the wrist and continued shouting at her.

“Where the fuck is it??”, she spit at her.

“Mom let me go!! I threw it away okay! Now let me go!”, Max demanded desperately, trying to free herself from her grip.

Her mother just starred at her in disgust, her anger still owning her.

“I wish I never had you Maxine Mayfield. Next time you touch my stuff I won’t be as nice to you.”, she replied sternly, letting go of Max’s wrist.

After Max was finished with her explanation of the certain monday morning, y/n couldn’t say a word at first. They just starred at Max, unsure of what to say. The redhead noticed that y/n was overwhelmed with her confession, so she tried to ease the tension and play it down a little.

“But let’s not make a big deal out of it. Facts are, I lied to your face when I said you’re annoying just to get my anger out and I tried to hurt you because I can’t deal with having people around me that actually care about me and-“, Max tried to carry on.

“No Max, stop. Don’t. It is a big deal and I can’t believe that happened to you. That’s horrible. I’m so sorry.”, y/n interrupted Max. They scooted closer to her and put their hand on hers, trying to show support.

All of a sudden, the physical affection and y/n’s words made Max get emotional. Tears started forming inside her eyes, as she took y/n’s hand and pressed on it. This was the first time she told someone about what happened. By now she had almost forgotten how hard it hit her, how horrible it made her feel.

Not saying anything after that, Max started crying hardly. All her bottled up emotions about the situation just started spilling, especially since she wasn’t able to tell y/n about it until now. She planned on doing so, but then things got ugly.

Y/n took Max inside their arms and held her close until her sobs got quieter. It was relieving for both of them in a way. They let themselves linger in the moment, enjoying each other’s presence to the fullest. Max’s note slipped out of her hand without her even noticing, slowly drifting away to wherever the wind took it.

“I’m so sorry y/n. I really am. I hate myself for the way I treated you. You know I would never agree with those bullies. Ever. You never annoy me, I just-… I was an asshole.”, Max whispered softly, still cuddling into y/n.

As she pulled away, y/n wiped Max’s tears away. For a short moment they just admired their best friend. The way she’s been handling things over the past years that no one else could even imagine amazed y/n to the core. It always has but it became so normal to Max to live under such conditions, that it became normal for y/n too.

“You are always there for me y/n. Even when I’m being a pain in the ass. And you know it means the world to me. You’re caring and kind. You’re always listening to what I have to say. And everyone who calls you annoying simply doesn’t deserve you… I don’t deserve you.”, the redhead spoke out with a broken voice.

“That’s bullshit Max. You do deserve me. You deserve everything good the world has to offer.”, y/n replied in a soft tone as they put a strand of Max’s hair behind her ear.

“But I hurt you y/n and I wa-“, Max tried to say before y/n interrupted her.

“Yes Max. I won’t lie to you, I was hurt. It hurt really badly. But I forgive you and I do understand where you were coming from now. I’m sorry for not being able to be there for you.”, y/n admitted.

Once again, Max was the one to have a small break down. She collapsed into y/n’s arms, but this time she broke down from relief. Max knew how much of an asshole she was, and still y/n was able to forgive her.

“You’re not supposed to be the one to apologize.”, Max complained in a muffled tone, as her face was pressed into y/n’s shoulder.

Y/n patted her back softly, as they rested their head on Max’s head.

“I’m… sorry? For apologizing?”, y/n slowly spoke out, making Max look up. She softly giggled at her friend’s response.

“You’re such a dork y/n.”, she replied, making y/n giggle. The redhead just starred at y/n after that, admiring them. “And you’re the best person I know… You’re the only one that ever truly cared about me. And you’re supportive, attentive… loving…”

Max got lost in her thoughts as her gaze kept lingering on y/n’s lips, which were forming a small smile. She didn’t know what struck her in that moment, but before y/n could even react, Max pulled their best friend closer to her face and placed her lips on theirs.

Both of their mind’s just went blank, y/n too startled to kiss back at first. But just before Max was about to pull back again, y/n placed their hand on her cheek and moved their lips against hers. The kiss was soft and gentle but intense at the same time. Max’s hand pressed on y/n’s arm softly, scared y/n would slip away again any moment.

It wasn’t only the closest act of intimacy they had ever shared, it was the reunion of two people, who had been feeling lost for a while and now finally returned home. Who found each other again.

After the two of them let go of each other, they put their foreheads together, their noses slightly touching.

“Promise, I won’t ever let you go again. And I won’t ever hurt you again.”, Max whispered softly, making y/n’s already bright smile even brighter.

Y/n took Max’s hand in theirs, placing a soft kiss on her knuckles.

“I know.”, they replied quietly.

A/N: I know this took a loooong time but I’m moving out soon and things are stressful. Also there might be a few mistakes, my brain is lazy atm. So with that being said, I hope you still enjoy this part and you’re happy with the ending 🤍 also my tumblr doesn’t find most of yours tags for some reason 😫 sorry </3

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are y’all ready for the last part 👀

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…i know it’s been YEARS but some stuff happened and… yes. BUT i’m not deceased. just so you know..

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not me taking requests and making multiple part series out of them 😫 if i continue to do so, i will literally never get through the ones i have left. but i can’t stop myself 💀

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Silenced (pt.4)

pairing : max mayfield x reader

warnings : angst, curse words, slight mention of abuse

summary : max and y/n have been best friends for years, although they are quite the opposite from one another when it comes to communicating. y/n has always had the habit of talking a lot. which usually has never been a problem for max. but sometimes all it takes is the wrong moment.

words : 1.3k

notes : this was a request <3

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Friday

Being lonely certainly wasn’t an unfamiliar feeling to Max Mayfield. Growing up in an abusive household, having an addict as a mother and being the witness of your own brother’s death were the type of things that don’t just pass you by. They shape you as a person and force you to change your behavior in certain ways. Most of that in order to just get through your every day life. And even if things in Max‘s life got even worse after moving from California to Hawkins, there was one positive aspect in between all the bad.

