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世界遺産 石見銀山 World Heritage Iwami Ginzan Silver Mine

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Lots of beautiful white noise tonight. Though I fear for the environment.

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Did a test tonight. Enjoy shitty proof of concept a sketches.

Testing editing and if this process I’ve came up with was effective. Of course I wanted to test “E” because it’s the part with no vocals, which makes it harder to sync to the audio. I don’t have any experience in music or audio so this is my best shot. Also I had this idea for a paper puppet show for the instrumental which is way too ambitious but here we are.

Oh, here are my thumbnails if interested.

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CapCut can extract the audio from a video?! I’m learning so much

I’ve really been playing with the idea of making an animatic in my head for over a month now. And by that I mean I doodled thumbnails at work and thought through the whole song….

But the real wall I hit in “can I actually make an animatic?” is audio. After thinking about it for days, and trying to search….

My phone has a screen recording option. With audio. Built in. Days of silent worrying and questioning for nothing. Oops.

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I’ve really been playing with the idea of making an animatic in my head for over a month now. And by that I mean I doodled thumbnails at work and thought through the whole song….

But the real wall I hit in “can I actually make an animatic?” is audio. After thinking about it for days, and trying to search….

My phone has a screen recording option. With audio. Built in. Days of silent worrying and questioning for nothing. Oops.

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I was talking about video game genres to my mother and that somehow turned into me explaining the concept of Uma Musume(I game I don’t play, I can’t do another gacha game), and when the sentence “it’s about horses that race each other but they’re girls” it just- broke her brain. Even explaining that it’s just basically track and field but the characters are inspired by real race horses wasn’t cutting it.

“What they race? On each other?” And immediately made about something sexual and I just- it’s track and field but horses. It’s like watching a horse race. And I’m now convinced that if you’re not exposed to enough abstraction or metaphors or creativity that any idea that isn’t “human lives human life with add-ons” is some sort of weird, backwards sex thing.

And Uma Musume is a strange concept! It is. I’ll admit it. But how does it go to watching a race to sex? The Olympics exist, NASCAR exists, track and field exists, horse racing exists. Why does it when you mix that idea with watching a human do it does sex get introduced? I just don’t really get it.

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I just had to have a conversation with… someone I live with about just generally being upset towards someone. It mostly just started with “You’re not allowed to be mad at me because (sob story)” which I had to explain that yes, yes I can.

As long as I’m not making it someone else’s problem or taking out aggression on anyone, I can just be upset about something and then get over it. It’s fine.

It was not fine their eyes. They thought that once an apology is given, you are not allowed to have any negative emotions regarding this issue. You just stop. What the fuck is this, people don’t function like that.

What sucks is that I was already over it at this point, but this “you’re not allowed to be mad” argument just made everything start over. And I just… this is why I’ve had afternoon shifts up to this point.

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Stumbling into your newly unpacked and assembled bedroom, you grasp at the edge of your bed on your way to turn on the bedside lamp. But an overly soft, slightly warm texture catches in your palm. Grasping more gently towards the center of your bed you catch the glimpse of yellow eyes and hear the low grumble of a purr.

She usually stays with your mother. Attached at the hip on the couch or bed. Your mother jokes to company that she had actually chose her in the end. And she screams for her in her absence. She mourns. But there has been no account of her mourning you, no crying out.

As the two of your faces become close, she nuzzles against your face in the darkness. Your glasses nudge off your nose and across your face. You hope she is still there, sitting on your blanket when you return.

And she is. Waiting. As you tuck yourself in for the night, the place under the blankets she’s sitting warms your feet. You pat the space to your side and she stretches her paw out twice. Maybe you frequently do the same. But she flops on her slide as your fingers slide through fur.

These moments are nice. But rare. Even though she was for you. Even though you two had locked eyes from the very start when you ventured through that shelter. She does not mourn your absence. Maybe it’s because when you two locked eyes that day, there was a silent, unconscious understanding that from that day you two would never truly be apart. So there was no reason to mourn something you’d always return to. Something you’d patiently wait for.

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all the sheep loves him

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summer rain 🍃✨

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Video collected. This is just so soothing.

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Birds might look a little bit stupid, actually.

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Someone call an ambulance

(via)

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Sketch/Planning Planning Pages:

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Just had to do a recorded interview for a job and I’m very happy I don’t have to drive over an hour to do it person, but having to record ~8+ stories of myself about processes, improvements, failures, etc. is exhausting when I’m forcing myself to talk out loud into the void. With only two attempts.

Might have to lie down for several hours.