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Hi friends! So, I have decided to start over. I’m only saving like three drafts and everything else is being dropped. I keep looking through them and just cannot write anything up.

I’m also moving to @hedxnism and you’ll see i shortened my muse list and became selective.

It may be just for now till my muses snap back and I have more time for longer replies - or it could just be permanent.

To get new threads started I’m going to go through mutuals opens and send memes and just go from there.

No hard feeling if y’all don’t want to follow the new blog with less muses or that don’t have a muse you were writing with on there! If you still want to stay connected you can hit me up for my discord.

I thank ya’ll for the patience and messages, i am feeling much better and work did get easier this month but things are changing yet again in the next moth or two so I’m just crossing my finger.

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Spooky Hades. Can you turn a mortal into an immortal? You have swallowed pomegranate seeds to trap mortals in the Underworld. You can heal mortal bodies if you wanted to. So, can't you make them immortal with like... an apple seed up the nose or a cherry pit up the butt or something???

He sighs at the question, immortality isn’t all one might think it to be and on top of that… it’s asked for by mortals more often than he can count. “Could I…. Possibly. But I wouldn’t.” Mortality is a precious gift that mortals take for granted. It might not seem like enough time but Hades has lived so many lifetimes that living is nearly a chore and working is his only meaning. “I’m certain if someone wants something up their ass I can still make that happen.” A slight raise of his brow before a light chuckle leaves him.

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... Thank you. 🐺 Bark, bark.

And I know wolves don't bark but just shut up.

feral. absolutely feral.

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SAN ✦ GYM JONG KOOK

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Continued from here @irrwicht

Noa wasn’t stupid, far from it. He’s incredibly cruel and one that doesn’t give a second thought on if someone lives or dies as long as what he has is safe and in safe keeping.

He and Aoto though somehow managed to mix fucking and fighting - even if both acted as a snake in the situation - but Noa isn’t patient. There was bound to be a break in one of them and the snap happened and again… and again… it led to this situation here. Did he trust Aoto? No. If he sensed a word of this was getting out he wouldn’t hesitate to try and chuck his body over the balcony. Was it nice to have a body in bed? Yes.

He’s not overly affectionate, it’s taken quite a few times to even get to this level of comfort but he doesn’t hesitate with it, adding in the more possessive locked in arms at Aotos side. “No.” It’s a simple answer and an honest one, although Noa would change possessive for clingy in this sense but it’s nothing more than hook ups with the devil for the both of them, “What are you going to tell him?” Eyes scanning the view, Noa enjoyed the money and lifestyle but he’d give it all up if he could have a normal life but it’s not possible and so… he soaks it up. Uses it and abuses it - just as the life had done to him.

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Joseph Sheridan Le Fanu, from “Carmilla”

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Have I taken a hiatus due to work and my mental health - yes. My brain hasn’t been able to do these longer replies here and I’m sorry for that. I am back on meds and in therapy and have talked to work so I am really hoping this helps in the next month or so.

I’m not dropping anything still because I genuinely love the threads I have but I am going to be selective moving forward because I just do not have the mental capacity or time to take on as much as I was but this is still my only hobby.

With that is - if we have never interacted, I’m going to unfollow. Some muses are going to be selective to certain muns but I will tag that on the pinned post - and that’s really it so far moving forward.

I really really really am so appreciative to those that have stuck around and sent messages even if I never replied or am molasses at it. I am feeling more human and hope to be back writing here this weekend.

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“A good meal is easy to eat.” He comments back with his own soft smile. This doesn’t feel like a job so much when he gets to enjoy such luxuries like a full meal and a jacuzzi inside a room, or a jacuzzi at all. The soft blush he gets from being called pretty is cute and the eager answer is as well. Elian is a favorite client of his, not only is he actually good looking and pretty but he is respectful, he doesn’t rush and he lets Antonio lead and bring a build up. Although, Elian does pay for it all. A cheaper cost to Antonios service is just sex, easy in and out. This is far more. “I did miss you.” He answers back, a soft hum as he feels those full lips against his skin. The kiss is also soft and Antonio leans forward just enough to peck his bottom lip a few times. “You pay me well, sweetheart… i don’t need a thing except for you not to worry…” reaching up to place his thumb on Elians chin to pop his bottom lip out, “I definitely don’t want you to worry these lips.” Closing the distance between them to kiss him again, two soft pecks before he deepens it and runs his hands over Elians back while he kisses him, fingers adding pressure against tense muscles to ease them all the way down to his lower back and up to his neck. His tongue flicking against his lips to taste him, a soft hum of his song to open Elian up a bit more so Antonio can really kiss him like he deserves.

