shadowwolf6

[shadowwolf6]

HEY-YO! Yeah, I...really don't have anything for 50 posts so...have yourself to some balancing stuffs.

-Shadow Wolf (nWo)

[shadowwolf6]

Resurrection Love One

"A while back...way back...after Animazement 2017, I made it official to move on from my ex. I didn't know how I was going to do it, but one thing I wanted to do, was find myself someone more. I thought solely about going online and giving online dating one more shot. I joined places like Ferzu, FurryMate and the recently taken down Pounced. "I found a girl on Pounced who later had a second account. She had told me about the reason for her second account and that her location was not listed on her profile. I found out later that she was elsewhere, on the other side of the continental United States. When it came to wanting a relationship, I wanted someone close...somewhere close. This...lie...wasn't going to cut it, not when she wanted me to do the moving when I neither had a car nor enough money to support even myself on my own ventures. "I continued and met another...halfway across the US. She seemed pretty much right on for a little while. But even then things slipped through. Yet another one that wanted me to do the moving, even when we were already in talks about meeting up here in NC just to get to know one another. Truth be told, I went online and updated my profile and...she found out. I told her that I wanted something else. I was angry at myself...angry at the unfortunate circumstances that layeth before me. "For a while, it seemed as though my ex had the upper hand on me...that I was only going to be made a mockery through deception. I would go to bed each night after that one praying "God...help me. Somehow...help me". "Then an idea hit me...'why not try this thing called Telegram?'. It took me a night or more just to get to understand this new piece of technology that plopped into my lap...that I dropped there...but I later realized and grew to understand that it worked very much like Skype...minus the video calls. "From there, I made connections. I NEEDED to get myself out there. I joined groups, added friends, talked endlessly for hours...and then another idea hit me. 'Alright...you're a local fur...time to hit the local group up on Telegram and start looking. I asked to join and joined a few group conversations, some of which I'm no longer a part of. Days where I would "chat kill" the conversation with awkward silence would be times where I simply walked away from groups and wiped them free from my paws like dust. The Fayetteville Furs for one, and another fursuit group chat for another...fucking popular fucks... "But I stayed loyal to one group...one I had been seeing even in public. And there, I met a girl...someone local...really local! How about...30 minutes from where I'm at, a little older than I was, but the last time I had a relationship with a girl older than I, we stayed together for a while and made great chemistry. The chemistry is even still with us to this date even though we have yet to go beyond just meeting up and talking every now and then. The two of us have hope for one another for our relationship to work while I strive to getting a car next. THIS is the next big step in my life. "For a while though, there was a minor setback...one that ended my hobby for a while...back in October, I went to a meet and suited for about two hours...sweat in my eyes, nose and mouth, causing my vision to blur in my left eye. When I finished suiting, I regretfully forgot to dry my suit. This would be my downfall, for later in November at the next meet I would attend...the unthinkable. I pulled my suit out and noticed a horrid smell...the smell of water. I turned the head around and noticed several black spots lining the inner foam to my head. Black...Mold... "Black mold is one of the most harmful mold one can be around, and even though its effects themselves are harmless at first, constant introduction to mold spores can lead to problems with the respiratory system and even moreso...further health issues that could put one in the hospital...but on this day, my neglect...my own tiredness when I wanted to collapse instead of take care of the one thing I fought to obtain for so long...jeopardized and eventually destroyed my suiting days. "Many don't know what it means for me...but my prior suit has been through a lot with me. It has been there when I have sought counseling for my fears of driving and social anxiety, and even to this day it saddens me that it was like a sad story book ending - when I was finally over what I was over, my suit could be labeled as it's job being done and time for it to go. I came home crying...but I knew what had to be done...I had to burn him...and let him go. "It was one of the hardest things to do in my life...harder than driving for the first time...harder