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WHAT THE FUKCK??? thanks. pinterest. this is made even funnier by the fact that Hunter Page is there. ie hunter from disventure camp. AND THE PICTURE ISNT EVEN HUNTER FROM DISVENTURE CAMP????? actually its made even funnier by the fact that i literally have not interacted with That side of pinterest or searched up those things in a looong time. why am i being chased. im being hunted down. by anna REXIA 💜

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wait i got distracted by how pretty my eyes are here WHDGSJNGNG okay back to going insane

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😁😁😁 ???? sorry i don't wanna talk about this too much but i feel sickkk i never wanna feel like that again but also. i don't wanna feel like THIS either what if I just died

looking at my old pictures from when i was knee deep in my ed is not for the weak let me tell you that Ohhhhmy god

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looking at my old pictures from when i was knee deep in my ed is not for the weak let me tell you that Ohhhhmy god

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i don't know why i feel so pissed off all the time its DRIVING ME INSANE goddd im so irritable over the tiniest things ever and stuff that's happening irl and its so stupid i can't even explain why because its genuinely so dumb and IM SO FRUSTRATEDDD im trying to be normal but my head is fucking me over 😅😅😅😅 yayy lalalalla

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ripping my hair out and screaming and wailing idk there is definitely something wrong with me but i don't have time to unpack all of that

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sometimes it is just a man and his collection of unhealthy coping mechanisms against the world

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whatever cringe over xd lol

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im going insane i just UGHH!!! this is about my boyfriend but also not ALSO SEE THATS MY PROBLEMMM i can't call him my EX in my head its still just My Boyfriend and ughh... get over it... he's not yours anymore buddy >_< idk he hasn't fronted since we broke up so we haven't actually Spoken in days and its like bro come back but also i think. id have a hard time talking to him right now because it's not gonna be how it used to be Just Three Days Ago and i wouldn't be able to deal with that ! literally the night before we broke up we had a conversation that i would have never ever ever thought i'd have because of how much the subject matter rattled me to my bones due to ahem Past Incidents (regarding intimacy for context it was nothing bad at all. even though typing that made me shrivel up and die) but because it was Him i felt like hey this actually doesn't seem so terrible after all and goddd everything felt so right only for it to come crashing down on me because iiii can't have anything ever it seems... godddd. and it seems kinda juvenile for me to be going this insane because I Dont Have a Boyfriend anymore but i don't know he was just so like deeply ingrained into everything i did and all of my thoughts and i really thought that Hey. This Could Go Right For Once. and now it just feels like there's a big massive hole where my heart is and I've never felt this way before about anyone ive been with which sounds kinda bad but he was !!! special?? i guess??? he was mine and now he's not and i don't know what to do with myself. teeheehee . and also im not just feeling like this because of him its like Everyrhing going on Inside this Stupid ass Brain of mine but this was kinda the final nail in the coffin i think !!!! hey universe why can i never have anything

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afraid i can't HAIII ^_^ >_< :3 !! my way out of this one boys

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how boys feel after losing their passion for everything they used to be good at and not seeing a place for themselves in the world at all whether that be from tomorrow or years in the future and constantly waiting for something to happen so much so that they just become a walking husk or trapped in a purgatory of their own creation anyway chat is this relatable hahaha lol

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i would post more on my main blog but im not really feeling motivated for much right now teehee !!!!! im just. uughhhhhh

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my heart is like a claw machiiine its only function is to reach it can't hold onto anything no i can't hold onto anythiiiing😅😅😅😅😅😅😅😅😅 thanks claw machine by sloppy jane and phoebe bridgers for killing me

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anyway whatever we stay silly we stay silly and we stay WINNING . yay !

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been losing my balls actually for the last day or so UMMMughhhm... not to be all hashtag depressing >_< but i do Nawt have a boyfriend anymore and its soooo sillay but actually i do not know what to do w myself LMAO erm. Lalalala !? nothing bad happened actually liek itd just a matter of circumstance but ugh. what. its hard for me to articulate just how much he means to me but genuinely i had given soooo much of myself to him and that's REAL hard for me Because my brain HATES ME !!! and im scared of a lot of things but i was never scared with him but now I don't Have That anymore and im like huh OK guess we're back to putting literally all of my walls up yet Again . .... i cried like seven times yesterday and i couldn't sleep Or eat GET A GRIPPPP .. ! this is so. lalallala. yay! yippee! yay! yahoo! im going to DIE

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welcome to sinclairs side blog where idk . its just Meeee :33 yayyy .