“You’re so sweet.” Kissing the corner of his lips and his chin when he pulls away. Hands finally pull Elian flush against him to feel all of him and there’s a soft smile on his lips, “Can I touch you?” Always wanting to ask for the first initial contact, making sure he was ready to continue just as much as Antonio was. He’d take it slow still but Elian is tempting.

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Antonio just smiles and gives a soft laugh as Elian giving his rebuttal to it all, which was fine. He knew Elian well enough to know that once they were close again he’d have no problem getting the other to relax. A pinch of his brows at the question, “Nude, I want to be able to touch you.” It’s said softly, it’s true though. It’s what he’s paid for on top of it all.

Elian takes good care of him, he’s never felt unsafe even when blood is involved. Elian listens well, he doesn’t push for more and he’s treated as if he’s something special. It’s not enough to get in Antonio’s head - he can’t think anyone would want something real or more with someone like him and he doesn’t let his mind drift to that. He does play the part though. Antonio reached back and lets his hand rub up and down Eliana arm as a thanks when he pulls his chair out and he sits, “Make it quick.” A wink dropped but Antonio makes due with his time to eat.

Meats first, vegetables next and he has a few sips of water to wash it all down. His long hair gets tied up into a bun, not wanting to get it wet in the jacuzzi as he strips and folds his clothes and steps in, waiting for Elian there. The water holds a certain power over him, or makes him more powerful if he weren’t afraid of large bodies of it. This is fine, more than but it stirs and soothes him at the same time and he’s impatiently motioning for Elian to join him the moment he’s out of the shower. He makes no hesitation hold his hand out to the other to step in and he doesn’t let much space come between them once he’s in, Antonio’s hands moving up his arms and shoulders as he leads him to sit. “You’re so pretty like this.” Bare. Every part of him on display, a soft kiss to Elians collarbone and shoulder. “Did you miss me?” Nose nudging his jaw as he moves to sit on Elians lap, knees on either side, not letting their lower halves touch. They have time and Antonio plans on eating away at it.

After undressing, Elian would take a shower, like Antonio requested him to do. The warm water felt pretty relaxing and Elian was aware that the other man would take care of the rest. He doesn’t take too much time, he’s quick to dry his body, just so he wouldn’t make a mess from the bathroom all the way to the jacuzzi, his short hair still damp when he approaches the other. “You hurried up as well?” A soft smirk before he got in the jacuzzi himself, guided by the other mans hands he can easily sit down. Oh, the warm water is nice. Being called pretty causes Elian to look away shortly, slightly embarrassed at the effect praises like this had on him. Pretty. He preferred the word over handsome.. His hands easily take hold of the males thighs and he is nodding quickly. “I missed you.. a lot.” And he meant it. He had been looking forward to meeting with Antonio. “I.. surely hope you missed me too, at least, a little bit.” Elians moves his lips to Antonios shoulder, where he is planting gentle kisses. Slowly, dragging his lips over his skin. A hand would then lift from the males thigh so he can rest it against the males face, guiding it, so he could bring their lips together for a gentle short kiss. “Is there something else you need?” The tall vampire bites his lip shortly, maintaining eye contact with Antonio. It was easy to feel like he was spending time with his boyfriend, except, Antonio wasn’t his boyfriend. “You know, you can ask for anything, money is no issue.”

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Antonio, what are your top three kinks?

Kinks were always such a difficult thing for Antonio to name and figure out, sex and kinks were his day to day, spotting what he enjoyed most out of it all had taken some time and still he thinks it over before speaking, “I’ve come to enjoy blood…” although having vampires be on his client list has opened that door, “But it’s more to provide… I enjoy being their food source.” A faint smile at the thought but it is hot when it’s with the clients he can put trust in, it’s not sex and it’s providing more it feel like. Whatever it was or is, he shakes the thoughts. “I guess I go enjoy foreplay, I like the build up, kissing and touching and teasing…” maybe because so many clients rushed into it, “Hmm… I do enjoy some of the role play aspects. I don’t mind playing a role for a scene or something like that, the outfits and all…” he shrugs, all lingering thoughts for him that he’s never had to dissect before.

