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WTF

I’m not even sure what life is right now. Like what the fuck. Why am I supposed to stay home? Why did a guy eat a bat and cause the whole world to shut down?!?! I never EVER thought that I would walk into walmart and have everyone in masks and gloves. I never thought my opportunity to travel would be completley closed because of this. This is causing stress for me, my relationship, and my family. I just hope everything gets better. 

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Am I the only one who feels fucking alone? 

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Okeyyyy lets talk about my family now. They’re crazy people but I sure do love them. So my Dad GOT MARRIED yayyyyyy! I’m honestly so happy for him. And his wife, well she’s just amazing. And ya know, him and his fiance and her family are super accepting of me and Matt’s relationship, which I appreciate because my Mom’s family is not the same way. My Mom’s family in fact tries to convince me not to date him which I find stupid because whatever they say isn’t going to affect me. Do they know him? No, they know me and obviously want me to have the best, but honestly He’s the best. Best for me and I’m so glad. Also, I love my siblings even my step siblings. They’re all so awesome and supportive and I need them in my life for forever, because they love Matt too and I love them and IDK my siblings are always just perfect for me. And I feel as though me and Bailey are closer than ever, and Cassi and Riley need me which is nice it makes me feel like I have a purpose in my life. I love them anyways there ya go. <3

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December 23rd 2019

I guess I haven’t been on here in a while, but I guess I wanted to post a little bit about life and what’s been going on lately. Right now I won’t talk about my family that will be in another post, but at the moment lets talk about my relationship because honestly that is what I’m so super obsessed about. My Matt baby. He is the love of my life, and that sounds crazy, but honestly I’ve never wanted to just be with someone all the time ever, but seriously I’m feeling it. I need him with me all the time, like when he leaves my house, or I have to go to work it just breaks my heart. I just wish that he was next to me always. I’ve never really had someone with me for the holidays, so that’s been an adventure too. Honestly just to have him with me so I’m warm and cozy is worth it all. To have him listen to me and talk to me, that makes it so good. It’s not that I don’t love spending the holiday time with my family, its the fact that I get to spend time with someone who wants to be with me as much as I want to be with him. It’s the fact that I have someone to talk to the whole season, and he doesn’t get sick of me. Idk. Tinder is a great app, and I’m so grateful that I met my boyfriend on there because one day I want to be able to call him mine forever ya know? I just, he’s the best <3

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THE END

Shelbie Giles

Portfolio Epilogue

Dear Fish, 

This is my letter to you. I know I seem like a crazy kid and probably a whore from what you’ve heard in your class, but fear not I am not. My Free write for this portfolio was all about how I was excited the semester was ending and that this was my last English class I’ll ever have to take! But now, I want to focus this reflection a bit deeper than what I wrote about previously. I want to write about three main things, but knowing me this may get a little jumbled. The first thing: what happened during this class in my outside life. Second: the lessons I’ve learned specifically from you and your teachings. Third: how my writing has improved. So here we go.

First things first, so much shit has happened this semester it is unbelievable. I started this semester with no boyfriend and no intention of dating anyone during my first year of college, and now look at me! I have the best boyfriend I could have ever asked for, and it’s only freshman year! Not all good things happened either though. My Mom, for example, ended up breaking up with this guy she thought she was going to marry, and me? Well someone hit my car halfway through concert week and I am now carless because they totaled it. I took a trip to California at the beginning of the semester, and made friends that will probably be a part of my whole college experience. I didn’t just gain friends, I also experienced the loss of my high school pals. And that shit hurts. I don’t even remember the last day we talked ya know? Just poof! Gone. I started two new jobs in the time I’ve been going to school. I also took a trip to Moab the second week of the semester with a girl I only knew for a few weeks, and a boy I had only known for 2. I had the best time of my life! I think those moments where I decided to live instead of wait, those were the best moments. I got to see my favorite band perform for the 3rd time in my life. If you’re wondering my favorite band is AJR. I won and lost competitions, I painted a humans body, and crazily enough my dad got married. Look at all that, that is honestly the fastest my life has flown by, looking back and realizing that was only a few months when it has felt like years ago already. Life is too short not to live to our fullest potentials, and have the best time living! Like I once said in 5th grade, YOLO. 