Since knowing y/n l/n, Max had no longer felt lonely. Back home Max had one good friend but besides that she had always felt like an outcast after her family situation changed. No one was there to turn to when she had something heavy on her chest. But since y/n entered her life, things changed drastically. Even if they were nowhere near, Max knew that she could always count on them.

When things got bad at home again, y/n was there to cheer her up. They would listen to every thing she had to say and they would hold her as long as she needed to. When Billie died, y/n was the only person that could comfort Max. Not only that, but they were the only person that she would let near her at all. When everything in Max’s life began to feel uncertain, there was still one thing that she could be certain of. That y/n would never leave her alone. Ever.

That was at least until now. Today was the first time in years that Max felt lonely again. Wandering through the hallways of school like a lost puppy, it took everything inside of her not to break down. Besides the fact that Max herself thought that she didn’t have the right to cry about it in the first place, she mastered the art of hiding her feelings over the last couple of years and she wouldn’t want to break her streak.

Y/n always made her soft somehow, giving her the chance to cry it all out. And although she usually despised crying, being inside y/n’s arms, feeling as safe as she did, somehow it had felt okay to cry. But y/n was nowhere near and they wouldn’t be until Max found a way to fix things.

“Hey Max!”, a familiar voice greeted from behind her as she had just left the building.

As she turned around she saw Lucas running up to her. Already unamused by the thought of a social interaction, Max turned her face forward again.

“What do you want Lucas?”, she asked annoyed as he caught up to her. The redhead just tried to keep on walking, signaling him that she was not in the mood to talk.

Lucas didn’t catch the hint though and jogged in front of her. Stopping in his tracks, he forced Max to stop with him.

“I was wondering if you’d like to come to my game this evening!”, he asked excitedly, raising his eyebrows.

“Yes, of course Lucas! I’m obviously in a really good mood so why wouldn’t I want to watch a bunch of men pass around a ball? It would probably change my miserable life for the better!”, Max answered overly excited.

Lucas excitement dropped as soon as the first sentence left her mouth.

“That’s sarcasm isn’t it?”, Lucas said in a disappointed tone.

“I’m busy Lucas, thank you.”, she replied quickly, trying to get past him.

Lucas had been worrying about Max since the beginning of this week, especially since she started walking around school without y/n by her side. Everyone had noticed a change of things, but no one really dared to ask Max about it. Especially after she ditched Dustin as fast as she did when he had asked. But Lucas was sick of playing pretend like the rest of the party, so he stepped in front of her yet again.

“Does this have something to do with the y/n situation? You know you can talk to me Max. I’m right here.”, he commented softly, trying to make Max talk to him.

“I’m good, thank you.”, Max almost spit out.

“I know y/n can be a little too much sometimes but if they said something insensitive they probably didn’t mean it Max. Out of all people-“, Lucas tried to explain before getting interrupted by an angered Max.

“Stop Lucas, you don’t know shit!”, she shouted angrily.

Before continuing to scream at him, her mind went blank for a second. The last time she acted purely out of emotion, it went completely backwards. Some part of her knew that Lucas just meant well. He was worrying about her and how is he supposed to know what was going when Max gave him nothing but a silent treatment? The rest of the party didn’t know y/n like she did. Lucas just wanted to help.

Looking at Lucas shocked expression, Max took a deep breath and collected herself.

“I’m sorry. Y/n did not say anything remotely insensitive at all. I was the one who acted foolish, hurting y/n because I didn’t know how to deal with my anger otherwise. And now I’m doing it again by screaming at you… I almost sound like my step-father.”, Max articulated calmly, mumbling the last part.

Lucas’ face softened again, his posture relaxing as Max finished her sentence. He knew that Max wasn’t a hugger, so instead he put his hand on her shoulder and gave her a smile.

“But see? It looks like you’ve learned your lesson Max. The only thing the past is good for is to learn from mistakes and you obviously did that!”, Lucas explained. “Besides, since you like y/n, I guess it’s just harder to deal with so many emotions at once.”

Max’s eyes shot up at Lucas, unsure of what she had just heard.

“What?”, Max replied nervously.

“Come on Max, I see the way you look at them. I always did.”, Lucas commented like it was the most obvious thing in the world. “Plus, and don’t take this the wrong way, but you have your habit of pushing people away that you love”

The redhead still didn’t believe what she was hearing while a red taint had already started covering her face. Her hands became sweaty as her heart beat faster and faster. Not aware of her current condition, she just starred at Lucas in Disbelief.

“Max ? You look like you’re gonna faint.”, the boy in front of her said nervously.

“I- I’m- I’m good. But I really need to go Lucas, see you around.”, Max managed to stutter out.

Turning around with a sudden movement, Max rushed towards the bus stop. As her thoughts became more loudly by the minute, she put her headphones on and sat down on a bench, trying to catch some air. Lucas’ words were stuck in her head for the rest of the day.

Saturday

The weather was crushing over the past two days. It was hot outside but not the good kind. More like the stuffy kind. It was the type of weather that left y/n with nothing to do besides laying in bed with an ice pack on their forehead. Shortly before dehydrating, they would remember to take a sip from the bottle Max had gifted them for their last friendship anniversary. Y/n had the habit of forgetting to drink over the day, so Max always had to remind them.

“Y/n, have you been drinking enough today?”, Max asked worriedly as she turned y/n’s face towards hers.

Y/n was laying on their back half-asleep, their head in Max’s lap. Almost unable to open their eyes, they just nodded without thinking too much about it. As they tried to turn their face back to the movie that’s been on, Max stopped them.

“I’m going to get you some water, stay here.”, she insisted, carefully lifting y/n’s head up before making her way to the fridge.