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Ruhn would never claim to know all, he didn’t - simple as that but he has not been around as long as he has to not pick up on things and Bae, in this moment, was easy to see. He had known her for some time now and she hadn’t run from him for his lack of appearance and she hasn’t requested to use him. Even if he is a servant of the gods, nearly anyone could ask and he might answer - for Bae, he would.

He reaches a black painted hand out and nods, if she is going to shake he wants to feel it too, her fear is real of whatever she is about to speak of and if he cannot stop if he will drown in it with her. The mention of Zeus has him still. Not like an expression could be seen anyways but his body is still, almost as if he’s stopped moving. Odin and Zeus he knows well, he knows what they are capable of and that no one tell them no. He does give her hand a soft squeeze before placing his other hand over hers, “You are never powerless.” Is how he starts, it’s true and she should know that, “Zeus is not a god who handles no well but I can hide you for some time…”

It wasn’t a fix all but it was an offer to buy time, it wasn’t his time to die yet and take the gods listed in his throat out yet but if Ruhn couldn’t think of another way for Bae to get out of this situation then maybe Ruhn would make his sacrifice early. “My home is known to no one, not even Zeus, not even Odin. You will be safe there but it is not a permanent solution. It is simply an offered step if you will take it…” A slight tilt of his head as he pulls his hands back, faint black residue left on her hand from his own but he picks up the tea and sips it in the opening of his mask. I do not do work for demons and the likes but this is not work, a favor for a friend.” Ruhn never used the word but he and Bea were similar in some ways.

@seudxnimx asked “there’s something you’re not telling me.” - Ruhn @ Bea

Bea hated confrontation. It didn't matter who it was. She usually did everything she could to avoid it. She would much rather just agree with them than deal with anything. Recently Bea had been completely avoiding Ruhn because she knew the confrontation that was going to occur when they finally did meet up. She'd been not telling him everything, despite her previous promises to be open with him.

But Bea couldn't avoid the god forever. While they both had eternity, she knew that was the reason she couldn't avoid him forever. She looked up at him and him sighed. That had been the one question she'd been dreading the most. She twirled her spoon around her tea cup, the gentle tinkling noise helping keep her in the conversation and not shutting down. "I.." She took a breath and looked back him. "I didn't want to bring bad energy to the tea." Bea strongly believed that engery effected everything. Bad engery was something she tried to not bring to something that was meant to be enjoyable. But her clearly avoiding certain topics had brought it no matter what.

"Zeus wants me." Bea finally said. Her distaste showing in her voice. She even went pale for a moment. "He's shown an interest in me." Her hand was trembling slightly which she noticed and quickly withdrew it before sitting on both her hands to hide that. "There is so many people that try to get me and summon me that I do not want. And that is bad enough. But at least with mortals I am stronger and more powerful than them." Her voice grew quieter as she spoke. She wanted this conversation to end. But Ruhn was too smart for her to avoid this. "But a god, I am powerless against."

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So about Hypnos and you, would you be okay with the whole underworld knowing? And Olympus? Every god? Don't worry I won't tell though ;)

Hades is quiet for a long moment after the question, why was it being asked, why was Olympus mentioned specifically, and every god… not goddess. What’s more important than Hades want is Hypnos protection. “The underworld is my domain, if they know, they do not leave here without a word of caution… but no. I wouldn’t be okay with all Olympus knowing just yet.” Not until he can get a better read on Zeus. Even if the god had moved on, Zeus is possessive as well but even with people and things that don’t want to be his. If Hypnos catches his eye, he can’t be sure he won’t try and pry him from Hades hands. Or kill him - as if Zeus can’t have him, no one can. It’s far more complicated in Hades mind than screaming from mount Olympus that he and Hypnos are… well, clearly they need a label before anything else happens he supposes.

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“Sometimes you just need someone to tell you you’re not as terrible as you think you are.”

— Unknown

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Elijah are you ever worried that being a Dhampir and your anger issues won't mix well and will end up in lots of dead people?😮

Yes. Is the quick answer he gives mentally. He’s not sure how his anger will manifest now but it’s ended in death before and now with the strength he has… a literal blood thirst, even if it’s mellow and manageable. “I don’t think it will end with a lot…” is the most honest answer he’s willing to give at the moment.

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@irrwicht

I am afraid of this man, as if in him I had to face all the realities which terrify me. His sensual being affects me. His ferocity, enveloped in tenderness, his sudden seriousness, the heavy, rich mind. I am a bit hypnotized. 