The second thing I wanna talk about is the meaningful lessons of Fish Burton. Now when you first walked into class and everyone thought you were just some student who was crazy, we were all shook when you introduced yourself as our teacher. But we learned that it didn’t matter who you were or what image you let us see because we got to know you somewhat in a way where it didn’t matter. We got to know who you really were this semester. I know you say you don’t know yourself, but the image you put out there for your students is an incredible guy to look up to. There are a few things I will never forget you teaching me, and the number one would probably be to love. The worlds not perfect, hell my boyfriends not perfect, but do we still love? Hopefully, that answer is yes. We have to learn to love the imperfections, and that’s one thing I will never forget from this class. Not only did that lesson teach me to love my self and improve my self-image, but that lesson also taught me not to take advantage of what’s right in front of me. The beautiful place I call home, I mean those mountains?! Holy cow! They’re gorgeous! I mean the people around us are gorgeous. There have been too many times where I see outfits, or people expressing themselves and I haven’t complimented them. It runs through my mind, sometimes I wish I had the confidence to wear certain things or had MY own style, but I’m impressed every day when I see other peoples. That’s also one thing that I’ve learned from you, I shouldn’t care what others think. I need to do what I like, and what I want! I mean not only in fashion, but choices in my life that I make have been based off how I thought others would react, but I should be focused on how I like what I’m doing. Are the choices I’m making really my choices, or do they reflect on what someone else would like. The last thing I want to mention that you have taught me is to ask questions. The first day of class you had students asking questions, and you were asking tough questions that I never thought I’d be thinking about, but that’s good! Questions are the way for our mind to expand! My boyfriend always says I don’t ask enough questions and he’s right. Maybe it’s because I’m scared of the answers, or I don’t know what questions to ask, but I’ve come to an understanding on how important they really are and how they improve relationships, environments, and lives. So thank you Fish, thank you for teaching me things that will be hard to forget. 

The last thing I want to write about is how my writing as improved in this class. Grammatically correct writing? Most of the time no. Correct punctuation and spelling? Well, that’s why I downloaded Grammarly, but really my writing has improved in the way I write. I no longer follow a rubric or try to follow the “rules” of writing. This class has taught me to write from the heart, and even a long-ass research paper helped me understand that if I’m passionate about something, and I learn more about it there is so much out there to think about. When I started my research project my claim was, “we need people in our lives.” At the time in my life when I started with this claim I was at a place where I did need people, I needed people before I did something that I was going to regret, but through this whole semester not only visiting doctors, family, and friends, but being able to write this paper and to realize that it’s okay to be alone sometimes. Being alone can be good to focus, and to get your stuff done. So my claim changed by the end of the year too, “the benefits of being with people, and why loneliness can become dangerous.” 

To conclude our little letter here I’d like to say Thank You Fish. I appreciate the stories you’ve shared with us, the lessons on literature and English that you have taught us so that we may be brighter and better students, and people. It wasn’t hard to recommend this class to my friends because honestly, you’re the best English teacher I’ve ever had. I hope that you find all the happiness in your life, and that you always keep writing poetry. Thanks again

Sincerely, 

Me. 

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Dear Mom: Research Project

Research Project

I’m too scared to talk to her alone, so I’m writing this out. Who is her you may ask? She is my Mom. I don’t know how I’d fit all this information in just talking to her so here I am writing a paper for her benefit. So, Mom, this is for you. I don’t understand why you choose to be alone. I see loneliness affect you every day and it hurts me to watch you go through the pain. I see you walking through a movie theatre and every time you see a couple your smile fades, and I know its because you miss that. There are so many resources out there for you Mom. There are dating sights and apps that you could find someone on, but you choose to be alone. It’s not just dating, you isolate yourself from your friends and I want you to be able to have those people there for you in your life. Maybe it’s for your children like you’ve told me before, but maybe its something more. Maybe you can’t move on, but that’s why I’m here to tell you the facts. You need to find someone Mom. You’ll be happier, healthier, the home will be a better environment, and you won’t die at a young age. I need you around for a long time and loneliness doesn’t promise me a longer amount of time. So here you go the reasons you shouldn’t be alone, why you should make friends, and why being together is better. 

