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[shinyddeonghwa]

Ateez Masterlist

Seonghwa - fluff /f reader/etablished relationship/idol au

우리가 절대 하지 않는 말 -

Seonghwa finds himself a little troubled over his feelings for his girlfriend.

A night drinking with his member might do the trick.

Hongjoong - angst /f reader/flirt/idol au

쓰라린 이별 -

Not the right time, neither the right moment for both Hongjoong and y/n. A little talk is indeed needed after the concert.

[01:11am]-

missing him a little too much when he's camped in the studio

San - fluff /f reader/etablished relationship/idol au

내가 당신을 사랑하는 방식 -

Sometimes San needs to remind you how precious and lovable you are

Wooyoung - fluff /f reader/etablished relationship/idol au

같은 노래 -

While attending to Yeosang's wedding, the reader is asking herself about her relationship with Wooyoung. Maybe she's finally ready to take the next step.

Jongho - angst/f reader/etablished relationship/idol au

나의 첫 죽음이되어 줘 -

Sometimes things are meant to fall apart, and the love you give to each other isn't enough.

All members -

reaction to s/o seing/communicating with ghost

[shinyddeonghwa]

— 04:23

pairing — ex boyfriend! San x (f) reader.

genre — angst.

warnings & tags— this might break your heart a bit (read this slowly).

Ex-boyfriend San lost the ground under his feet when he saw you walking into the room. His mind went blank for a second before retrieving all his senses and coming to the real world. Your silhouette came closer and closer until you were right in front of him and he looked downwards in an attempt to reach your eye level “hey”, he spoke with a soft voice and even softer smile.

“hey”, you smiled back and he went in for a hug, without hesitation. The warmth that washed you felt like the warmth his favourite song gives you whenever you listen to it and you do listen to it, more often than you realize…the familiar aroma of his body mixed with the soft scent of his cologne filled your mind and you couldn’t help but notice that it’s the same cologne he used to wear back then too.

He parted and his hands stayed on your shoulders for a bit before pulling them close to his body fast, like the little angel on his right shoulder had told him “hey bro, she ain’t yours anymore…take them hands away from her”. His eyes travelled to your -still smiley- lips and then back on your eyes again “how have you been?”, he took a small step back.

“I’m good, time seems to fly too fast lately but regardless of that I’m good, how have you been Sannie?”, San’s heart skipped a beat at the nickname, remembering how you used to call him that when your cloy side made its appearance. Your lips would curl into a pout and your eyes would sparkle like all the stars in the universe had mass decided that your eyes are their new home before you told him the three words he needed the most to hear from you, the three words that made the hair down his spine rise and his heart beat faster ‘I love you’.

“I’m good too”, but he wasn’t.

“your hair looks pretty, it’s gotten longer”, he continued trying to keep the conversation going. He needed to hear your voice, he hadn’t in so long.

“yours too, you’ve dyed it! It’s purple-ish now”, you took a strand between your fingers, admiring the shiny colour.

“yeah”, he exhaled not sure if he should say it “your favourite colour”, but he did and his gaze fell on the floor.

“yours too”, you whispered back and your eyes met again and San…San felt like fireworks exploded inside him and like everything went back in time. Back to when you used to look at him and the love in your eyes blinded him, back to when you used to kiss his lips sweetly after a difficult day and hug him till the world didn’t seem so harsh anymore, back to when he dreamt of a future that included you in his life. And he still did, except now you weren’t.

“you’ve changed…a lot”, you said taking in his silhouette and breaking his train of thought.

“yeah, I’ve been…working out. The company required it” and saying that, he realized. He never, not once, thought of changing himself either on the inside or the outside just to show you that he’s moved on. He used to do that when he broke up with past girlfriends just to show them that he didn’t need them to be okay, but it wasn’t the same when it came to you. Because…he did need you to be okay and he did need you to be there, with him in every change he made on or in himself. He never doubted that he wasn’t okay without you, because he wasn’t.

