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gping back and forth in my head whether its worth it to reach out or not because i feel so shitty right now and i dont want to be alone but it feels like itd be such a bother and its not like id even be able to really talk about whats bothering me so whats the point, id just be dragging them out for nothing

and its not like i cant get through it alone, i mean i did it for years so maybe im just overreacting now

i feel brand new at hurting this badly lol, like i had it good for too long and i forgot how bad it really felt

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Slow progress is better than no progress 🪽

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as if i’d dare tell my friends

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babe you changed tone mid conversation, do you want me to die???

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🕯️.

🕯️ 🕯️

🕯️ 🕯️

🕯️I will lose 50lbs by 🕯️

🕯️ December 🕯️

🕯️ 🕯️

🕯️.

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i hope you heal from the things no one ever apologized for

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Maria Gray, from “Bad Nostalgia”

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I'm sorry if I hurt you, the pain was meant for me

- Hollywood Undead (Alright)

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i might lose my spark but i'm thinner and that's all that matters

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You’re going to have the body you want

You’re going to lose the weight

You’re going to fit in the clothes you like

You’re going to step on the scale and be proud

You’re going to look in the mirror and smile

You can do this

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feeling comfortable with the feeling of hunger and finding it comforting it's another level of Ana and feeling pure and empty 

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Do people who don’t have EDs not get euphoria from hunger highs? Like I always hear people say they’re sick of their diet but I never want to stop… to me, when my fat is oxidizing it feels like amphetamines, straight up.

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