There are two sides to every story just like there are always different opinions when speaking about one subject. So let me ask a question, how do we find motivation? There are many ways to find it including people, places, or objects we are trying to obtain. Some people are self-driven enough to motivate themselves through everything. I wish I was able to motivate myself and be able to continue my journey with my own will, but for me, I need a push. I need people to help me grow. People are the reason I continue with life. The thing is there are bad people in this world, but there are also good people. So do we let ourselves take a chance to meet bad people amongst the good, and have faith in humanity? Or do we face this harsh world on our own so we are the only ones who guide our fate? There are so many different options to be captured, to experience, but if we choose the ones that make us happiest and end up benefiting us the most we will be able to find the most joy. 

In my personal opinion, I think meeting other people will benefit you immensely. You’re usually happier when you’re with your children than when you’re alone, so why not find happiness in another person, or people. I watch and read many things that remind me of you, but the other day I watched a video from Kurzgesagt-In a Nutshell that was titled “Loneliness.” Now, this video didn’t necessarily remind me of you, but I did think it had beneficial information that you may want to hear. There’s a long list of facts about loneliness that include: it makes you age quicker, advances Alzheimers faster, damages your immune system, increases your risk of cancer, it’s 2x as deadly as obesity and just as deadly as smoking a pack of cigarettes a day. I understand that you’re an adult and you can't make time to make friends. You had a spouse, children, and your job. The easiest thing to sacrifice is your friends and now your love life, but there’s a way to make time for all of it! Brian Tracy wrote a book on time management called, “Master Your Time, Master Your Life: The Breakthrough System to Get More Results, Faster, in Every Area of Your Life” and in it he talks about how important it is to stay focused on your career like you are, but he also talks about how important relationships are in our lives, “The time you spend with other people, and the way you spent it determines perhaps 85 percent of your happiness, success, or failure in life.”  You do not have to always have fun with people and be going on dates, I mean for me, I study at my boyfriend’s house, but being with him is what makes my outlook more positive with the whole experience. I know that you think you’re a strong woman, and you are! But being a “lone wolf” and doing all of this on your own isn’t healthy. Loneliness can become Chronic, and chronic loneliness is one of the most unhealthy things we can experience. When loneliness becomes chronic most people struggle to find themselves not being lonely, and I don’t want to see you have to dig your way out of a deep hole. The best way we can protect ourselves against loneliness is to find friends, keep our social networks open. We have so many ways to socialize through the internet. There are social pages such as Instagram, Facebook, snap chat, Tik-Tok, Tumblr, and so much more! If you don’t keep your social networks open and start excluding people from your life people will start excluding you. I know from personal experience that this happens. When you go through a lonely period and you keep turning people down to do things, soon enough people just stop inviting you to do things. This happens to me during the dance season, I’m so busy with school and dance I make no time for my friends. This is where the time management comes back in, the time we make and spend with the people who mean the most to us is the time that will truly be worth spending. 

One thing I have noticed is that people have a hard time dealing with self-image by themselves. As children, we are taught to hate ourselves. We are taught that we can always do better, we can always improve, and that if we didn’t improve in a certain amount of time or way we would fail, but in reality this is not true. Being taught these children and teens especially find it hard to love themselves and be happy with their bodies or appearance because they could possibly be “better.” Kevin Henkes wrote a book called “Chrysanthemum.” I used to read this book in the library while I was in elementary. However,  I didn’t take in the true meaning of the book until I was older. This was a children’s picture book, but I never understood the true meaning behind the story until I started thinking about all this loneliness and how to cure it. When we are alone our thoughts get louder, and those judgmental voices in our head can start screaming, but with other’s help, we can start to see the beauty in ourselves.  In this book a little mouse, a perfect little mouse was named Chrysanthemum. In the book, at first she loves her name, but later on in the book, people begin to make fun of her. Her classmates say that her name is too long and that she it didn't fit on her name tag. This made the little mouse feel sad. Her parents helped her regain her confidence as well as her teacher. In the end, Chrysanthemum realizes that her name is perfect and that she loves her name. There are two main things we can take out of this text. One being the individual side of the book. Chrysanthemum is very unique in her own way. She learns throughout the book to not care what others think and to love herself for who she is. This is important because the judgment we receive from others can affect our opinion, but if we can push passed that on our own we will be able to have more confidence and self-love.  The problem in the book is that Chrysanthemum needs help from her parents and teacher to push passed the judgment. With people telling her to keep going and to stay herself she was able to push past the bullying and find who she truly was. People can make the biggest difference in our lives if we let them help and let them in. 

