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Thank you. Thank you for making happy again. Thank you for teaching me there's more to life outside of him.

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Ang swerte niya noh? The next girl you'll fall in love with. Sana di ka niya pakawalan. Sana hindi siya mapagod. At sana mahalin mo siya nang sobra sobra. I've always thought that in the end, it will be you. It will be us. Sobrang hindi ko kinaya. Sobrang sakit. Sobrang hindi ko kayang makita ka. Sobrang naiiyak na lang ako. First day of classes, I wanted to cry. When I saw your face, everything went gloomy. Idagdag na din natin na umuulan pa nun. You have always been my ray of sunshine. Not anymore, I guess. I'm sorry. I don't know when I'll stop saying sorry but I really am. I'm sorry.

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I'm sorry, b. Mahal na mahal na mahal na mahal kita. Malaya ka na.

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It’s 2AM and I don’t love you anymore.

Thank you for everything.

Thank you for making me feel very special.

2 years of my life were spent wondering.

I’m so sorry that I couldn’t just wait any longer.

I knew you only just saw me as your safety net.

That’s why you can’t let me go.

But that’s why I’m letting you go now.

I’m so sorry.

You were everything I have ever wanted.

My heart belonged to you.

I’m sorry for leaving.

But I’m not sorry that I’m choosing my own happiness this time.

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Disclaimer: “You” isn’t one person. I have been writing a lot about different people. Although it's limited to one person per post. (Gets ba? Hindi? Wala akong pake.)

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You: mahihirapan ka

You: mamimiss mo ko

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Hi.

Yes, you guessed it, this post is for you.

I just wanted to say thank you. Thank you for making me happier. Even if you brushed off every compliment I gave you, just know that I told you these things for they are true, I have nothing but admiration for you. As a friend. I’m sorry if I haven’t been by your side for a while now, I’ve just been struggling. But if you ever need me, I’m just a call or text or chat away. I’ll always be here for you, don’t worry. Ingat ka palagi, bes. Talk to me naman, lonely ako minsan. Hahahahahah.

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I haven’t been myself for the past few days. Maybe because there’s this void in my heart that just can’t be filled. If you talk or look at me, you won’t feel or see the change. Because, let’s face it, I’m great at hiding my emotions and feelings. Duh.

For the past few days, my mind has been wandering a lot lately. I have been thinking a lot about where I’m headed in the future. To be honest, I haven’t thought about the future in a very long time. I’m used to only thinking about the present like what will make me happy now and not in the long run. So when I started to think about my life decisions, I was not pleased.

It’s my fourth year in college and why haven’t I shifted when my parents gave me the chance when I was in third year? Was I scared? Was it because the person I was dating at that time had the same path as me? Was it because I thought I was not good enough for the course I wanted to shift to? Was it because of the time wasted? I don’t know. I may as well be punished for it, right? I have not been thinking about what will make me happy in the long run.

I have only been choosing the short term kind of happiness. And that is why most guys I ended up with last only for a few months or less. To be honest, I’m still enjoying myself as a teenager. I haven’t thought of myself as the adult my parents want me to be. Maybe I should just rest for a while. Yeah. This post has no moral lesson or whatsoever in it. I just wanted to let this all out.

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Alam mo kung magpapaka-bullshit ka na lang, do it somewhere else. Fuck you. ‘Wag mo akong kausapin. Hindi kita kailangan. Wala akong pake kung ano man ang tingin mo sa akin. Hindi mo buhay ‘to, buhay ko ‘to. ‘Wag kang feeling entitled diyan ha. Hindi ka importante. I can fucking live without you.

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I love you but you wonder if it's you because I'm a goddamn bastard

Vincent Van Gone (@VVanGone)

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Bakit nga ba hinding hindi kita maiwan? Anong meron sa'yo na wala yung iba? Hindi lang naman ikaw yung magaling sa klase. Hindi lang naman ikaw yung magaling sa *insert sport here*. Hindi lang naman ikaw yung nagparamdam saking espesyal akong tao. Pero sa dinami ng lalaki sa buhay ko, sa'yo padin ako bumabalik.

You were my greatest love but you were also my greatest downfall.

Nagsimula tayo noong inosente pa tayo parehas. Sa'yo ko unang ipinakita yung tunay na ako. Yung madaming problemang ako, yung madramang ako, at marami pang ibang katangian na itinatago ko lang sa ilalim ng pagiging masayahin. Tinanggap mo lahat ng iyon nang buong buo.

We literally had everything, didn’t we?

Patawad, mahal. Hindi ko na kasi talaga kaya. Alam ko namang alam mo na hindi naman tayo tatagal. Isang taon din ng buhay ko ang inalay ko sa'yo pero anong ginawa mo? Binalewala mo lang, akala mo kahit anong gawin mo ay mananatili ako sa'yo. Patawad pero hindi ko pinagsisisihan ang paglisan ko. Tama na.

I cannot live with a kind of love that makes me feel like my soul is being battered to death.

Paalam.

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I’m sorry I’m sorry for lying I’m sorry for making you feel bad I’m sorry for not telling you everything I’m sorry for making everyone believe that this was all your fault I’m sorry for not acknowledging your pain I’m sorry for hurting you

I’m sorry for making you stay even when everything was on flames I’m sorry I left when it wasn’t convenient for me anymore I’m sorry for everything, b

I am truly and deeply sorry, I hope you can forgive me