As y/n was slowly drifting to sleep again, they felt a cold sensation on their neck. Content about the refreshing feeling, they snuggled into the blanket underneath them and sighed happily. But just a second after, the cold sensation was gone.

“Uh uh y/n, you’re gonna have to drink at least two sips from this before you sleep baby.”, Max commanded as she took the bottle that’s been resting on y/n’s neck back to herself again.

Opening one eye only, y/n still managed to glare at Max who just gave them a smug smile.

“Fine.”

Daydreaming through all the good memories with Max, y/n had to remind their self that things didn’t look good for their friendship at the moment. The past days were hell on earth for them, as y/n distanced themselves from literally everyone they cared about. Now and then they wondered if Max’s apology was truthful, if she meant what she said. Other times they were sure that it was just wishful thinking. For both of them.

A/N : wanted to get this out of there before the final part, bc 1. i don’t want to rush things and 2. i don’t want to make you guys wait any longer. sunday is approaching 🧚🏼‍♂️ (i tried to proof-read this but it’s literally 34 celsius outside so my brain is mushed. bare with me😫)

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thank you guys for all the love you send my way 🤍 i’m grateful for every single like, comment and reblog, even if i don’t reply to all of them! (i’m just a bad texter in general😃)

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Silenced (pt.3)

pairing : max mayfield x reader

warnings : angst, curse words

summary : max and y/n have been best friends for years, although they are quite the opposite from one another when it comes to communicating. y/n has always had the habit of talking a lot. which usually has never been a problem for max. but sometimes all it takes is the wrong moment.

words : 1.3k

notes : this was a request <3

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Thursday

After the not so successful confrontation with her best friend, Max was at a loss for options. Considering the fact that out of all people on this planet, Max was the one who knew y/n best, it should have been easy to find a way to fix things. But despite hours of overthinking and plotting, nothing really seemed to be the right approach. Especially since y/n has been acting differently towards everyone. During english class this morning, y/n would only reply to Max with one or two words at most. At least when the redhead was lucky enough to get an answer at all.

Due to Max’s helplessness, she decided to talk to someone who y/n was closest to besides herself, hoping that they could help solving the issue. In all honesty, Max was too ashamed of her own actions to let the party know what exactly was going on. Dustin had already asked her what the hell was going on with y/n, since they’ve been ignoring all of their friends. Even the entire Hellfire Club. Which made Max worry even more about y/n’s emotional condition. But Max just shrugged her shoulders and acted oblivious when Dustin asked. She was trying to avoid any other member of the party after that. At least until she fixed the y/n-problem.

After school Max made her way to the only person she could have asked for help.

“Hey Eddie.”, Max greeted the teenage boy, almost in a shy tone. She had just entered the club room of the Hellfire Club, where Eddie was preparing things for his DnD campaign.

Eddie, who was standing in the middle of the room, scribbling something in his notebook, shot his eyes up at Max and a bright smile started growing on his face.

“Mayfield!”, Eddie spoke in an excited voice. “What a surprise to see you here in this very room. Come in and be my guest.” He opened his arms widely and walked backwards to sit on his Dungeon Master chair. Putting his notebook aside, he gestured to the chair next to him.

Max slowly walked up to the table, taking a seat next to Eddie. Sitting there, she remembered that she in fact did not prepare what to say. A hundred different options to begin this conversation started racing through her head, leaving her speechless in the end. But the boy next to her noticed Max’s helpless expression on her face and decided to break the silence instead.

“Have you finally decided to join our circle Mayfield?”, Eddie questioned slightly expectant. He tilted his head to the side and gave Max a huge grin.

“Uhm..”, Max started shaking her head, “Not exactly.”

The redhead took a deep breath and straightened up in her seat.

“I’m here because I was an asshole to y/n and they’ve been acting different lately. Like-“

“Out of the norm? At least for y/n ?”, Eddie asked, interrupting Max.

Max just nodded her head in response, unsure of what Eddie already knew. The boy got up and started walking around the room. Max’s eyes followed every step he made.

“They’ve told me about it Mayfield. The day it happened. They said that you hurt them really badly. A day after that, they started ignoring all of us. Wouldn’t even sit at our table anymore.”, Eddie replied as he turned his face towards Max again.

After Max’s emotional outburst, y/n stormed out of the bathroom and made their way towards the school’s exit. They could only hold back their tears for so long until they would burst. All they wanted to do was get home as fast as possible. On their way out though, they ran into Eddie Munson. Almost stumbling over his feet, Eddie caught y/n from falling last minute.

“Woah, careful there y/n. Why are you in such a hurry?”, Eddie asked as he put his hands on y/n’s shoulders.

“I-“, was the only word y/n brought out, before having a breakdown. They started sobbing uncontrollably, much to the surprise of Eddie who has never seen y/n cry until then.

“Hey hey, it’s alright. I’m here.”, he said as he took y/n into his arms.

Max shivered at the thought of y/n having a breakdown in school. She knew how much they hated crying in public places.

“I-.. I- know. And I tried to apologize but… I know I was a total dumbass for what I did.”, she managed to stutter out, scared of what Eddie would think of her. They’ve only talked a few times before, since Eddie seemed to be some kind of brother figure to y/n. But most of the conversations just consisted of Eddie and y/n trying to convince Max of playing DnD.

To Max’s surprise, Eddie returned to the table and sat down right in front of Max. His eyes were more soft than before, his face showing no sign of anger or grudges.

“Shit happens Mayfield.”, he said, folding his hands together. “Especially since y/n basically, metaphorically, puts you on a throne. Your every word is worth gold to them, you know.”

Eddie tried to give Max a small smile, showing her that he wasn’t angry with her.