However, some people are better alone. They work harder and are able to think more clear mindedly if they are alone, but you do not stay alone to think. Many people stay alone because they are scared of losing people, or do not want to meet new people. I heard a quote by Mihaly Csikszentmihalyi that said, “The best moments usually occur when a person’s body or mind is stretched to its limits in a voluntary effort to accomplish something difficult and worthwhile. Optimal experience is thus something that we make happen.” If you can push your own mind, and stretch your own body to your limits that’s great, but research has been done that proves if we have others around us we can stretch further and accomplish more. Mark A. Smith performed an experiment on rats to prove just this. The experiment was done to prove drug addiction could be cured through connections and almost a peer pressure by others.  The experiment was to give a rat drugged water. Water with cocaine in it. I know you’re not addicted to drugs, but just hear me out.  Instead of giving the rat just one water with the cocaine, they gave it water without and water with cocaine. The rat immediately picked the drugged water, craving the drug more than water itself. They tried two different types of socialization with these drug-addicted rats. When they put them with other drug-addicted rats the rats would still go for the drugs, but when they put the addicted rats with more "naive" rats, they were able to socialize the whole experiment without using the drug. This experiment shows us many views of individual strength and strength with others. When we have others in our lives they can help us, or hurt us. It’s hard to open up to people and want to make connections when there are those “drug-addicted rats” out there, but there is also “naive rats” out there. Those people who will help you meet your goals and get over your obstacles. There is always pros and cons when being with other people, but I hope you will be able to meet someone you want to be with. A woman in New York named Louise Signore at age 107 said that she lived so long because she never got married. She believed that the stress of a committed relationship didn’t affect her and also she drank many a diet coke. And there will always be these other opinions although science has proven otherwise. Even just remembering a time you were with someone and how happy you were, that convinces me immediately that life can be better when we have someone to be together with. 

It’s a lot of information to take in, but my ending request is to reach out, and to let people touch you. If it’s through social networks and apps where you talk to people that’s just one way to socialize with those around us, but personally, I recommend socializing in person. Get to know those around you better, and allow yourself to make friends and acquaintances. Life’s scary and there will always be people out there to hurt us, but that doesn’t mean the good people who will help our lives aren’t out there. If you hadn’t met your spouse you wouldn’t have your children. If you didn’t meet and talk to the people in your workplace your job would be a living hell. Sporting team wouldn’t exist if people didn’t communicate and love one another! Let those around you help build your confidence and self-image up. Let those around you assist you in meeting your goals and climbing over your obstacles. Communicate to live a longer healthier life. No one wants to fall into chronic loneliness, depression, or have suicidal thoughts. No one wants to feel angry at the world, so find the joy in others. Allow other people to be the way you see the world differently and appreciate more of what’s around you. Commitment can be scary, but you don’t have to commit just yet. Just make time. Make time in your busy life to be able to meet people and keep relationships going. Learn to use that time you have with other people in a positive and productive way. And never forget to love yourself. Of course, having other people around will help you see how amazing and wonderful you are, but self-love, knowing that you are the only you will make you truly happy when you do have those days when no one is there to lift you up.

