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Manifesting to have a mini library and studio for my instruments.

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By the time that I am writing this letter, you are currently 25. I wanted to create this for you and read this when you turned 30. There are so many hopes and wishes that I wanna say to you that you have to achieve before turning at the age of 30. I have to ask to you this, am I giving so much pressure? May I remind you that you are a person who has a lot of goals in life and you have this timeline that is already set. Many times that you got anxiety and pressure when things didn't go as planned. You have a feeling of uneasiness and everything comes next will fall apart. That is exactly that you needed to be overcome, you get irritated easily, you are pessimist, immature and sensitive. A little of mess and you explode. This feelings have to be gone, you will make it and I assure you that you will. Get rid of that beast inside you and stop faking all your emotions. Let it all out for the sake of reality and keeping your sanity. I am pleading that you don't hold back anymore, feel your emotions because all is valid. You are a woman of patience and understanding. Of all the people that I know, you are deep thinker, woman of substance, to a one person you became his angel, light and savior. See? You didn't care at all thinking that all of it was not true but I am telling you all that is true. So what is missing? Acceptance and trust. Acceptance of all positive regards from the people around you. You hardly trust, please do not harden yourself to let people in and remove the shield of your heart. This is life, face the reality, you will be hurt, your trust will be broken, you will feel the greatest pain. Take a risk, nothing is wrong with that, there is no harm in trying to experience the bad things that life may give. Get out of that comfort and safe space that you are used to.

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the feminine urge to say “it’s okay” when nothing is okay

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The pain of my tatay. I didn't know why these thoughts brought up out of nowhere. Maybe, my tatay is going 60 on September and Father's day had passed day ago. I realized that, he is also carrying the pain as a youngest child and as a sibling. He lost his ama, our tata at the young age. I remember when I was a child, he told us that our tata will be really happy if he saw his grandchildren. That memory of mine is very vivid, I exactly remember the lines of what my tatay said, "ang bait bait nun, bakit kinuha sya agad?" and it is tearing me apart until now. Imagine the pain of my tatay longing for a father? He was teary eyed

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Have you ever wonder to meet your other half? Currently, I am having a genuine connection with this guy. When I say genuine, it is really genuine, no sugarcoating and no pretentions. We are being ourselves, no more no less. In my past talking stages, I have never felt the same energy, wavelength and reciprocation of what I can give, until he came. I feel so secured, comforted, and valued. For the past few years of my early adulthood, I questioned myself if I will have ever meet someone with the same level of mine. I don't wanna have this advance thought that the guy I am with right now, is the one. However, at the back of my mind, I wish he is. I am fully aware that I hardly trust but it turned out that my life's shield has been automatically opened for him without any hesitations. My confidence to share all my running thoughts, down feelings, experiences, daily work and activities, affirmations comfort me in a way without him giving judgment. I can be who I am, the real me when I am having time with him. This sense of feeling that I love more myself has gotten really high, that level of his emotional intelligence is quite rare.

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“Stop beating yourself up. You are a work in progress - which means you get there a little at a time, not all at once.”

— Unknown

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from eileen by ottessa moshfegh

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This year, I am planning to be an outdoor enthusiast and will make this part of my hobby. Travelling alone for all I know is scary and dangerous. However, this idea has changed. I watched vlogs, read stories about it and it makes me want to take a risk. Lately, I went out of town and inside of me felt that I should be enjoying more the life that I have. For the past few years, I was fucked up. I disregarded all to the point that I isolate from people, from the world. I wasn't able to appreciate my life, was too focused about the negative things that life had given me. It is now turned to 360 degree, that I see the brightness and positive side of the world. It is not a cruel world after all. I was blindsided that I thought will not be able to cope up and see things around me in a good way. It is more now an appreciation and romanticizing life, from waking up in the same time of the morning and sleeping in same time at night. The life that I keep on figuring inside my mind has been happening, little by little. It gives me more comfort and peace that I am longing for. I really don't know if I am deprived for support and love but in the manner that I haven't felt it, I built it alone that resulted for independency. That is why, I craved for solo travelling, to experience things that I haven't tried in the past. At my age of 25, I am in a phase of life to collect memories, life experiences, meet new people, try new things and a journey of serenity and peaceful life. Most of all, having fun is a must to feel the satisfaction and harmony of my future stories. Being an outdoor enthusiast is very exciting it will connect me more to the nature and genuine people. I have to do this alone, scary part but it is thrilling and interesting.