“Let me think… How can I help you with this.”, he mumbled while getting up again, walking back and forth in front of Max. “So you already tried to apologize but it didn’t work. You know, it helps telling the other person what you did wrong exactly and why it was wrong instead of just saying sorry…”

Following Eddie’s train of thought, Max noticed that she in fact only told y/n that she didn’t mean what she said. Which could only be a bunch of empty words.

“Or you could apologize for forgetting your friendship anniversary, which would have been this Monday.”, he finally said, sitting down on the table.

Max gulped. That was the special day y/n was talking about. Somehow Max forgot a day they’ve been celebrating for years now.

“Oh god.. that’s bad.”, she whispered to herself.

“Y/n admires you Max. They love everything about you. What you do and what you don’t do.”, Eddie started telling, putting his hand on Max’s shoulder. “That’s why they take your words and engrave them into their mind. Which until then, always had a positive outcome.”

He took his hand back to himself and rested it on his leg, looking around the room again.

“The reason y/n joined this club in the first place, is that they have always felt like an outsider. Someone most people would find annoying. I remember the first time they started ranting through one of our meetings. And they started apologizing to me later after the meeting was over. They said that they tend to be annoying. I of course told them that they didn’t need to apologize and that I don’t find them to be annoying. You know what they said?”

Max shook her head in response. A lump was already forming inside of her throat.

“They said that the only person who lets them be exactly who they are until now, is you. That you’ve told them multiple times to not apologize for the way you are.”, Eddie replied, giving Max a bright smile. “They said that they should have listened to you.”

Max tried her best to hold back her tears but a few sobs still came through. Eddie tried his best to comfort her by encouraging her with words but ultimately they ended up just sitting in comfortable silence. After a while, Max spoke up again.

“I need to fix this.”, she said sternly.

“And you will Mayfield. I’m sure of it.”, Eddie comments confidently.

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Silenced (pt.2)

pairing : max mayfield x reader

warnings : angst, curse words

summary : max and y/n have been best friends for years, although they are quite the opposite from one another when it comes to communicating. y/n has always had the habit of talking a lot. which usually has never been a problem for max. but sometimes all it takes is the wrong moment.

words : 1.5k

notes : this was a request <3 also it broke my heart to see how many of you could relate to the last part :( i once heard that people criticize the character traits of others which they would secretly like to have or traits that they in fact do have but are too scared to live out. i think there’s some truth to that, so just keep that in mind. much love to all of you 🤍

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Moving to Hawkins wasn’t exactly what Max Mayfield had been dreaming of. In fact, everything about it was scary to her. Going to a new school, meeting new people, having to find new friends. It was all just very intimidating.

After surviving the first day at Hawkins High, Max sat in front of school, waiting for her brother Billie to pick her up. She didn’t really meet potential people she would like to hang out with at all, besides a group of boys who seemed to stalk her. Not the kind of people you would want to meet on your first day. That was at least until a person approached her, a big smile on their face as they made their way over to the redhead.

“Hey, are you new here? I’ve never seen you before.”, the person greeted.

“Obviously.”, Max replied quietly, suspicious of the person.

“Well, my name is y/n.”, the person said as they sat themselves next to Max. “What’s your name?”

Y/n held out their hand, which made Max furrow her eyebrows.

“I’m Max… uhm..”, she said as she looked at y/n’s hand. “What am I supposed to see here?”

Y/n started laughing in response, taking their hand back to themselves.

“I heard people shake hands when they first meet. But we don’t have to, don’t worry. I just thought you were a hand shaker.”

Embarrassed about her own cluelessness, a blush crept upon Max’s face. She turned her head away from y/n, focusing her gaze on her skateboard instead. If she was fast enough, she could just grab the board and skate away, she thought. But her train of thought was interrupted by the person besides her.

“Is that your board?”, y/n asked.

“Uh, Yup.”, Max replied quickly.

“That is so cool. I’ve always wanted to learn how to skate. I mean, I once tried. But it ended with a sprained ankle. And some bruises. Well.. and the board broke. But I think I looked preeetty cool before all of that happened.”, y/n explained while giggling.

Max couldn’t help herself but join in. She couldn’t imagine how y/n managed to sprain her ankle and break her board at the same time.

“How in the hell did you do that?”, Max asked while laughing.

“Well, if you have time. It’s a looooong story.”

Tuesday

After the incident, Max didn't go to school the next day, scared to see her best friend. Her own words had kept her up all night, regret being the only thing on her mind. The redhead still couldn’t comprehend how such hurtful words towards y/n could have come from her own mouth. She knows how much y/n struggles with people being assholes, telling them that they were annoying because they talk too much. And still, she chose to direct all her anger at the only person that ever truly cared about her. Anger that built up because of everyone but y/n.

Y/n just hit a sensitive spot, she thought. Max could only take so much, so it wasn't entirely her fault, right? Y/n just caught her in the wrong moment.

After being in bed the entire day, Max finally got up around 5pm. Despite not moving a single muscle, her limbs felt sore, almost like she just ran an entire marathon. Still, she made her way towards her wardrobe to get out a small box. After getting it, she sat back down on her bed and searched through it. The entire box was filled with photos of y/n and Max. And those were just the ones that couldn’t fit on her wall anymore.

Max took out each photo carefully, smiling at every memory that flooded through her head. Some photos were from just two weeks ago, others were taken a few days after they had met.

The last photo in the box was from the day Max took y/n to the skatepark for the first time. She remembered how scared y/n was to get on her skateboard, worried they might break it. But they actually did great that day. Max had to hold their hand the entire time, but y/n was brave enough to get on the board. That was enough to make Max proud that day.

Max didn’t even notice how emotional the memory had made her. Just when a tear fell onto the photo, she noticed that she had started crying. Carefully she brushed her thumb over the picture, putting it back inside the box.

"No. It's my fault. It's entirely my fault.", Max mumbled to herself.