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Opinion Series

To the Lone wolves:

What makes being alone so much better than being with others? Maybe it’s the way you can process your thoughts, or the noise control you have. Maybe it’s the fact that you don’t have to deal with anybody else crap, but I’m here to help you see what good can come from being with others. I’m here to show you that you can be yourself, and accomplish your goals, but that being with people may help you accomplish those goals sooner, and can make the experience much more enjoyable and productive in any manner.  I used to live off a quote from Mihaly Csikszentmihalyi. Every day before I would go into dance my team would have to quote this together and says, “The best moments usually occur when a person’s body or mind is stretched to its limits in a voluntary effort to accomplish something difficult and worthwhile. Optimal experience is thus something that we make happen.” You are so independent and strong. You push yourself and that amazes me, but I believe we can only push ourselves so far. We hit a point where we think we have become the person we want, but what I’ve learned from this quote and from being on the team that I was on is that others can push me further. Those around me can push me to try harder, and honestly, peer pressure if a real thing and it will affect you. You will push yourself more if you have people around you. Mark Smith did an experiment on rats. He drugged them, and no, I am not comparing you to a drugged rat, but hear me out. Rats who were alone with cocaine always stayed on cocaine, but when the rats had others in their cage who weren't addicted to the cocaine they were able to stay away from the drug for the whole experiment. People not only push us in the right direction, but they invite us to do better and to be better. We can play off examples of others, and try to act or do what the people we like do. Without other people, there would be no drive to continue with our goals and dreams. There's one last thing I'd like to tell you before I leave you alone again, and that's loneliness. I watched a video on Youtube the other day by Kurzgesagt. This video was on the effects of loneliness on the human body. The video talked about how you age quicker, Alzheimers grows faster, and your immune system weakens when you're alone. When you're alone you become more defensive and can see danger hostilities everywhere. You could see your friend and immediately think that you were in danger. It doesn't matter if you CAN be social, or if you HAVE a lot of friends on social media. The fact of the matter is that we live in what is supposed to be the MOST "connective time" for this generation. A time where we can see what everyone is doing anywhere, but the personal connections we make with people every day are the connections that draw us out of loneliness, and bring us to our normal selves. I want you to feel happy, motivated, and like you belong. So if you have to be alone that's fine, but I really do suggest that you make new friends, and be as social as ever for your own personal benefit. 

To the CEO at Sodalicious: 

A company of soda, and customer service. You may think that you run the place, but the fact of the matter is that Sodalicious could not run without the regional managers, managers, shift leads, or even mixologists. Not only can it not run without us, the employees, but your employees must work well together to get the job done and be in good hands. The drama and fighting that goes on between coworkers is not good for your shops because employees aren’t going to be able to provide the best service for the customers if the employees are worried about who’s in the right and who’s in the wrong for how many pumps to put in a soda! Emily Moore wrote a paper called “How to Look Out For Yourself While Still Being a Team Player” and she talks all about this situation. Her main point was on Collaboration. She says, "collaboration well done can build a company vs. collaboration that is broken can eventually lead to a company breaking down." If we don't all have the same goal, and we aren't listening to the same person this company will fail. You must make sure these employees, these managers, your regional managers, and you all have the same goal! Meetings with managers and employees make those two groups on the same level of knowledge, but to fully have a company goal is what will create progress. There are individuals in each shop who work harder than the other employees and they aren't getting recognized for what they do. This causes disagreements and arguments in a shop. This is a reason why rewards for hard work well in companies like yours. One thing that can help your employees learn to work harder is to understand, “‘pull your own weight,’ and the young oarsman does just that when he finds out that the boat goes better when he does.” The Boys in the Boat, by Daniel James Brown, has this quote. When your employees really work and do their specific job in a company correctly they learn that the company will function better when they function. Just like a boat will go in the wrong direction when people row incorrectly, a company will decline if the employees do not know what way to row. Quality directions and goals being set into play will help your company build customer ratings as efficiency increases in your shops. The same thing would happen in the health care field. Cynthia Armstrong the author of "Nursing and Healthcare partnership building for sustained Team Results" says that." Without a clear view of what role a person plays the necessity for each person is not met. When we have certain roles that are clear and know that is when progress is made, and yet each individual can contribute and feel included. Without teams companies could not function but, different perspectives are valued and encouraged." Your employees need to feel needed, and sometimes just showing up for a shift is not enough. Implementing specific roles so that your employees can feel like they are needed for their task will create a more efficient work environment and can improve your company. Overall if all your employees work together, but also have a goal for the team and themselves as individuals I can see your company rising.