than applying for a job...harder than, well, letting my ex go. Even to this day I call where I laid Shadow to rest the "Shadow Wolf Memorial Flameground. "I had two close friends who knew about the disaster, talking to me online, comforting me, telling me that they would be more than happy to help me get a new one. But I refused...I knew that if I wanted him back, I had to do it on my own. Shadow was MY...WOLF. MY SUIT. I appreciated the offer fully, but that night, I went back to my previous suit maker. I got an email later that night hearing of how heartbreaking it was for her to hear what had happened. She even mentioned that she knew the faults of going for a resin base as well to know that my resin base wasn't holding up. "She later mentioned the one thing that, like a hand from above, held my chin up. 'I would be more than happy to make a new suit for you'. She knew how much it meant for me to have this suit...knew what it had accomplished for me and knew that, even if it sounded childish, this suit wasn't just a suit to me. Shadow felt like a brother I never had. Like a being that could comfort me when I sought comfort. "I went back to work with a sign in my workzone saying "Do It For Shadow". I had trucks to break down, stock, backstock to run, reclaim to throw out, other trucks to move, new guys to train, and so much more. That each day, I hand counted how many boxed I moved and destroyed, when all products inside were shelved. Each day being close to either 100 or some...even 200 boxes... "This went on for MONTHS...move, stock, count, destroy...move, stock, count, destroy...And after 140+ days, more than 10,000 boxes later, on March 21st, I received an enlightening update. "'Your suit is now finished! I will have it mailed out tomorrow and will send you the tracking information as well. Thank you for commissioning me'. "Back in 2015, I drew up the new concept to Shadow Wolf as a "Hellion". I thought 'Well, what would he look like if he had hair...actual hair? A Mohawk...a goatee...and why not through some stripes on him?' She added spikes to the Mohawk...that if one rubbed the hair today, one would faintly see yet feel the spikes. She even gave him eyelashes so his eyes looked as though he had attitude. When I saw her pictures debuting the suit, I was amazed...I still am amazed. I am in love with this suit. Saturday...March 24th...He Was Resurrected. I say it like this and say it because I felt as though I was a suiter again. I had the ability to suit again and enjoy him. But...Nowadays, he's something more. Now he's my soldier...he's my rock...I started picking up these New World Order shirts online to tell the world "Look who's back and looks who's ready to break every Hollywood light and Wolfpac howl every full moon night". I didn't want him to represent one click...I wanted him to represent BOTH. No sides...just brotherhood. He might still be cute, we just...haven't quite reached that point yet. Not when my ex is trying to be some punk figure hybrid off of Lion King...God knows what he's trying to pull off...or tried to. Most importantly, he's back, and he's gained quite the attention thus far. Why even Uncle Kage is jealous that Shadow has hair that even this Phd. Dumbass can't grow...or tries to grow...saying that his goatee is "out of style". Shadow says "No...you're out of style...someone like me needs to throw you into a retirement home where all you have to do is worry about the next number that gets called on Bingo night and when your nurse comes in to change your adult diaper before tucking you in for bed". "Along the way, I picked up quite a bit of new music to my library to help restimulate those past days where I was just new to the fandom. Lamb of God now grazes and fills my library, along with Metallica. THAT was a long LONG time coming. "In short...life is good again...even when my ex is unfortunately on my mind. I'm back here for��hopefully a longer span and while I would like to make more pictures and more content for FA and YouTube, I've got ideas for videos mostly. I did make it to Animazement '18 this year and rocked out all 4 days that I was there with the nWo cosplay with Shadow Wolf that I had. I owned it all...room and everything. I invited those who wanted to attend and they attended with me. I resolved last year's issue with this year's "put up or shut up" moment. And Shadow promises he was a good boy *winks*" -Shadow (nWo) P.S. "Hey-Yo! Sparky...if you can read this...I'm more punk than you, I can make a black eye seem like your fashion statement...if I told my girlfriend what you were into, she'd say you need counseling...that and it aptly matches how much of an asshole you are. That if I told her you once at my shit in RP, she'd look you in the eye and tell you that you were already full of it to begin with. One more...for the good guys...