That night she fell asleep with the box standing next to her and a plushie inside her arms which y/n gifted her for her last birthday.

"| can't lose them."

Wednesday

Arriving at school, Max got off the bus with her headphones on once again. She was walking straight to maths class, trying to organize the words inside her mind. She didn't want to meet anybody but y/n. To apologize to them. To tell them that she was out of her mind.

The redhead spent the rest of her Tuesday thinking about what to say and what not to say. She didn’t feel ready for the conversation. After all, her head was still a mess.

When Max got to the classroom, y/n already sat at their table. From just the first impression, they actually seemed fine, Max thought. She took a deep breath and sat down next to their best friend. Taking her headphones off, Max tried to greet y/n.

“Hey y/n.”, she quietly mumbled.

Y/n turned their head to the side and gave a weak smile, “Hi Max.”

Max thought of the next thing to say but her mind just went blank. There was so much to apologize for, so much to explain. But in this very moment, nothing seemed right. So instead of engaging in another conversation, both of them just stayed quiet during the entire lesson. It was an awkward silence. Usually y/n would tell Max how their morning went or at least make little jokes throughout the lesson. But this time, both of them just stayed quiet.

When the lesson was over, y/n grabbed their backpack and made their way to their next class. Max was surprised by the sudden exit and went after them.

“Uhm, y/n.”, Max said as she grabbed their arm, “Do you have time to.. talk?”

Y/n furrowed their brows at first, her arm tensing under Max’s hand. The redhead noticed their reaction and let go immediately.

“After my next lesson, sure.”, y/n mumbled, turning around again. They left the room quickly, dodging any other confrontation.

Max’s next lesson went by awfully slow, as she was still trying to form a proper apology inside her head. Y/n’s behavior was weird but not a surprise. Still, it was awful seeing them like this. And knowing that Max herself was the reason for that.

As soon as the bell rang, Max almost jumped from her seat and went to the cafeteria. Through the crowd of people it was hard finding y/n at first. But after searching around for a while, Max found y/n sitting alone at a table in the back.

“Hey, I almost didn’t find you back here! Usually you always sit with the Hellfire Club.”, Max announced as she sat down in front of y/n.

Y/n just shrugged their shoulders as they focused on their plate, poking around in their food.

“Uhm… listen y/n. I know that just an apology isn’t enough for what I did..”, Max slowly starting saying, as she fidgeted with the cable of her headphones. “But.. I just wanted you to know that I didn’t mean what I said. I was.. I was an asshole. And I was angry and hurt. Which didn’t have to do anything with you. You were just there in the.. wrong moment.”

Y/n looked up from their plate, showing no emotion on their face.

“I totally understand if you are still hurt or angry or both. There is no way to apologize properly for what I did and no matter-“, Max started ranting again. But this time she gut interrupted.

“It’s okay.”, y/n said dryly.

Max furrowed her eyebrows confused, not knowing how to take that answer.

“You’re just gonna say it’s okay? Just like that?”, Max questioned almost offended.

Y/n once again shrug their shoulders and focused their attention back on their plate. Max started tapping her fingers on the table impatiently. She didn’t know what she was waiting for exactly. But it wasn’t a simple “It’s okay”.

“Aren’t you angry? Don’t you want to tell me how much of an asshole I was?”, Max asked almost angrily.

“No. I was angry. Not anymore.”, y/n replied calmly.

After that the two of them just sat in silence again, until y/n took their plate and got up.

“Where are you going?”, Max asked concerned.

“I’m not hungry anymore.”, y/n replied, leaving a confused Max alone at the table.

Ultimately, Max had no right to be mad at the interaction. Y/n was obviously still hurt. Even if they say otherwise. Maybe Max just has to give them a little more time, she thought.

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don’t worry loves, another part of silenced will be posted soon 🤍

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Max Mayfield Masterlist

↳ a masterlist for my best girl ♡

you can find the summary and warnings(!) before each story

✧ ────── ────── ────── ✧

*ੈ One Shots

༻¨*:·. Scoops Ahoy .·:*¨༺

༻¨*:·. Meteor .·:*¨༺

*ੈ Series

ꕥ The Side Thing ┊ part 1 ┊ part 2┊ part 3

ꕥ Arcade Rivals ┊ part 1 ┊ part 2

ꕥ Silenced┊ part 1 ┊ part 2 ┊ part 3┊ part 4 ┊ part 5

*ੈ Headcanons

❈ Yandere Headcanons

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Ooo! Could I request a Max Mayfield x reader piece? Where reader is bsf with Max but they talk a lot and every once in a while people get really mad at them for talking so much. One day reader was talking to Max, but then Max suddenly snaps at reader and tells them to shut up and stop being annoying etc.... Then readers really hurt and and Max immediately regrets saying it. After that no matter who talks to reader they are always really quiet and only responds with 1-2 words/sentences.(Part 1)-N

i decided to take a different approach with this one, i hope you enjoy it <3 and yay, it has multiple parts again.

https://selenitesdawn.tumblr.com/post/690941522547474432/silenced-pt-1

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Silenced (pt. 1)

pairing : max mayfield x reader

warnings : angst, curse words

summary : max and y/n have been best friends for years, although they are quite the opposite from one another when it comes to communicating. y/n has always had the habit of talking a lot. which usually has never been a problem for max. but sometimes all it takes is the wrong moment.

notes : this was a request <3

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Monday

The hallway was crowded with people, each and everyone living inside their own little bubble. Different groups were caught up in different conversations. And although there was no chance of being alone for a moment, some people were still lonely, just caught up in their own thoughts. Max Mayfield was one of them, walking right through the middle of the loud mess.

Although the girl had headphones on, she could still perceive muffled voices underneath the loud music blasting through her speakers. People were shouting over one another, shouting at each other and shouting with each other. It was exhausting being lonely in the middle of it all, especially since Max had an awful night. But after all, she didn’t feel like searching for her friends, let alone talk to them.

