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if Kafka's child killed him, it wouldn't be patricide, it would be pesticide.

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when you grew up as a lonely uncool girl it will never stop haunting you by the way. you will meet a cool person at a bar or the train station or at a friend's party and you can wear your most stylish outfit and striking eye makeup and you will swear that they can see through all of the facade and see the lonely terribly insecure teenage girl you used to be who desperately wanted to connect and you will swear that they know that there is like an insurmountable gap between you. this will happen forever

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reblog to give your headache to elon musk instead

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I finished up my episode poster series for Season 1 of Severance... and here it is! I'll wrap up my Season 2 designs this weekend after the finale drops tomorrow night. This was a really fun project to focus on in my spare time over the last 7 weeks and I hope fellow fans of the show like the results. I'll be adding/restocking prints of all 19 episode designs to my shop on Saturday (after I design the poster for Cold Harbor) so stay tuned.

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hey man I found a piece of your soul stuck in the text messages of old friends you don’t speak to anymore. do you want it back

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so I got into grad school today with my shitty 2.8 gpa and the moral of the story is reblog those good luck posts for the love of god

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ok so the thing about carmilla (1872) is that carmilla has probably done the "oh i'm so in love with you" shtick with so many girls that she has devoured. it's textbook predatory lesbianism and 19th century fear of the queer, or monstrous sexuality as jack halberstam puts it in skin shows.

but what if carmilla did love those girls? what if laura is not just one in many victims of carmilla, but an actual object of love? after all, vampirism is often a perversion of desire, and oh what twisted love is that of literally consuming each and every one of your partners?

and that's not even to say of how long carmilla put off devouring laura. she fed off of so many villagers and killed so many villagers before -- what very well may be resorting to -- laura. can we say that carmilla is even protective of laura in this regard? that carmilla would put off feeding for so long to protect laura from herself?

of course she's a predator. of course she is savoring her meal. of course she uses laura's love as a way to guard herself from suspicion. but i don't think it was all a game. i don't think that when carmilla said, "you must come with me, loving me, to death; or else hate me and still come with me," she was merely speaking as a predator. after all, what simple predator asks for their prey to come with them to death?

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hey girl, um, we were having a bacchanal and we kinda tore your boyfriend to shreds. yeah, ripped his head clean off. sorry about that :/

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"If I am worth anything later, I am worth something now. For wheat is wheat, even if people think it is grass in the beginning." - Vincent Van Gogh

Painting: "Wheatfield with a Reaper" by Vincent van Gogh

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All of Us Strangers (2023)

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literally the craziest experience ever when you watch something and you feel it affect you deeply and you come out of it wanting to throw up and cry and turn your whole life around. and then you see what your friends think about it and they're like. "yeah it was sad" "yeah it was pretty good" "yeah i don't really know how i feel about it." ok well im eating my hair and ripping my clothes and howling at the moon so.

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laid up in bed googling normal things like have i ruined my life. is it too late

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the suicidal ideation man who lives in my brain and i kind of have a weird sex thing going on im ngl

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This too shall pass but like holy fuck

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if you're interested in experiencing the most undignified way of having a bad time ever devised, then look no further than having a body