To my siblings:

Life’s crazy, and so is our family, but as a family, we have to work together to get things done. Whether it’s cleaning the kitchen, or if it’s being financially stable, we all must help each other. We grew up together, and that made us strong. We were raised to be our own person, and that made us unique and ourselves! Of course, Mom always has a plan for us on who she wants us to be, but the reality of it all is that we have to choose who we want to be. I read something from a motivational speaker the other day and in his book "Master Your Time, Master Your Life" he says, "The time you spend with other people, and the way you spent it determines perhaps 85 percent of your happiness, success, or failure in life.” We'be spent basically our whole childhoods together! So what are we doing together to make that time to make that 85% of our chances the better portion? Together we must work to be a better unit, to support each other and push each other to reach our true potential. We were all placed in this family for a reason. In our childhood, there was the book "Chrysanthemum" by Kevin Henkes. The story was about a mouse named Chrysanthemum who had such a unique name. When people in her class made fun of her name her parents and teacher were able to help her rebuild her confidence. She was different, she had the name of a flower, but in the end, through other support, she learned to love herself. As a family, we need to have that support for each other. As a family we have to able to feel that we can trust each other, of course, we were taught to find help when it is needed, but to ask for advice one must trust the person. This is where reliance on each other plays into our family. When taking the advice asked or we have to accept the fact that the information we receive may not be what we want to hear. Fox News held a broadcast on "The Crisis of Individualism" which talked about today's society where it's hard to speak our minds and state our opinions without being ridiculed by others. "Last week, in Russian Georgia, a priest-led mob of 20000 attacked a small gay rights march, injuring at least 14 gay rights activists." Even if they thought they were being God's tools or thought it wouldn't affect anyone because it was in "God's name" doesn't mean it didn't have an effect. These people were having their march in peace to show what they believed, but because it was potentially "wrong in someone Else's mind." In the home, we must be able to speak our minds, and feel like we can do so freely. Together we can make our family bond stronger by listening, communicating, and managing our time with one another wisely. If we do these things we will be able to not only stay strong and connected personally, but we will be able to help each other grow.

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Tumblr Post #25 So this is my last required personal post on Tumblr. And I wanted to write about someone who's really special to me because I really like him and think he deserves the best in life. He honestly has changed my life for the better and I need to just post a little love! I'm shaking honestly I met this kid at the beginning of the semester and now the semester is ending and I'm dating him!! From this dinky meet up at Starbucks all the way in Midway to now where I hate going a day without seeing him. We've been through a lot together actually, and he means the world to me. Last night I told him I never want to lose him, and he told me he'd hold me to that and if that's true I can't see myself being happier. He makes me so happy. Like without him I don't think I'd be where I am right now, I think I would have given up on college, but then he decided to move here and register himself here and that's amazing! I get to go to school with my boyfriend, he lives right off of campus, and I mean does my family love him yet? No, but do I think they will? Once they give him a chance, of course!! He's so sweet, they just can't see past the fact that he's religiously different from them. He grew up different from us, and that's okay! He left to California this week, and I can't wait for him to come home because honestly he's amazing and I can't wait to see him again!

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Tumblr Repost #25

There’s always sad parts of life. We all have our struggles and own personal worries. We have our self-doubts and plenty of self-image problems, but this is my true hope. I hope that everyone will eventually just be able to find the parts of themselves that are broken and put them back together. Because you don’t always have someone there to do it for you all the time. I hope that those things that you let wreck your day you will find a cure, a fix, something that makes it all better. If I could be that fix I’d be there, but when you do find those dark parts and are able to start growing flowers when you find the right person that was able to help you, let me know. Because I think everyone needs fixing sometimes, and I think everyone should be able to try the cure. Through all the hard times stay strong, be able to keep the flowers you still have alive, even when the world is trying to crush your spirits. You are beautiful and you can do hard things. It doesn't mean they won't be hard, they will be, but it will be worth it in the end.