Just when Max was about to enter the toilets, her best friend y/n caught up to her.

“Hey Maxi, I’ve been searching for you all morning! Where were you during maths class?”, y/n asked bubbly.

“Not in the mood y/n.”, the redhead replied annoyed, entering the toilets and closing the door behind her.

Usually she always enjoyed her best friend’s company, but today just wasn’t a good time for conversations with y/n, since they tend to talk a lot. Max was never annoyed with them, unlike most others. Y/n just has a lot on their mind and enjoys talking about whatever goes on inside their head. And Max loves that about them. It’s great that they have no problem articulating what goes on inside their head, but the redhead was already exhausted and just had no capacity to hold a conversation.

Y/n reopened the door to the toilets, following Max quickly. Obviously confused by their best friend’s behavior, y/n still let it slide. They knew about Max’s home situation and they knew that it got really bad sometimes, which would naturally frustrate Max.

“Okay, that was not very nice Max. But lucky you, it’s a special day today and that’s why I of course forgive you.”, y/n announced in an almost heroic tone.

Max rolled her eyes, entering a stall without saying a word. She just wanted to be alone, be in silence.

“You totally missed out on all the fun during maths today. You won’t believe it, but we talked about numbers and letters today. Isn’t that fun?”, y/n said ironically.

After getting no reply, y/n tried a different method. They leaned against the stall, talking more softly than before.

“But in all honesty, I really missed you today Max. You of course don’t have to tell me where you’ve been, but if you want to.. you know I’m here.”

Max opened the stall after a few minutes, which made y/n slightly fall back. She then walked right past them to get to the sinks. She just wanted to get out of there as soon as possible, ignoring what her best friend said. But of course, they didn’t give up. They snuck up behind Max and hugged her, thinking that she might just need a gesture of affection.

Sometimes when Max would feel bad, she would just need a cuddle from y/n. But most of the time, the redhead was just too proud to ask.

So usually Max did like physical affection from y/n. In fact, y/n was the only person she would ever accept a hug from. But this time, the redhead just froze in her spot.

“I wrote down everything twice the entire lesson so you don’t have to. If you don’t understand anything, you can just ask. You know I’m not the best at maths but… yeah. And since today is a very special day, I guess we meet as always? We can meet up at my place too! You know.. just in case that your mood has to do something with your mom and with-“

Just before y/n was about to finish, they got interrupted by Max pulling away from her best friend and slightly pushing them off. Y/n was shocked by the sudden action, stepping away in response.

“Just shut the fuck up for once will you! I am obviously not in the mood to talk, what the fuck do you not understand about that?”, Max shouted angrily. Tears started forming in her eyes. “I don’t want your stupid notes and I didn’t want a fucking hug y/n, I just want you to leave me alone!”

Y/n’s eyes widened, their lips were pressed together. A big lump started forming inside of their throat. It took a lot of strength to hold themselves back from crying right there and then. But Max still wasn’t finished. Somehow it was the perfect opportunity to just let out all that anger and frustration Max had been building up over the past months.

“You know what y/n? I think I do get it now. Why people call you annoying. Why they get mad when you talk and talk and talk. You just never know when to shut the fuck up.” Her voice broke during the last sentence, a tear escaping her eye.

Although all y/n wanted to do was break down and cry their eyes out, they didn’t. Instead they just took a deep breath and left the toilets without saying a word, leaving Max behind. Just when y/n left through the door though, Max was the one to break down. She started sobbing, crying violently as she punched her fists on the ground. Immediately regretting what she had just said, she still didn’t find the strength to look for y/n and redeem it.

Instead she just stayed on the bathroom floor, starring at the ceiling as tears dropped from her cheeks.

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this made my whole day! thank you for the kind words 🥺🤍

A Special Customer

pairing : robin x fem!reader

warnings : none

summary : since the first day scoops ahoy had opened, y/n paid a visit every single day. all because she loves ice-cream, right?

third person pov

The Starcourt mall was the new hotspot in Hawkins. Hundreds of people would go there, most of the time just to hang out. It was no surprise that y/n was one of those people, but her reasoning was slightly different. She didn’t have friends to hang out with, let alone money to buy herself nice things. But nevertheless, she went to the mall every single day. The first day the mall had opened, y/n was strolling through the floors, passing by a shop named Scoops Ahoy. She peeked inside and saw the most beautiful girl she had ever laid eyes on. She was dressed in sailor clothes, wearing a funny hat and everything. After just appreciating her view for a few seconds, y/n decided to go in.

“Hey.”, was the only word she brought out, her heart racing faster than it ever did before.

“Hey.”, the girl replied softly.

“Uh, my name’s y/n.”, she continued.

“I’m Robin.”

Y/n got really flustered and didn’t know what to say next. In fact she had never been in an ice cream shop before. She started scanning the flavors, trying to hide the blush that covered her entire face.

“I’d like one scoop of strawberry please. In a waffle. With sprinkles.”, y/n managed to say.

“One scoop of strawberry in a waffle with sprinkles, got it.”, Robin repeated with a smile.

Since then, y/n went straight to the mall every day after school. It became a ritual to her, always ordering the exact same thing, spending most of her money on ice-cream by then. Robin of course wasn’t always there, which frustrated y/n a little. But as long as she worked now and then, it was always worth paying a visit. They didn’t talk much at the beginning, it was just y/n ordering and Robin doing her job. Still it was enough to make y/n’s entire week. As time passed Robin kept remembering y/n’s order and they started talking about other things. The more they talked, the more Robin started rambling about literally anything. Robin became interested in y/n’s life and how she was always there when Robin was working.

“I’m not stalking you I promise! I just come here every day.”, y/n defended herself nervously.

