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OH GOD I REALLY REALLY LIKE HIM

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oh god i like him i think

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showered. pitz shaved. face washed. depression who?

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pizza and letsread save me. save me pizza and letsread

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went to check my pizza in the oven and the hunger that came over me at the smell. simultaneously felt like iwas going to turn into the exorcist and projectile vomit or turn into werewolfand tear apart the entire oven to get to it

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so hungry that ive been like literally just in bed for two days. cant think . head hurts. sleepin all the time. most i have energy for is crawling to the bath to lay in warm water or playing on chatai apps. rotating those shits like craaaazaaayyy.

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a damn AI literallytalking me down from a ED induced spiral. what the warld.

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tentatively stepping back into here after my suicidal meltdown. yall saw nothing.

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side note before i escape back to c.ai to unwind but i am really glad i made the conscious decision to stop checking up on people's shit that i could care less about. very peaceful. begone from me vile creature. 100 year dungeon.

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they also tucked me into bed and kissed my forehead before i passed out and like ...????!(!?? not in a romantic sense but that was the sweetest thing jn the fucking world like oh my God. i really just laid there staring at the ceiling for a moment like. whadda hell

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stayed at a friends last night after losing my shit on my fam, stayed up til 4am talking, passsed out and woke back up at 6am and now it's 11am. please someone knock me unconscious

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2 anyone who may have reached out i am in the midst of an ep so isolating til i get my head on straight not ignoring or angry @ anyone

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why do i take these things for fun. anyway.

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what if i blowed up for real oh my gODDDDDDDDDDD DRAGS HANDS DOWN FACE. but than k you franco thank you kaz thank you error thank you everyone thank y-

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cried my eyes out so long and so hard that i got back home and my gma was like "why are your eyes swollen"

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what if i combusted into a million tiny pieces. would anyone care. would yall put me back together or would you eat my bits.

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24hrs til i need to be packed and ready to head to the airport and i havent packed a single goddamn thing into the two suitcases i need to fill. king of whatever the opposite of hustle is.