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Tumblr Post #24 If you're wondering what the heck is this picture, it's me and my Mom. Am I almost bigger than her? Yes, yes I am. But this is for her because lately, I kind of want to fight with her all the time, but Thanksgiving is coming up and Ima show how grateful I am for her on here. My Mom is not just the person who birthed me, and I know for a lot of kids that's the only person their mom is. But my mom is honestly my rock and stone. If I needed anything I know I could totally come to her! We fight a ton, but I think that's mainly because she just wants me to succeed and she gets worried about what I'm doing with my life. I love her so much and watching her raise 4 kids on her own and find time to do so many other things. I have no clue how she's kept up with all our wants and needs because she does and it's impressive. Watching her go through divorce and build herself back up inspired me to be strong and taught me that bad things happen and we can find a way through them. Without her love and support I honestly probably would have killed myself by now. So I'm grateful for her love and support always, I don't always deserve it, but here she is still giving it to me as a loving mom of a rebellious teenager.

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Tumblr Repost #24

YOOOOO 1. The Dolan Twins? Holy hell, HOTTIES!! But like I’m a teenage girl so of course I’m obsessed. But that’s not the point. We are actually here to talk about point 2. THE SPRAY TANNNN. DUN DUN DUN!!!! Spray tans are the literal worst thing ever! I mean they’re the best too because for all we know they don’t cause skin cancer like stupid tanning booths do! I mean when I tan in a machine with lights and shiz that thing gives me freckles like no other! But, if I just use spray tan, BOOM, no skin damage! The part that is the worst about spray tans is that they can be splotchy, streaky, they get on your clothes, they get on your boyfriend's clothes, and they stain any piece of white clothing that you wear ever! Like honestly spray tans are so dangerous! I dance for my life wants, and for dance, I have to be tan. So not only do I get called names like: carrot, Donald trump, Oompa Loompa, burnt chicken nugget, but I also have to deal with all the stares in the hallway and I know that I'm not the only dancer with one, but dang it sucks to be embarrassed, or just stared at. Anyways there's my take on the spray tan good luck all.

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Tumblr Post #23

Okay so... I’m probably gonna get hate on his post because the caption above literally already says “Ok boomer” but here we go! I’m sick and tired of adults trying to understand our generation. This sounds stupid but I feel like the newer generations are ones where we don’t care what the world thinks. People now do what they want without giving a care to the world. I also think my generation personally is way more accepting and willing to help any and everyone, but that might just be me. We also like to joke alot, and one of the jokes has been this ok, boomer thing. It was actually not a joke at first but my generation has taken it and made it a full joke. The thing is older people judge us the same way. That sign in the picture above for example, they don’t even know how to use words like yeet, but yet they make fun of us for them. So us being people who want to show not to mess with us I think decided to take this boomer thing a whole next level to show just how funny it really is to take something you don’t know about and put it into memes or billboards even. So yea that’s my rant for the day about this stuff. I hope ya’ll are doing fine, and that you have a good rest of your week. 

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Tumblr Repost #23

Guys!!! If you haven’t seen this movie series... oh my gosh!! IT’S SO CUTE. It’s definitely a rated R kind of film but let me tell ya, it’s worth it. The relationship between these two makes my heart scream for joy! It’s the cutest thing ever, although I won’t spoil it the ending to season one was the absolute worst and I wanted to kms. But... The new seasons are supposed to be coming out soon! At least season two that is. What surprised me was that it could almost be classified under murder mystery, but personally, I would classify it as a love story. It was so awkward, and so beautiful at the same time. I don’t know how they got the kids to act so amazingly, because I for sure could have never acted so awkward that I cringed like this. The relationship was also dangerous, such an "innocent" young man ruined by "wild" girl, but in reality, she was the sane one and he was crazy. The show had a runaway scene, and a murder scene, it also showed love and retrieval. I know some people aren't into a lot of swearing so if you're not don't watch this, but if you don't mind, it's an amazing series and I can't wait to see what happens next.