“You must really love ice cream then huh Sprinkles?”, Robin teased.

“Yeah.. I mean, who doesn’t love ice cream?”, y/n replied sheepishly.

Today y/n went to the mall yet again, hoping that Robin was working. She parked her bike outside and went straight to Scoops Ahoy, happy to find Robin smiling at her from behind the counter. She didn’t even have to enter the shop for Robin to finish up her order. Just when y/n was about to search for her wallet, Robin spoke up.

“That one’s on me Sprinkles. You’re our best customer. I think you deserve a free ice-cream today.”, she declared, handing the ice cream to the girl in front of her.

“Aw, thanks Robin.”, y/n chuckled.

“Hey I’m on my break now, do you maybe want to go outside with me for a while?”, Robin asked.

Y/n blushed, feeling all bubbly inside.

“Of course!”

The girls went outside and sat on a bench together, sitting in comfortable silence. Y/n couldn’t believe that she was sitting there with her crush, who actually asked her to be there. It took a while for her to realize that they were outside of Scoops Ahoy, meaning that Robin actually enjoyed spending time with y/n.

“I’m happy you love ice cream so much Sprinkles.”, Robin said after a while, smiling at the girl next to her.

“Oh yeah? Why is that?”, y/n asked innocently.

“You know why, don’t tease me.”

Y/n blushed at Robin’s comment, knowing what it indicated.

“I like you y/n, like a lot. Not in a weird way of course, just you know-“, Robin babbled.

“I like you too Robin. In a weird way maybe.”, y/n said, interrupting Robin’s upcoming rant. Her last words coming out more like a whisper.

“Are we talking about the same weird way?”, Robin stammered quietly.

“I-“, y/n blushed once again, “I think we do? I don’t know. I mean.. what normal person eats ice cream… like, every single day.”

Now it was Robin who was blushing, smiling from ear to ear.

“Well in that case, would you maybe.. go on a date? With me?”, she asked shyly.

Y/n grinned, putting her free hand on Robin’s, still holding the cone in her other hand.

“I would love to. As long as it doesn’t include ice cream.”

Robin smiled and nodded excitedly, mumbling the word “cool” to herself multiple times. After that the girls just sat there, smiling so hard that their cheeks began to hurt. After a while Robin noticed that y/n’s ice cream was melting, already dripping from the sides of the cone.

“Aren’t you going to eat that Sprinkles?”, she asked confused.

“This? Oh no, I’m actually strongly lactose intolerant.”, y/n replied like it was common sense.

“What? Are you kidding?”

“Why would I? Have you ever seen me actually eating this?”

Robin started laughing loudly when y/n joined in. After all, y/n wasn’t there for the ice cream but for one reason only. And that was the beautiful girl sitting next to her, finally being not only a crush any longer but a close friend. And surely, they were going to be even more than that.

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yandere max / mike headcannons?

tysm! <3

thank you for the request <3 i hope you like it! i actually never read or did yandere before, so i hope it’s slightly what you asked for.

Yandere Headcanons

warning : curse words

pairing : max mayfield x reader

max shows you off every chance she gets, she’s so proud to have you as her friend/partner

when you’re with others, max constantly showers you with compliments, making sure everyone knows just how great you are

but she also makes it pretty clear that you two are the duo and no one will come between you

“Y/n is my ride or die and I am theirs. It’s just that simple. We would never leave each other, ever.”

if someone doesn’t vibe with you or even dislikes you, she won’t hesitate to cut that person out of her life

whether platonically or romantically, max has always been VERY overprotective of you

whenever someone talks over you, max starts snapping or clapping in front of that person’s face

“Hey! Attention up here, y/n is talking you, asshole.”

she even stood up to billie after he made fun of you once, he actually didn’t dare to do that a second time

she definitely hypes you up every chance she gets, even if it’s just you getting out of bed after a long night

when you’re not doing too good, max goes completely out of her way to make you feel better

she has all your habits, including gesture and mimic memorized. the second your mood drops, she will know

After your social battery ran out at a birthday party, Max didn’t hesitate on taking you home.

“Come on y/n, I’m getting tired. We should go home.”

she wasn’t tired, she just didn’t want to make you feel guilty for wanting to leave

cuddling with you is one of her favorite things. she just feels so safe and calm when she’s close to you.

all in all, max is a giver. she loves to gift you things, she loves reading to you and just loves taking care of you

pairing : mike wheeler x reader

mike has never been great with words, but when he’s with you he doesn’t feel like he needs to explain himself

he loves spending time with you more than anything, it’s his way of showing affection

that’s why he literally takes you everywhere with him

“Okay so, tomorrow we play D&D, Wednesday we visit grandma’s and then on Thursday I really need to go to the post office. Got that?”

he takes every chance he gets to make you laugh. even if it makes him look like a fool

mike definitely puts your happiness first. as long as you’re okay, he’s fine

sometimes he just stares at you for minutes, admiring everything about you

whenever you’re out together, he makes sure to walk more upright and put his shoulders back, just so he seems big and scary in case someone tries to bother you

“Stay back y/n, I’ll take care of this.”

he gushes to his friends about you all the time. he wants the entire party to love you at least half as much as he does.

during d&d he sacrificed himself for you, much to the displeasure of the party. but he didn’t care what the others thought

when you hang out with the others, he always makes sure you sit next to him or at least close

“Y/n, I reserved this spot just for you, so we can sit together. Come here.”

mike definitely tries to adapt your interests. either to impress you or just so you guys have a “thing” together

he might have problems articulating his feelings towards you but he surely doesn’t have a problem with showing you

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Could we get a story with a touch starved!Robin x reader, where reader is taking care of Robin's wounds and Robin gets emotional at how gentle she's being treated, because I'd imagine Robin didn't get much attention like that from how she hands romance hahah, and maybe her feelings for reader end up spilling in the process

loved this request. thank you so much <3

Soft

pairing : robin buckley x fem!reader

warnings : wounds? but they aren’t described in detail

summary : after an unfortunate encounter with a demonic bat from the upside down, y/n treats robin’s wounds.

third person pov

“Okay Robin. Deep breaths.”

