severusprince-snape

[severusprince-snape]

They said things and the way that they were acting about him. I don’t know Mary, I don’t know. He screams continuating with : I just knew.

She peers around the corner.

Sev?

- @mary-mcdeal

He's sitted in the ground, trying desperately to stay present. Maybe he shouldn't be there doing this, he had a millions of things to do. He needed to go see Oli and do other things. He shouldn't be here just sitted without doing anything.

He hears something and very far far far aways hears someone (Mary maybe) talking calling his name. He tries to react but he's to far to do anything that isn't stay fidgeted.

[severusprince-snape]

I’ve been going to a pub and someone recconised Luci when we went together

mishi care to join the angst. @lucius-malfoy-back

She peers around the corner.

Sev?

- @mary-mcdeal

He's sitted in the ground, trying desperately to stay present. Maybe he shouldn't be there doing this, he had a millions of things to do. He needed to go see Oli and do other things. He shouldn't be here just sitted without doing anything.

He hears something and very far far far aways hears someone (Mary maybe) talking calling his name. He tries to react but he's to far to do anything that isn't stay fidgeted.

[severusprince-snape]

I had to, they were going to kill Lucius.

She peers around the corner.

Sev?

- @mary-mcdeal

He's sitted in the ground, trying desperately to stay present. Maybe he shouldn't be there doing this, he had a millions of things to do. He needed to go see Oli and do other things. He shouldn't be here just sitted without doing anything.

He hears something and very far far far aways hears someone (Mary maybe) talking calling his name. He tries to react but he's to far to do anything that isn't stay fidgeted.

[severusprince-snape]

you are wrong but it’s fine. I’m going to prison Mary, I know I will.

Did you kill someone. Ask the girl wanting to know why he was sure of this.

no…. Worst.

She peers around the corner.

Sev?

- @mary-mcdeal

He's sitted in the ground, trying desperately to stay present. Maybe he shouldn't be there doing this, he had a millions of things to do. He needed to go see Oli and do other things. He shouldn't be here just sitted without doing anything.

He hears something and very far far far aways hears someone (Mary maybe) talking calling his name. He tries to react but he's to far to do anything that isn't stay fidgeted.

[severusprince-snape]

It's been months since he had been hugged - since Oli and him had broken up, to say the true. He missed the other boy more than he could believe - he hatted himself for what he had done to the other boy... he hatted himself for a lot of reason, but this time it was for an contious decision - it was all his fault. He had made this choice.

I'm sorry, he whispers. I shouldn't have tell you that. I don't hate you. It's been a long time, since I had an so close relationship with someone... I don't know how to do this, Mary. I don't know how to have a healthy relationship with someone and now I will never have the chance ever again.

She peers around the corner.

Sev?

- @mary-mcdeal

He's sitted in the ground, trying desperately to stay present. Maybe he shouldn't be there doing this, he had a millions of things to do. He needed to go see Oli and do other things. He shouldn't be here just sitted without doing anything.

He hears something and very far far far aways hears someone (Mary maybe) talking calling his name. He tries to react but he's to far to do anything that isn't stay fidgeted.

[severusprince-snape]

Severus couldn't calm himself, he knew it that he was in danger. He remember what his mother had told him about their family story about how that uncle had used this part of the power and have never been seen again... He was going to go to prison - he was sure of it.

He hears the voice of Mary very far far far away, her voice cutting one at one the voices that were trying to drown him. Sure... he whispers back at her question, finally stopping almost screaming.

She peers around the corner.

Sev?

- @mary-mcdeal

He's sitted in the ground, trying desperately to stay present. Maybe he shouldn't be there doing this, he had a millions of things to do. He needed to go see Oli and do other things. He shouldn't be here just sitted without doing anything.

He hears something and very far far far aways hears someone (Mary maybe) talking calling his name. He tries to react but he's to far to do anything that isn't stay fidgeted.

[severusprince-snape]

Shut up, shut up. You can't get involved. I can't put you in danger, I won't do this. I won't, I won't.

I can't, I can't. I hurt Luciuis and went they come for me, they can't take any one of you. So you can't know, you can't. I can't tell you. I can't.

She peers around the corner.

Sev?

- @mary-mcdeal

He's sitted in the ground, trying desperately to stay present. Maybe he shouldn't be there doing this, he had a millions of things to do. He needed to go see Oli and do other things. He shouldn't be here just sitted without doing anything.

He hears something and very far far far aways hears someone (Mary maybe) talking calling his name. He tries to react but he's to far to do anything that isn't stay fidgeted.

[severusprince-snape]

What do you mean no. You don't know how I am felling, you don't get to decide what I want to do. fuck off right now, McDonald I am not joking, I don't want you here !

He was still hearing the voices becoming louder and louder and louder. He could hear the narging of his parents, while they said that he was being an awful person - just like them... That he wasn't so different of them after all.

She peers around the corner.

Sev?

- @mary-mcdeal

He's sitted in the ground, trying desperately to stay present. Maybe he shouldn't be there doing this, he had a millions of things to do. He needed to go see Oli and do other things. He shouldn't be here just sitted without doing anything.

He hears something and very far far far aways hears someone (Mary maybe) talking calling his name. He tries to react but he's to far to do anything that isn't stay fidgeted.

[severusprince-snape]

We have to go, he says to the other boy. Scared that at each moment passing, they would get into more trouble. Seeing that he other boy was still freezed in his place - he says. You can hate me for the rest of my life I don't fucking care, but we need to move right now.

He then looked at the girl in the ground, she wasn't dangerous anymore. She might never be dangerous ever again. He hated that thought, he might had made someone lose all the controle of their mind.