[shadowwolf6]

The Following Announcement Has Been Paid For By The New World Order... "Hey Yo! Yeah...You haven't seen this guy in a while. Wait, have you even seen this guy? You're probably up and thinking "Where's Shadow...who's this guy?". Well...frankly...I think a new movement should be afoot. You see, that other version of Shadow...that other dog you might have seen around on the net? He ain't here no mo! Well...he still is here...just with a new attitude and a new idea. A new light, a new glimpse, a new persona, fursona, fursuit and hits too... It's a rather long story...one that takes a rather dark turn, but the name just wouldn't be synonymous with darkness if it wasn't, now would it? It's a rather long story, but I think for now this is all you get to see... I'm back y'all...and I've brought a new allegiance with me..."

-Shadow Wolf (nWo) P.S. It is not OwO or owo or even nwo...like that same damn surprise furmoji wanting to ask "what's this" yet winking there at the beginning or owo with an eyepatch...nope...you'd be sadly mistaking. HEAR ME OUT Tumblr! I HAVE RETURNED! 

[shadowwolf6]

You "Were" A Thing

Shadow Wolf...Negative Six, to be a bit more specific...I want to write this to you regarding the...eh..."breaks". You see...you aren't the best thing that I have in my possession now. You "could" be...I just have to have the patience to sit down and work on you a bit more and time really is short these days.

However...ergo...I have contacted someone who has previous experience with fursuits...quite unlike the maker that I went to for the resin base that you are. This maker actually makes foam bases at that.

This person...is my previous fursuit maker.

Yeah, this just got awkward.

-Shadow Wolf (6)

P.S. I told you I was to be "unden!able". I stand by my statement.

[shadowwolf6]

I credit the maker Wind Wolf for this amazing creation. As I can show you to what is and what is to come. I will not post too much tonight, but instead...leave you with a video...soon to come tomorrow 

[shadowwolf6]

Let's Go On A Journey...

Let's go a way's back...back to April 2017...the first big steps, are the hardest. In one moment I'm hearing from my broken ex boyfriend Sparky "sorry but I've already got a ride with BK", to "we completely forgot about you...", I wanted to mention one thing, in quote... "I'll put an end to this I swear, this I swear the Son with shine. This I swear...this I swear...THIS...I...SWEAR!" -Metallica's James Hetfield. Animazement 2017 was brought to you...by the New World Order...WOLFPAC! I came Friday...Saturday...Sunday. I partied, moshed, suited...drunk...laughed...flipped off (my ex and his chew toy) and spent some quality time with two new best friends. My roommates. I got drunk...I got fucked...I called my ex a "bigot"...but in that time frame, I gain myself a new image - a respirator and black rave goggles with red lenses.

The convention has far been over now and I have been back to real life...back to work where changes have come and gone with work. New people, new faces, some of the same experiences and new learning methods...a new chance for a true alpha like myself to really emerge and take control of this life before it spiraled any further.

I did.

I gained myself forward momentum by acquiring a few new things...ending one thing, beginning many...MANY...others. Steps that I would have never taken before with the weight that was my ex-boyfriend, I take now finding that they are light as a feather. They're lighter and enjoyable. For starters, how about attending a bowling furmeet? First ever bowling meet that I could attend...EVER...and I was the highest scoring of the furs. However, furries...I'm not going to ask how come the floors at the approach are sticky as...well...I just want to ask...why are they THAT filthy? Every time I slid, I stopped and stuck. Even debuted the new ball to my arsenal...the Brunswick Rhino.

I can put to rest my boyfriend...as now I'm taken to my beloved mate now...we met elsewhere. Even though I've been now on Ferzu, Pounced, FurryMate, etc. We've been talking some really dirty stuff, and even some cute stuffs with one another online...playing with one another...listening to one another at that.

But the journey isn't over...not yet. Not with THE acquisition.

I got home from work on Monday, and saw a box sitting there on my porch. When I first picked it up...man...she was light! The box however had seen better days...but inside...it hadn't. 

I can say it now...Shadow Wolf (6) now has a different form.

Shadow Wolf... (-6)

I've had to glue, tape and repair this guy with it's arrival since day one. Teeth have been falling out, a hinge...snapped...unglued mainly. Yet...I have been prevalent and stubborn. I have the e6000 to save him...and have. He has already seen it's first meet and people have adored the new face of Shadow.

So...with that, I ask my ex boyfriend...since Animazement 2017...

What now?...Who now? 

-Shadow Wolf (-6)

[shadowwolf6]

One Week Ago Today...

$200 was sent off for the first installment that will be the newly edited Shadow Wolf.

Today however we undergo a slight bump in the road thanks to a not so lovely person in Wisconsin...who thought it nice to skim my debit card at some time or another, and then completely clean out my bank account some time today.

Thank you to said lovely, most likely lonely and very desperate person, who sought love just to rob from the honest hard working individuals out there when all you did was toil in making all our honest hard working individuals' lives...living...hell.

