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Stuck in the past

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What am I trying to escape from?

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Sex, Nicotine, whiskey, caffeine.

And my necrotic heart.

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The Shining Directed by Stanley Kubrick (1980)

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Hopeless and drugged, my black emotions seethe

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what if i deserve all of this?

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‏مرت بي أيام كدت ألفظ فيها قلبي من شدة مرارتها كنت أشعر أنها لن تمر .. لكنها مرت هذه الأيام أيضاً ستمر !

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“Deep in my heart I know I am a loner. I have tried to blend in with the world and be sociable, but the more people I meet the more disappointed I am. So, I’ve learned to enjoy myself, my family, and a few good friends.”

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Am I healed or am I distracted?

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We all got problem cut it off get some bands.

We all got problem we’re trying to solve in advance.

We smoking and drinking trying to get the demons we’ve been faced with off.

Trying to compromise the basics.

Cut it off.

Like some loose ends.

They ask me what my problem is, I say it’s the generation that I’m forced to live with.

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late dark hours

Most of relationships are ended by girls. I mean the serious ones. They find someone they think is better or go back to their ex. The stereotype is that the girl is always the nicer one and that are loyal and faithful to their partner always. ironic.

you know what girls want? They want better.

“isn’t that what everyone wants?” you might ask.

Usually men seek their sexual desires till they reach a mature age or mentality. They know how to separate emotional from physical. But once they fall in love, like real love after knowing the girl pretty well, they are loyal. Romantic. They trust and they love you till eternity.

The hard truth is that on the other hand, girls want to be treated like a princess all the time even if it is done by their boyfriend or some other “friend”. They will constantly flirt and will cheat the guy till he finds out. And the funny part is that they don’t know about this themselves and think themselves of saints.

They play with the nice guys, make one their bf then run after another. And once their conscience will wake, they will admit their betrayal and leave the guy heartbroken.

Guys aren’t touchy feely but cheating by the one they loved shatters them. They won’t cry maybe but they have no courage left to go out and love again like they once did.

Heartbreak changes a guy completely and he’s never the same again. Once he used to make his girl laugh, care for her, be there for her but all the courage for such initiatives in the future is lost.

Those dark memories and those pictures nobody wants in their heads.

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Up In Smoke

You treated me like a cigarette, you wrapped me around your finger and put me against your lips and set a fire inside of me. With every puff, you took more of me and ashed my remains on the ground. You kept taking and taking until I was nothing more than a burnt out shell of myself. That is when you threw me away and reached into the pack for an entirely new cigarette. It’s ironic though, it turns out you were the cancerous one and I was the victim...