The End of the F***ing World

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Tumblr Repost #22

I felt this. I feel this really. This week is called “Show week” for me. At the end of the week, we have a show on Friday and Saturday showing all our dancing that we have prepared throughout the year, but I honestly feel like a ton of the preparation is put into just this one week. This one week of just nothing but dancing. I mean I have finals week coming up and everything else that needs to get finished, but right now I’m so damn tired from dancing all day I can’t get anything else done. In the morning I have to be in the studio dancing by 7am, and at night I have to be at the theatre by 5 to rehearse until 10. And then it all happens again the next day. Not only is it physically exhausting, but mentally I don’t know how I’m surviving. Sometimes I wanna jump off a bridge, but like mostly because I can’t get anything done for my other classes so it puts me in a position where I’m just there. Like I can’t do homework, but I can dance. I find it rather annoying. Anyways there’s my day, I’m ready to sleep like this guy. K bye. 

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Tumblr Post #22

So I think I made this picture for my mom actually... lol. I blocked her on my story once because I didn’t want her to see where I had been one night. Sorry, Mom if you ever find this I love you sm and you’re no longer blocked btw. But yea... So like it wasn’t just for my mom though. I really was a petty bish in highschool. Like if you even looked at my man I was ready to fight. If you commented on my clothes and it was negative, you better start praying you’re going to heaven cuz ima kill you. Like not only was I soo soo soo confident in highschool like I knew exactly who I was and who I wanted to be, but also, I hated people telling me their opinions. Because if I really gave a shit I would ask for your opinion. But yea, this would be the reason I ended high school with very little friends and the ones I was friends with were homies!!! So I mean life's good now and I like to think I’m slightly nicer than I used to be... but you can really never tell. Yea no, life's great now. But like I still block people occasionally because if one of my friends asked to hang but I'm with my boyf, I don't want her to see that on my story and be sad. I also have those creepers blocked because you can never be too careful when it comes to the creepers online! Any who that's my shpill. Byeee.

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Tumblr RePost #21

I hate myself for relating to this so much. NGL. I seriously have road rage okay? Just to give you an idea even if it's not my right of way and the lady is taking too long to make a right-hand turn or something I will start honking or screaming, and most definitely swearing. I also flip people off a lot, and that’s sad because I’m sure they aren’t trying to piss me off but in reality, I’m just really triggered and need them to STOP BEING THOTSSSSS. Lol. I hate myself. Speaking of hating myself and everything in my life... I'm at SLCC right now. And I've never been here, I'm just here to take a test, but I went to the star bucks down the road before I came back to take part 2 and I had the strangest experience. Not only did men catcall me while I walked into star bucks, but... I also had a dude like sit on my car and I had to ask him to get off so I could go back to the school. Like people here in Salt Lake are crazy XD. And I mean I don't mind most of the time, but like dude... get off my car or I WILL HIT YOU WITH IT.... :)

Witch who's trying to cut me off on the I-290: *rolls down window and casts a curse*

Me (ate vitamin gummies this morning): lmao nice try Baba Yaga

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Tumblr Post #21

So basically, I drew this little picture when I was in my senior year of an advanced health class. I learned all about the body in this class with Jan Hawk. She was actually the best teacher I've ever had and also she's the best aerobics coach I've ever had, but I love her anyway. This class is kind of the moments in Highschool that I realized I want to major in nursing. I wanted to dissect eyeballs every day! I wanted to sew chicken wings together all day. I wanted to do open-heart surgery on a cow. Ya know? You probably don't know, but I could feel it. I wanted to go through all of my anatomy courses again, and that's what I'm doing now. Except now it's 10x harder and I have to pay way more money to be in these classes. Seriously though, I was so excited and now I'm considering changing my major? Why do I hate college so much? What made me hate this place and what I'm doing. I used to love learning, I mean I still do. I love learning about the human body and how it works yet, I still fail every test, and all the quizzes. I'm failing at college, yet I was so excited to be here and learn more. Why am I a failure? I'm really not sure, but here I am... failing. Did I really want all the knowledge? Yes. But did I want the tests, stress, and pressure to pass my first college semester? No. I didn't know it would be so hard. I just hope my kids have someone to guide them along honestly because I feel lost lol.