He never had hated someone enough to do this, not even the marauders. He was sure that he would never do that... Since the first time he had seen his mother do it - he had promised himself that he wouldn't do the same things that she had.

He doesn't let the sob, get out. Instead - he starts walking.

@lucius-malfoy-back - I want to go drinking and you are coming with me.

[severusprince-snape]

OCC : TIMELINE OF MY POSTS

Luci and Severus

Xeno and Severus

Pandora and Severus

Mary and Severus

Journal & Askaban

[severusprince-snape]

He closes his eyes while voices start to talk to him, louder and louder and louder. Until they were screaming, screaming that he was an horrible person, a monster. Screaming that he was a dirty thing that should just die.

The voice that screamed was the voice of his parents, of Lily, Petunia and their parents - people that he had consider like his own family, of Lucius that night, of Theo and Oli that he had hurt again and again and again - because he just wanted everyone to leave.

And then there was the scream of the girl that he had hurted. He didn't do because he could, he did it because he needed to. He needed to protect his family - Lucius and their friends. He hated himself and he couldn't stop the screaming - so instead he screamed :

LEAVE ME ALONE, I NEVER WANT TO SEE YOU AGAIN. He didn't mean to hurt Mary, but it felt like the only way to make everything right again. Soon he would be in Askaban or worst killed, because of his crimes - it wouldn't, matter anymore.

@andromedashoax @kingalexanderthegreat @wormy-loves-ch33se @starlight-starbright-thatsme @pandoras-nox @reg-arc-black @lifeofthe-barty @anastasia-selwyn @vidiadelafairy @vszabini @antoniadolohov @whokilledevanrosier @rodolphus-le-strange @thathojamie @mary-mcdeal @hjonesworld @marls-mckinn0n @lilytheginger @james-the-amazing-potter @lialovergirl @fabian-with-an-f @flyasaphoenix @addison-caddel @imogenmorningstar @sybill-patrica-trelawney @severusprince-snape @emmelineandhervans @king-ofthe-crop @tjsinclairofficial @frankielbottom23 @xeno-graphical @oxxen--free

She peers around the corner.

Sev?

- @mary-mcdeal

He's sitted in the ground, trying desperately to stay present. Maybe he shouldn't be there doing this, he had a millions of things to do. He needed to go see Oli and do other things. He shouldn't be here just sitted without doing anything.

He hears something and very far far far aways hears someone (Mary maybe) talking calling his name. He tries to react but he's to far to do anything that isn't stay fidgeted.

[severusprince-snape]

I don't want to talk about it, Pandora. Please respect this. He then whispers. I didn't go to prison... not yet at least. They continue walking in direction of the forest.

@severusprince-snape open up we're going to make a cult circle in the forest!

[severusprince-snape]

Severus opens the door and finds the girl waiting how she had said she would be.

He was hangover and he was just tired, tired of everything. He had blacks eyes and looked like he hadn't sleep in weeks. Hey, he whispers at the girl. Pandora tires to asks something about it but he cuts her by saying : I'm fine don't worry about it. Let's go.

@severusprince-snape open up we're going to make a cult circle in the forest!

[severusprince-snape]

Yeah but important.

Come one Aella, you have to make good choices in life ! I BELIEVE IN YOU ! (I probably shouldn't but I believe in you)

I saw the ask thing and said challenge except sry lol

I'm going mad

Can you tell?

…

go to sleep

[severusprince-snape]

Severus nods while she speaks. Puts his head against the wall, close his eyes for a moment. Letting just the worlds reach his head while he calmed himself.

After she stops talking Severus open his eyes to look at Mary, after a little second of silence she moves to to take an other cookie.

She peers around the corner.

Sev?

- @mary-mcdeal

He's sitted in the ground, trying desperately to stay present. Maybe he shouldn't be there doing this, he had a millions of things to do. He needed to go see Oli and do other things. He shouldn't be here just sitted without doing anything.

He hears something and very far far far aways hears someone (Mary maybe) talking calling his name. He tries to react but he's to far to do anything that isn't stay fidgeted.

[severusprince-snape]

Severus takes one of the cookies and silently starting eating. He doesn't fell like he can talk but he needs to ask her to say something anything, he needs to hear her voice, needs to stay here, he can't fall into his mind anymore.

He knows that he needs to talk, he doesn't want to talk. Can't move, can't do anything that isn't looking at her eyes and slowly eating the cookie in hope it would ground him to earth.

Talk. He whispers. His throat felling raw and having the impression that it was the worst and hardest thing that he had ever done.

She peers around the corner.

Sev?

- @mary-mcdeal

He's sitted in the ground, trying desperately to stay present. Maybe he shouldn't be there doing this, he had a millions of things to do. He needed to go see Oli and do other things. He shouldn't be here just sitted without doing anything.

He hears something and very far far far aways hears someone (Mary maybe) talking calling his name. He tries to react but he's to far to do anything that isn't stay fidgeted.

[severusprince-snape]

Slowly the face of the girl in front of him starts to appear. It was Mary... Severus, during this moment, made the surprising discovery that since the start of the year she had been there at each moment that he needed.

He didn't really understand why, most people stopped trying after a fews weeks. They understood that Severus wasn't worth trying to save, wasn't able to be saved.

She didn't seem to understand that. Severus wanted to ask her why, but he couldn't speak, couldn't react. Just looked at her face trying to understand why was she there.

She peers around the corner.

Sev?

- @mary-mcdeal

He's sitted in the ground, trying desperately to stay present. Maybe he shouldn't be there doing this, he had a millions of things to do. He needed to go see Oli and do other things. He shouldn't be here just sitted without doing anything.

He hears something and very far far far aways hears someone (Mary maybe) talking calling his name. He tries to react but he's to far to do anything that isn't stay fidgeted.