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Why can’t I just pronounce stuff like a normal person. Why does my mouth just not do it and why does everyone keep insisting that it is my fault for not having jet learned to. I can’t, I’ve physically tried and I can’t, and it sucks because I love oratory, I love reciting things but she (my mom) will always insist that I do it badly because of one problem in my pronunciation that I know I can’t fix, because I’ve tried, hard enough, and I’m fine with it, but they aren’t and I just wish I could talk correctly, I just… idk

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One more kilogram and I’ll let myself maintain istg, one more 🙏🏻

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Seen your award post and wanted to say congratulations on the award! 🥳🤓

Tysm!

Although im exhausted, such a long trip. Granted, my friends made it fun. Still, it’s quite validating to get those awards

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Went on a school trip with some friends and got a National academic excellence award. Lovely day tbh

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I would wilfully eat tortillas, milk, cheese, and tomatoes for my entire life if I could, with the possible addition of bread

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Based on recent events (ikyk what I’m talking about here) I would like to recall back to something I said on an older post of mine

“But if life has a meaning, you don’t need to find It. You just need to keep living, searching for it, climbing through the mountains of your existence with no map but the certainty inside you that maybe one day you will have the answer, that it will get better. And if it doesn’t have one, the search for it won’t be pointless, because by searching for it you would’ve created a meaning, the meaning of searching for one. I hope I am not making a fool of myself here, but even if what I say doesn’t make sense it doesn’t matter because it keeps me going, and what keeps me going doesn’t have to be logical, just effective.”

What keeps you going doesn’t have to make sense, it just has to keep you going. It doesn’t matter how small it is, as long as you hold on to it tightly, as long as you hold on to life, it will be worth it. I promise. It will. You will thank yourself for holding on, it’s the least you can do, it’s the most you can do, it’s all you need to do.

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hi amelia youre so cool i love you please dont die

Hi erm thank you so much. I really have no idea what is going on (sorry I live in my own world 97% of the time) but I can assure you and anyone else here. I will not die any time soon. If anything, I love life a lot, and I hope people can understand that life is worth living even when it feels like it isn’t and that to keep going is the bravest and most noble thing anyone can do.

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Once again a reminder that eating disorders aren’t a one size fits all illness and that size isn’t XXS.

No matter if you are not underweight, if you are “eating more” for whatever reason that may be, if you don’t show physical signs, if you don’t fast, if you’ve never fainted or purged, if you don’t have negative nets or whatever else makes you feel like you can’t be considered disordered. A non disordered person doesn’t want to be sicker.

You are enough, you are sick enough, you don’t need to be sicker to be valid

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Okay so I’m sitting down and writing and…

*creative block slaps me in the face*

But no like fr, words come out like fountain water but concepts and storylines refuse to appear. That’s why I usually write from prompts I suppose

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The highs and lows of my self steem are not funny

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I feel so fucking incompetent

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woah i love ur cute af theme

Aaaahh thanks!

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My aunt still calling me “Gordita” (fatty, but like, a playful nickname) even whilst visibly underweight is driving me crazyyy, like she tells me I’m skinny and all but also keeps calling me that… quit the nickname god damn it 😭

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“Forcing myself to like unsweetened tea/coffe”

Dude, even before restricting I hated the taste of sweetened beverages. Idk what’s with y’all’s love for sugar but those two things, I genuinely think they taste better without it

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I post a lot, I just erase 60% of my posts ten seconds after posting them

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Sorprendentemente sigo viva gente

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Being able to wear low waisted micro shorts is the dream