It is because of you that I also got my money back...no damage was done. All you basically did was stir up dust. And I am also proud to announce the new edit name to Shadow Wolf, as this version shall not go by the (6)...but as...the New World Order edit. So instead of it looking like "Shadow Wolf (6)", this new head name, will look like this... Shadow Wolf - nWo

I end by saying positively...what doesn't kill me, makes me stronger.

-Shadow Wolf (6)

[shadowwolf6]

Confirmation! Shadow Wolf For 2017!

The title...says it all. There will be a new version of Shadow Wolf...to come...for 2017. Last night, I was managed to find someone who just opened up, thus ending my search for a vendor to re-create Shadow Wolf. Early Summer 2017...

[shadowwolf6]

Wanted: Fursuit Maker For Shadow Wolf

The first step in creating a fursuit OR, in my case, having just a new fursuit head, is of course finding the adequate maker who's fast and affordable and has amazing quality. For that, I need some help... Anyone know of any currently open fursuit makers, please reply to this post therein or send me a message of any appropriate contact information to some viable references for fursuit makers and I will be more than happy to check into them. All I would like to have basically is just a new fursuit head design for Shadow Wolf.  

[shadowwolf6]

Happy 2017!

Finally a year where...I can only hope...doesn't have any sort of crap like 2016. What do I mean by that? -Automotive accident -Stove heating coil burns out -Lack of money leaves me eating rice and beans...for months -No bowling out of league -No more furmeets as of May 2016...locally to NC that is...because some locals (triangle furries) are just assholes -Replacing car's cam shaft sensor...among other things... -Being sick just days before Christmas -Hurricane Matthew...and... -Power Outage for 3 days straight -RIP Lemmy \m/ -Pokémon "Stop-Harrassing-My-Poor-Facebook-Feed" Go -Struggling Friendships -Struggling relationship -Beginnings of a first job -Beginnings of a future career in Professional Bowling if Bioprocessing Technology isn't my thing later on. There are however, plus sides to this story! -First convention -New mate -New Metallica! -Finally a licensed driver! Hot damn! -No more furmeets as of May 2016...locally to NC...because you locals (triangle furries) are just bad enough to be mentioned TWICE in once post. -First 600 series in bowling a few days back -First job with actual good pay -Brand spankin' new Kigurumi as...Arcanine ^^ Which is awesome...and HUGE! -Back to reading my Bible just for spiritual enlightenment when times get tough. -Beating my very first Pokémon game! (Pokémon Ruby) -Biking for the cause against Pokémon Go (Because...why walk when you can bike) -Healing up from that sickness just in time for Christmas! Here's to hopefully 2017 being as how 2016 ended...quietly, victoriously, and hopefully without any loss to our favorite celebrities, AM I RIGHT!?

Hopefully too...that new fursuit head! STILL looking a dealer!

[shadowwolf6]

5 More Days(?)...

And yet...here I sit...sick as a dog. I blame all the MFF posts I've been seeing. Even work has been more nice to me...sorry but that's just the bottom line...the age difference is downright funny sometimes,   But yeah, let's try to think positive, shall we? It's only just 5 more days until my own Arcanine comes home, hopefully. Home for the holidays, and dammit, I better start finding me some fucking IVs or something, throw myself into the world's largest fucking hamster cage and just fucking glue myself to the water bottle and open wide...In other words, I'm ready to flush my body of this shit before that lovely little Arcanine comes home and then I want to dive my large ass body into it.

This beauty is coming from Singapore too! Next to Japan, that I think is about the furthest away I've ever bought something from. Via email, the maker(s) want to see pictures and they, I guess, want to see them here on Tumblr, so I'm going to go on a little expedition. It's only fair that they get to see pictures and maybe even a video or two of the new Arcanine, and you should too. I mean, hell, let's spread the good news, am I right?

For now though...needs more water...only about the 8th or so bottle I've drunk today.

[shadowwolf6]

In The Mean Time...

A little known "secret" to what will be or what "could" be in the coming days, thanks to a website elsewhere that seems to have something that I desire, right along with the fursuit head. You need not worry about what that could be now...it's right before you. *winks*  2017 is going to be, at least appears to be, a good year coming up. Hopefully...I mean, I can only hope because I haven't really heard anything back within the past few days while I've also been at work, so we really will see.