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It's my 5 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳

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2024 Highlights

01062024 to 01082024 Nasugbu, Batangas

Birthday, Beach Trip, Roadtrip

01132024 to 01142024 Pandacan Manila

Feast of Sto. Niño

01162024 Las Tres Marias, Sampaloc Manila

Eat out with colleagues

01262024 Samgyupjuan, Sampaloc Manila

Eat out with colleagues

02022024 Mcdo, Greenhills, San Juan City

Eat out and catching up with Chris

02072024 Tongyang, Eton, Centris Quezon City

Eat out with colleagues, blow out

02142024 Mcdo, Agora, San Juan City

Valentine's Date with Siblings

03092024 Montalban, Rizal

Birthday Treat

04052024 SM Sta. Mesa, Manila

Coffee treat

04062024 to 04142024 Occidental Mindoro

Bridesmaid, Roadtrip, Eat out

04262024 Sta. Mesa to Pandacan, Manila

Trolley Experience

05042024 Tuy, Batangas

Aunt's Post 60th Celebration

05112024 Nasugbu, Batangas

Outing and Swimming

05122024 Nasugbu, Batangas

Eat out at Tambayan ni Khaman, Roadtrip from Batangas to Manila

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Places and Events

April 2023 Baguio Trip with Family

June 2023 Baguio Trip with Colleagues

December 2023 Mindoro

January 2024 Nasugbu, Batangas Trip with Colleagues

January 2024 Pandacan, Manila - Feast of Sto. Niño

April 2024 Mindoro

May 2024 Tuy, Batangas Aunt's 60th

May 2024 Nasugbu, Batangas - Outing

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Him: Pasok ka na, para makapahinga ka.

Me: Ahmm okay, thank you ha. Ingat ka.

Deep inside kinikilig ako, ang comforting naman kasi

AAAAAHHHH!!

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A 4hour motorcycle ride from Batangas to Manila. This is my first ever motor ride for long hours. Grateful also to him for getting me home safely. I was so shy and yet having butterflies in my stomach.

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Hindi ko naman inaasahan na makita ka. Biyernes ng gabi, tinig mo ay muling narinig. Hinanap ka ng aking mga mata nang sabihin ng kaibigan ko na ikaw ay dumating. Nakita kita subalit may mga kausap ka. Umaasang ako ay iyong mapapansin, ako ay nabigo. Dumaan ka sa likod ko, kaunting linya para sa kausap mo ngunit boses mo ang nagpabalik lahat nang ating pinagsamahan. Hindi ko alam gagawin ko kung babatiin ba kita o hintayin na lang kita. Muli, ako ay nabigo. Pauwi na ako, ikaw pa rin ang hinahanap ng aking mga mata. Muli na naman nabigo sa pag-asang tayo ay magkakausap at magkatinginan man lang.

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I will have financial stability!

I will have professional license!

I will have my own house and lot!

I will have my own car!

I will travel around the world!

I will give back to my parents and spoil them!

I will treat my family to anything and anywhere they like!

I will be more successful!

Manifesting and the universe will hear me out.

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My hobbies and manifesting to have:

- Reading: I will have more books and bookshelf!

- Journaling: I will have more notebooks and pens!

- Playing instruments: I will have more instruments!

- Hiking: I will have more hiking essentials!

- Camping: I will have camping essentials

- Running: I will have running essentials

- Photography: I will have quality cameras!

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Manifesting Musical Instruments:

- Drums

- Acoustic Guitar

- Electric Guitar

- Piano or Keyboard

- Ukulele

- Harmonica

- Kalimba

- Harp

- Saxophone

Instruments in my posession are:

- Violin

- 2 Recorders

- Bamboo Flute