Anaïs Nin, Henry and June: From The Unexpurgated Diary of Anaïs Nin

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rome’s tattoos 2022 edition 🖤

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Antonio isn’t sure what to expect, people don’t come running to him covered in blood and looking for healing, people don’t come running to him looking for anything more than some physical need and comfort and a play of pretend but this is not pretend. There is blood on his floor and while singing was his go to for Ravens headspace, past that he isn’t sure what more he can do or offer - and he has offered it all at this point. All he knows how anyways.

He can fell the acceptance of his song but he hums more than anything to keep Raven calm, to keep him here. He wont push for what happened right now, clearly it isn’t the time but he will listen to what he is given. A soft breath at the admission of who’s blood it mostly is, it doesn’t help Antonio worry though. It is a lot of blood and Antonio feels like he’s witnessing a crime scene in the making but he doesn’t have the heart to turn Raven away in a condition like this but he has turned many away for far less. A soft click of his tongue as he’s told how terrible he tastes and he wants to take offense to that, he can’t help the blood he’s given or he’d be drained of it himself but to be told he tastes terrible isn’t a compliment but he supposes could be…

Whatever was there it’s mixed with relief when he finally gets to see those pretty eyes again, lips pursing to kiss the others palm as he strokes his cheek. A sweet gesture accompanied by blood and Antonio assumes a death… A nod, Antonio hums and reached for Ravens face, cupping both sides and grunting in frustration but Italian flows again, seeing a stronger song to Raven as Antonio is quick on his feet and gabs a stack of towels but he still works on stripping him the rest of the way first. “Let me see.” Peeling layers off of who knows what or who’s blood but breathing seeing the pale skin underneath. He isn’t satisfied until Raven is nearly naked though, he came here for a reason and if it’s because Antonio has a way to care, and comfort then he will do both as he sings. Leaving Raven far more easy to manipulate and move. “Now… Tell me what happened.” His voice lowered but he doesn’t stop singing, his lips by his ear instead. He deserved the truth if he was cleaning up the mess and Antonio wasn’t someone that just let people in without answers… Raven owed him them at this point. He was alive and he would live. Now, he could speak.

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Antonio was with a client when his phone rang but Raven paid better so he answered it, besides the other was cleaning herself up anyways and so he had a moment - but a moment wasn’t even needed with the quick one sided conversation. He truly didn’t think anything of it other than Raven must certainly be in a mood and maybe wanted an easy meal, even if Antonio made him pay a hefty amount for that.

Usually he would let the woman linger around but he made a quick goodbye with her and he has no issue with it or with telling her another client is on his way and he needs a moment himself. Despite the job he has where it’s constant people and appeasing them, its conversation and small talk and acting interested when more often than not he’d rather cut off his own ears but he’s paid well for his time and as his clientele grows so do his prices but Antonio is introverted when it comes down to it and he doesn’t know how far Raven is but he take what time he has to take a hot shower and makes himself a small meal just in case he does want to drink from him. He has a decent amount of time to do all this before Raven comes and when the door is opened it’s not what he’s expecting at all.

Before he can see the blood he sees his face, wrecked in a way Antonio is not used to. Despite being paid by this man for his time and body he has grown to like Raven more than most. His time and conversation and his overall being is something Antonio sees as an enjoyment at times and not just a job but he still wasn’t expecting Raven to come to him like this. It’s only once he has stepped in that he sees the blood and there is a steady look of concern as he grabs hold of Raven and doesn’t mind the blood so much, instead he holds him close and Antonios brows pinch as the other sobs against him. A hand at the back of his head, petting him almost as he nods to the question and hums a melody - Italian floods with it in an attempt to calm Raven down, just enough to get the sobbing to stop so he can figure out the rest, “I’m alone, but what happened, baby?” He doesn’t try and move him far, just in and to the floor and set up against the wall so Antonio can pull back enough and start ridding of his clothing to see the source.

He keeps a soft hum going but it’s nothing that would hold Raven hostage, it’s enough to give him peace though. Just a bit of it compared to whatever turmoil is going on through him, “Will you heal from this? Do you need blood?” Soft knuckles wipe at Ravens tear stained cheek, Antonio is far more worried than he thought he’d ever be about this man but all he can think about is making sure he comes back from whatever happened tonight. Antonio is not vengeful though, he isn’t seeking or wanting to know who did this but he is wanting to know what happened so he can take care of Raven the appropriate way. He doesn’t know all of the Dhampir abilities but something has to help, even if it’s just time.