PayPal being a thing...eh...I don't like it. I don't mind using it, but then again, I really don't like it. It's just not what I'm accustomed to, but then again...$97.00...I guess, or at least hope, it's worth it.

[shadowwolf6]

I was working on finding a picture for Facebook to use as a new avatar that would also be the first one that I could use...with a banner! I kept on seeing all the NFL and those fans are rising up again on the net... But...what about those stars coming out to say...the NBA/WNBA and the NFL and all other major sports affiliates such as the NHL, MLB, even MLS? #FursuitFriday showing much love here from Shadow Wolf because he bleeds Carolina Blue! LET'S GO TAR HEELS! 

[shadowwolf6]

Man...*SPOILER ALERT*...if you're coming from my FurAffinity account and you're reading this and seeing said picture, then let my surprise be forever opened to you. But, let's just keep it our own little secret, shall we? So, why this...art? It's proof that I can somewhat doodle, but, only when I feel the energy and the drive to do so. What IS this by the way? You could be looking at the next fursuit head to be created by anyone willing, bold, brave and strong...and also knowledgeable and affordable...To Construct The World's NEXT Furry-Fucking HELLION, NOW CAN I GET A HELLYEAH!? What's different from the previous design is that this will now include hair - mainly the "rebellious"-but-seemingly-common-in-this-furry-fandom Mohawk colored a bright red. Overall head color from my first head design on my fursuit is still in great shape, and will also be the same main color as this new design - black with yellow eyes. There are however two new features that I feel will bring Shadow Wolf out more. Note the THREE...yes, 3...Three...red scars about the left eye and more noticeably the bright red patch of thick fur at the front of his chin. This bright red soulpatch is really a big cornerstone for Shadow, as even I have grown one now myself for about 3 or 4 years now.

Fursuit makers, creators and commissioners alike, I am tagging #fursuits here and with the #fursuit maker tag at the bottom because I am looking one to make this dream of mine, this new dream of mine, a much delightful reality. Just a head, that's all I'm asking for.

We'll keep in touch!

p.s. (2015?) at the top is nothing to be concerned about. It's going to be most likely 2017 I can get this done or when I would like this to be done.

[shadowwolf6]

"Tell them, I don't give a fuck...I don't care anymore...and while they're at it...dot this I on the bottom" https://youtu.be/nYXYfdsaHxg

Reaction to the local chapter of furries who keep pushing and shoving Shadow Wolf aside. "Man, they will never truly acknowledge the gift of life if all everyone else does is break away and piss away just the sheer delight that I bring to this pack..." I am Shadow Wolf...! Am Unden!able and ! Approve This Message 

[shadowwolf6]

Back In The Saddle

It is with great delight that I can now proclaim I am throwing my hat back into the ring and will be returning back to league bowling this Fall and Winter for what should be now my 5th league since starting back... And I have a whole new weapon and a whole new method but the same old means for striving for Animazement 2017. This is going to be a damn good league.  

[shadowwolf6]

Triangle...This

"Where I come from, there is no higher authority but me. Being my own god is all I was meant to be" -Dimmu Borgir - "The Sinister Awakening" - In Sorte Diaboli.

Where I come from, I am NOT a money shitting child... Where I come from, I am NOT the next trend follower... Where I come from, I am NOT the same urban piece churned out by the machine... Where I come from, I am NOT some higher university knowledge student... Where I come from, I am NOT some hick, trailer trash, OR redneck... Where I come from, I REFUSE to be a hick, trailer trash or redneck... Where I come from, I am NOT some wanna-be popufur... Where I come from, I am NOT some child who wanted to be away from my parents... Where I come from, I am NOT the bully...but the bullied. Where I come from, I am NOT spoiled... Where I come from, I am NOT a people pusher/excluder... Where I come from, I am NOT striving to be everyone's center of attention... No... Where I come from, I AM proudly raised from the south... Where I come from, I AM a 100% devoted lover, friend, and family member... Where I come from, God comes first...you're dead last... Where I come from, Hard Rock and Heavy Metal is the anthem...the sound... Where I come from, I get up when people knock me down... Where I come from, I help others up when you've knocked them down and laughing... Where I come from, I have a heart that's opened to those who wish to stay and locked shut for those who abuse and neglect. Where I come from...you are NO higher authority...you are NO ONE. Where I come from, you're taught manners...or taught your place...   Where I come from...We All Are God's Creation...