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i’m so slow everywhere right now because i have deadlines everywhere.  so sorry for being so slow though. 

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saru ‘i’m acting captain when pike is away’ saru. 

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           THE CREW WERE STILL MOURNING   over airiam,   it might have been the RIGHT thing,    but they could have saved her.     could have done something.     and right now,   commander saru, officer aboard the star ship discovery     was worried about the safety of the crew under their captain.    especially with such a high stakes mission to achieve.    he was starting to question his motivations and intentions. if the discovery lost another crew member...  his hands clenched into fists,    his eyes scanning the data until he felt something.    his hands unclenching to touch the back of his neck.  he was beginning to get back his senses,    and it was heightened once more.   he turned around and saw Captain Pike. He moved his hand away and tried to remain calm, not raise his voice, act like a STARFLEET officer.   a nod of respect, he had to remember rank.   remain calm.     ❛  captain,   do you require anything?   is everything alright?  ❜ 

              @starsilver​        :         STARTER CALL

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when your muse is an emotional boy and you don’t agree with him on anything. 

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Saru just wants to protect the crew now they’ve lost another member and i do think he blames Pike. 

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great the crew get to watch their friend in pain.... again.     fucking brilliant plan. 

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what if it doesn’t work? indeed. 

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you do know his gay right?     best line ever. 

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SARU . IS PROTECTING THE CREW.    AND .  STILL HAS A SENSE OF DANGER.   I LOVE HIM? 

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saru singing a song for airiam. i love it. i love it.   the episode can end now because i’ve seen you all live blogging. 

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more misc memes

“  change isn’t easy.  ” “  i just wanted to say i’m sorry.  ” “  i guess being angry was/is just easier than being sad.  ”  “  what did you want to tell me?  ” “  it was supposed to be simple.  ” “  you’ve got blood on your shirt.  ” “  you can stay with me.  ” “  what did you want to show me?  ” “  i miss ____ more than i thought i would.  ” “  i don’t like to talk about it, but i wanted you to know.  ” “  shut up. please.  ” “  fuck off.  ” “  hush, i’m trying to kiss you.  ” “  you’re lucky you’re cute.  ” “  i fucked up.  ” “  i just want to take it all back.  ” “  i can’t sleep.  ”  /  “  can’t sleep?  ” “  we should get a pet.  ” “  if you have something to say, spit it out.  ” “  i’m allowed to be angry.  ” “  she/he aint even that cute.  ” “  just hold me.  ” “  do you want me to go?  ”   “  i just need time.  ” “  i already made my decision, you’re not going to change that.  ”   “  nothing you can say will surprise me.  ” “  everyone leaves, eventually. either they move on or they die. they leave and i’m left behind.  ” “  death is a part of life. i accepted that a long time ago.  ” “  i don’t fear death. i fear anonymity.  ” “  listen to me, please.  ” “  i’m not even sure what to say to that.  ” “  that should probably shock me, but honestly it doesn’t.  ” “  am i supposed to care?  ” “  i do care.  ”   “  you make me happy.  ” “  you look beautiful like this.  ”   “  if this is your idea of fun, i don’t know what to say to you.  ” “  it terrifies me.  ”   “  just let me show you how i feel.  ”

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reasons i haven’t replied back:

- i’m socially exhausted - i don’t have the time right now - i don’t know how to reply - i have a bad memory and got distracted - i’m having a depressive episode and don’t have the energy to socialise

not reasons i haven’t replied back:

- i’m ignoring you just because - i hate you - i’m fed up with you - i don’t want to be your friend anymore

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STARTER CALL!

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what’s worse being an engineer or red shirt on the u.s.s enterprise OR being a bridge crew member on the u.s.s discovery?   discuss. 

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airiam is the best.     and we love her. 

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I’m at work but on door so add me on discord at oops I did it again#6541 and let’s plot!

This goes for all my blogs: @defyinstincts and @staffengiineer as well

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what do you do for fun?  over-analysing saru from star trek because his been in the background for a bit and it’s my job to pick up every little thing.