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The way Hypnos hands move over his shoulder and up his neck feels good, as much as he loved having them pinned there’s something about the way Hypnos touches him in this moment that has him truly feeling it all. A soft breath earned with his comment, blue eyes meeting the others and a faint smirk pulling at the corner of his lips. “I’ll be sure to get you a few more sets then.” The words to describe Hypnos are hard to place, he’s pretty abs handsome, he looks beautiful and incredibly sexy all at the same time. His he’s well aware now that the way he’s looking at Hypnos and the way he’s touching him is saying what his tongue can’t come up with. The touch of foreheads feels intimate mixed in, a deep breath in of the older god and hades eyes close for the second. It’s earth shattering how much Hypnos has come to mean to him, how he’s ingrained in every thought and action for so much of his days…

The kiss of brief but it’s enough to have Hades lean in just for a second more and then rest back again. Biting over his own bottom lip for a second before he looks at Hypnos chest and is almost confused but when his hand is grabbed he lets Hypnos lead him… thumb stroking the side of his throat before he does grip where he wants, “And here I thought you might want a collar…” he just holds his pretty throat for a few seconds before adding pressure and pulling Hypnos back into a kiss as he cuts off just a little of his air supply and lets go but keeps his lips close to his so he can feel Hypnos breathe. “Whatever I decide to put around your throat, remember you are mine.” Seeing the way he lit up and how Hypnos seems to be taking the outfit, Hades is more than happy to give the other a little bit more of what he wants… needs even and Hades will provide it and make sure no one else does, that regardless of how others look at Hypnos he’ll only feel this way when Hades does it.

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He liked the finer things, sue him. There’s a reason he likes Hypnos too and it’s along those lines as are many other reasons but Hypnos looks caught him first and he liked to see him naked just as much as he liked to see him clothed but this was very different. If Hypnos declined it would be fine and Hades would just never bring it up again, he can take rejection rather well in this instance but he wasn’t going to not start it.

The set if a high end brand, it’s to fit perfectly and only for Hypnos and Hades just watched and waits as Hypnos does give in and really he was ready for it to be turned down but he just gives a soft breath and a faint pull of his lips when its accepted and Hypnos disappears. He’s quiet as he waits, he’ not sure if Hypnos is going to come out dressed and say he hates it or if Hades really is getting a show but the moment Hypnos steps out Hades is speechless.

A deep hum in his throat as he looks the older god over, hands and eyes on his thighs as they straddle his lap, “Far from disappointed, love.” He lets his fingers trace the hem of the thigh highs and over the garter, his fingers trace skin just to graze over one of his piercings before trailing back down, “Fuck.” A soft breath of the word and his hands can’t stop moving over the set on Hypnos, “You look so good…” Hades does lean in and places a soft kiss to Hypnos chest and collarbone before leaning back to look at him more, “How does it feel? If you hate it don’t feel you need to keep it on.” He’d much rather have Hypnos be comfortable. @irrwicht

All the struggle was definitely worth it the moment he caught the way those eyes lingered on him. No doubt Hades liked it even now that it was on Hypnos’ body - or even more so because of it. Either way it was fascinating what was going on with those chiseled features as they drank the older in, even leaving those hands to wander and appreciate in a different manner. Who cares about wearing some outfit as long as one got to be looked at the way Hades looked at him right then and there? A hum of his own at every touch, plump lips curling into a deeper smile as a soft sigh was released with the slight tug to his nipple was caused by the brush of his piercing. This was beyond nice. His own palms stroked along the king’s shoulder, caressed the side of his neck before a hand cupped his cheek just far enough that fingertips could still stroke the shirt hairs at the hairline. “It’s whatever but…I’ll wear whatever the fuck you want as long as you keep looking at me like that.” An honest confession, one that had the older deity downright grinning as he bit his lower lip and head lowered until their foreheads rested together. This was so deeply satisfactory. How much he loved this attention.  Eventually he leaned in to steal a kiss, slow, demanding, lingering even swiping briefly into the younger deity’s mouth with a sigh of satisfaction. Yeah, he definitely wouldn’t mind more of this at all. “Kinda feeling a lil empty up top…” Just while resting like this he let his other hand wander, down a muscular arm, along the other’s tricep and down his forearm until he could grasp his hand from Hypnos’ thigh and guide it up the front of his torso, over his navel, up between his pecs and eventually toward his throat. Once reached he let that palm press to it, not yet letting go until Hades would take a grip. “…right?”