“I don’t think I can do this y/n.”

After finally getting back from the upside down, the Hawkins group already went back to planning another trip there. The group was distributed upon a hill, their stolen trailer standing on top while the teenagers prepared for another fight. Steve was busy preparing bottles of alcohol, Nancy modified her weapon with the help of Max, Eddie and Dustin practiced fighting with their self made shields while Erica and Lucas crafted weapons.

“You said you didn’t want rabies Robin, so please just let me help you with this.”, y/n pleaded with a bottle of vodka in her right hand.

Robin pressed her teeth together, her wounds hurting more badly as time passed by. Her right thigh was covered in bites, since one of those demonic bats attacked her pretty aggressively. On one hand she actually was scared of the pain the vodka would cause, on the other hand she just didn’t want y/n to stop giving her attention. Since Robin had been bitten by the bats, y/n hasn’t left her side. It felt good having her so close by. And it was the only thing that made the pain somehow bearable.

“I‘m just gonna do it okay? You can press my hand if you want to. It’s going to be much better soon, I promise.“, y/n exclaimed. She gave Robin her left hand to press on while carefully lifting the vodka bottle up.

Robin closed her eyes and tried to breathe in and out slowly.

“You’re doing so so good, just keep on breathing.”, y/n whispered softly.

She started pouring the alcohol over Robin’s thigh, the liquid cleaning the wound from any dirt. The blood infused vodka slowly dripped from her leg, as Robin still had her eyes closed. She pressed y/n’s hand strongly but still not as hard as she could, scared to hurt her best friend’s hand.

“Almost there Robin. Hold on.”, y/n mumbled.

She tried her best to be extra careful with Robin. If it was any other person, y/n would have probably just told them to not make a big deal and stop acting like a baby. But Robin is and has always been her soft spot.

When the wound seemed to be clean, y/n put the bottle aside and lifted Robin’s chin.

“All done. See?”

Robin opened her eyes and quickly gazed over her thigh before giving y/n a smile.

“Thank you y/n.”, Robin said softly.

Some seconds passed, Robin’s eyes stuck staring at y/n’s. They were one of the most beautiful things the girl had ever encountered. It was hard not to get lost in them. Especially since Robin has had a giant crush on her friend since primary school.

“You’re still pressing my hand Robin.”, y/n giggled, making Robin blush instantly.

“Sorry.”, Robin replied shyly, her cheeks covered in a red taint. She dropped the hand and focused on the grass beneath her.

Y/n carefully bandaged the bad parts before turning her attention back to Robin.

“It’s okay. We should take care of your scratches now. And I only need one hand to do so.”, y/n decided. She took Robin’s hand back in hers and gave her a warm smile.

Robin looked up and nodded eagerly, startled by the act of physical affection. Now that she thought about it, y/n and her have never had much physical contact. They would hug now and then, maybe when they saw each other after a long time or if one of them had a special day. But holding hands? This was different.

Y/n grabbed some ointment and started applying it gently on the scratches on Robin’s leg. She took her time, carefully covering each scratch. She even paid attention to the tiny ones which were barely noticeable. Robin admired her in awe. The way y/n’s hands glided over her leg, her fingers as soft as silk.

“I was really scared for you down there.”, y/n commented with her head down, still focusing on the scratches.

Robin slightly pressed her lips together, a soft smile forming on her face.

“It was scary. But.. I’m here. With you. And that’s all that matters.”, she replied quietly.

When every single scratch was taken care of, y/n put the ointment away and started blowing against Robin’s leg softly. The air hit her wounded skin, cooling it down. Y/n‘s free hand rested on Robin‘s spared leg, softly brushing her thumb up and down to calm her nerves.

Robin closed her eyes, enjoying every second of it. She got lost in the moment. Lost in the soft treatment y/n gave her. The feeling of y/n‘s hand in hers. For a minute Robin even forgot the pain. Just then a hot tear escaped her eye, rolling down slowly.

Y/n looked up to find a crying Robin.

“Robin? Are you okay? Does it hurt?”, y/n started panicking. She immediately stopped and pressed Robin‘s hand.

Robin looked up and shook her head smiling.

“No, no. It doesn‘t. I‘m just…”, Robin stopped talking for a moment. She just took in y/n‘s face. Her worried expression. It took Robin months to realize but it was the face of the person she had fallen for.

“You‘re just?”, y/n asked concerned.

“Nobody has ever been this loving or gentle with me. Like ever. And I know.. I know we just got back from this super scary place and.. situations like this confuse people. It makes them think irrationally. I guess. But…”, Robin started saying. She took a deep breath, gathering up all the courage she had left after this scary day.

“But I think I.. I think I… think we should go on a date. After this, maybe. When all of this is over, you know?”, Robin finally managed to say.

Y/n started grinning, her hand still intertwined with Robin’s.

“I think that would be a great idea.”, she replied happily.

Robin continued crying, obviously overwhelmed with all the emotions she had felt in such a short time span. Y/n just put her arms around the girl, rubbing her back gently until her sobs stopped. After that they just remained for a while, holding each other close, cuddling on top of the hill while the world around them seemed to collapse.

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hey guys ! atm i’m working on another request. thank you for sticking around and reading my work, it means a lot 🤍

also, thank you for the numerous requests, i‘m happy about every single one. thank you for your patience, as i am sadly pretty busy at the moment.

on another note, it was my birthday on friday (yes i share a birthday with maya hawke), which means i‘m officially one year older. yay!

stay safe and you will hear from me soon <3