shareyourpeace

[shareyourpeace]

Bart on the fairies houses in the Phoineix park

[shareyourpeace]

https://www.instagram.com/tv/CIASa-9jFRL/?igshid=1htpmzuq7vdc

[Joe rogan shared a video of politicians breaking their own intense covid restrictions; If you cant view, google it]

I believe it’s going to do more damage in the long run. And I’m not conspiriscist, I do not believe this is a all a ploy for the government to control. I have the covid app, I’ve been tested.

When I “share my peace”, I will be sharing my ideas and views that I think that all my fellow like-minded humans should do, worldwide. Instead of critising the very small group of extremely eduated highly intelligent individuals (like the researchers, the government advice groups like NEPHET or whatever the Irish one is called and even the doctors). We have to rely on expert advice, but some of us individuals have concerns, from a different perspective (may it be social or economic). We have ideas that pooled together and managed correctly it could add to the research of experts and we could all come together as one to combat this.

I don’t mean to get as mushy but we could make a difference. I strongly believe that my ideas, with tweeking and input from others (especially those in socially economic /health situations I have no experience or knowledge about) could make a difference. Or at least help to.

There’s enough of people spending hours about how “the covid” is all a mysterious goernment ploy/scam/intentional. If those people spent as much time researching viruses in general, then cell biology, the immune system and how it functions, bacterial-resistance caused by antibiotics, vaccines (the past of how we have completely erradicated diseases), how virus function, their properties how they travel, DNA, etc. The list goes on and on. I’ve said it before and’ I’ll say it again information is NOT knowledge and you cannot just repost a quote someone you don’t know posted, with facts and statistics you haven’t researched their source and may/may not understand statistics enough to know if the data is represented correctly, or has it been manipulated to suit the narrative ( as many data sets are).

I want to share my ideas and I want to share my knowledge on these subjects so hopefully my goal of a joint public and government and scientific effort is made to combat the global pandemic (at least at a national level, in Littile Ole Eire).

I wrote this fast and will edit later.

More posts to follow on what’s mentioned above.

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[shareyourpeace]

Life is full of choices. Every single thing you do involves a choice and one will make your life better and one won't. If every choice you choose is the right one, you're choosing happiness. The other choice is depression.

Mixed inputs over the years but this is my compilation of them all.

I was depressed. I was in the dark place so many bloody times. After a while, every time I’d thought that was my lowest, that it couldn’t possibly get worse. Then I’d sink lower and lower. I did it again and again x100000.

I can proudly say that I finally see my self-pitying self as I truly was (sometimes even still am). I convinced myself that when I was avoiding was looking in the mirror it was in fear of seeing myself. Although I did look pretty sick, weary and at times nearly deathly (no exaggeration) looking at my physical self in the that wasn’t the key problem. But that lack of self love impacted my self hygiene so at times it was also a problem. A smelly problem. NGL.

The inner contacted I was ignoring was a whole lot more signifcant than that. The buried issues control your conscious emotion and alas your behaviours.

I believe that looking deep into my eyes and into my soul and allowed myself to realize I cant keep lying to myself that whats happening externally is rhw issue. Fact is when you face the truth of the matter which is usally repressed past traumatic issue related, then it would leave you with two options; You can do what YOU and only YOU are obligated to do. Be responsible, face your issues OR you could bury then and then stacked more and more on top of them until you have a nervous breakdown. The stacking would begin with the instant anxiety your self-served ignorance, that you will feel in the future every time you even slightly think of the subject and your anxiety levels will eventually reach it’s capacity.

Which means projection, it comes in many forms - anger for me. Leading me to blame someone else for something silly. Which is usually/defnitely/completely my fault. I’m always dramatic, causing a scene, with 99% chance of precipitation when I flip the lid. And that leads to what? Embarrasment, shame, self-esteem issue blah blah fucking blah.

But many people (like me) literally have not got the physical emotional or spiritual energy to face that shit right now. It’s a lot easier to binge watch every single Greys Anatomy epidsode from season 1 to 500 or whatever one there on. Im no one to judge i watched them all in 3 months from like july til now [ill calculate the hours later]. What Im trying to say here is just recently I was considering mental rehab because I couldnt do it all over again by myself. But my mindset and really my behaviours, thoughts and people arounf me changed.

Most of all, I did. I evolved, started my next chapter whatever... Thing is, Im really actually happy now.

When I refused to deal with my shit, I lived an anxiety-ridden life of self-destruction.

Like many of us, I experienced trauma all through my childhood right to adulthood, even recently still. I’m recovering from recent events and think of myself that because of that it makes me a bit of fraud to give “ advice “ to people, so I’m, going to state right here and now this is not what I’m doing

I climbed up and out of depressions for about 15 years. I experienced  emotionally damaging moments that through me off back into the black just as I was convinced (as super proud) that I’d gotten back feeling hopeful for myself and beginning to think of the future again. This happened so many times, but the last time, was the last time it will happen to me.

Each experience has gifted me with a lesson and the knowledge Ive picked up from how different people react to eachother and themselves and how I react. Mainly how I have learned to not let  my emotions control my life, I’, not only trained my mind, but I’ve gotten physically fit. I can jog now.

 And if you don’t know me (which you don’t) I am lazy my nature,  I joined the gym lots and never went but Im blessed to be slim by nature so you wouldn’t notice much. But I smoke almost ten years now, I barely went on walks 3 months ago and now I jog 10km AND work out a day. And I aint bragging or trying to make you feel bad in anyway, I did this by making the right choices.

Jogging and the other doors and being in nature cleanses my soul. It has healed me so in so many ways this time and I know it’’s for the better because Ive been the top perfomer in work (I WFH for tech company, usually I am alway middle performer, scraping above average).This is a huge indication that dumping  the rubbish thoughts you CHOSE and CHOOSE to think makes space for productivity and exceeding. Not only at work, you do more cleaning, cooking (cue healthy eating more brain food and creative meditation).

I am have been through a journey these last few year and  I’m not here to moan about the in’s and out’s, shoulda coulda woulda, no blaming or aiming or cause hurt or condescend, no moaning and venting - basically no bullshit.

I want to share how I’ve gotten and continue to get better.

Mind body and soul reconnection is what I feel like I’ve began to have and I want others to too because I empathize so much with almost everyone, especially the people who have the least amount of support or knowledge to have any kind of hope. I want to spread that hope.

I live alone and have through covid. if I could this alone (mainly - Ive fuck all family, none at all nearby, lack of friends (later)) and if I can do this, fuck anybody can.

I aint preaching so save the hate for someone who will allow that toxic shit from entering their precious mind space.

Much love,

Zoe

[shareyourpeace]

Information is not knowledge.

Facts or learning someone/something by experiencing/see for yourself.

That’s knowledge.