“you look healthy though, I’m happy for you”, you caressed his arm and he didn’t flinch. He’s longed for the feeling of your skin on his and your lips on his and your body on his. He’s longed for the moments that were filled with pure love and those that were filled with giggles and even those in which anger got the best of you two, because it showed him that you still cared about each other.

He smiled and let his eyes fall heavy on you. You weren’t sure but you thought you saw a tear threatening to wet his cheek and let your hand cup it and your thumb wipe it away, like he had done for you multiple of times in the past. He smiled again and tilted his head to rest his face on your palm. He must’ve thought you were okay, but you weren’t.

[shinyddeonghwa]

More fic recs (also known as round 9)

Because the times are approachin’ that I become (fortunately or unfortunately) one year older, I thought I’d post yet another round of fic recommendations that I’ve made after months of probably reading enough fics to make a good post. 

As always, as I’ve done with previous fic rec posts, I’ll indicate which ones are racy/have smut/are smut with an asterisk so as to give everyone a heads up before reading. Oh, another thing that’s changed here is the fact that… these fic recs are not just Ateez anymore eep. If y’all follow me, you know why. 

If you like them, give the authors some love by reblogging it or telling them how much you like it because it means a lot! These fics are just.. *chef’s kiss* and have inspired me so much. Some of which I reread a lot before I go to bed.

ATEEZ 

Burnin’ Up (Yunho) (suggestive) - @primroseyunho 1:06 (San) - @petitemingi

7:29 p.m. (Wooyoung) - @kireiwoo

11:11 (OT8) - @yeochikin

This cute Mingi fluff - @barsformars This cute San fluff  7:17 p.m. (Yeosang)

* Dating Poly Woosan - @mingis-conspiracy-theories

Surface Tension (suggestive) - @hereisleo

Cute moments with boyfriend!ATEEZ - @dulceateez

* ATEEZ Honeymoon Headcanons - @deathbyjoong 

Demon Yeosang (suggestive) - @moonchildsaurora

Heart of Depth (Yeosang) - @closer-stars

Their Crush Calls them Their Boyfriend When Someone Hits on Them - @silv3rswirls

Sneckles (San) - @snailosaur

TXT

Just Go With It (Yeonjun) - @igyus

12:14 p.m. (Yeonjun) - @yeoforce

Open Arms (Yeonjun) - @j00x1s

* Playboy (Yeonjun) - @choideluxe

Sunkissed (Yeonjun) (suggestive) - @barsformars

Soulmates, I guess (Yeonjun) - @juunnies

* Bad boy! Yeonjun - @kpopmakesmeweep

[shinyddeonghwa]

[ 1:50 ]

The two of you just ended the call with your friends. You had to take matters into your own hands as you watched him struggle to stay awake on call. He still wanted to watch your friends play while you catch up on life with them. Alas, after a long day of schedules, his body badly needed rest. 

Just as you switched off your laptop, your phone rings. 

It’s San. 

“I thought you were going to sleep.” You chide him as you walk to bed. He on the other hand was already in bed. 

Even if he was sleepy, he moves fast. 

“I wanted to fall asleep with you.” He confesses, half his face covered by his blanket already. His eyes blink slowly, as he tries to stay awake with you. Feeling a little bad, you move quickly to your bed. 

It’s been a routine for the two of you to sleep like this especially when he has schedules. You thought he would skip on it from how he’s been awake for nearly 24 hours. 

“You know it’s okay to sleep first sometimes right?”

“I know but I don’t want to sleep without you.” 

“I’ll see you in your dreams, love.” 

[shinyddeonghwa]

how old are you and what is ur pen name?

I'm 23 :)

do you mean pet name ?

if so, one i like to use for others would either be honey or love

and for me, i'd say, i like to be called sweetheart or sunshine

[shinyddeonghwa]

Ateez Masterlist

Seonghwa - fluff /f reader/etablished relationship/idol au

우리가 절대 하지 않는 말 -

Seonghwa finds himself a little troubled over his feelings for his girlfriend.

A night drinking with his member might do the trick.

Hongjoong - angst /f reader/flirt/idol au

쓰라린 이별 -

Not the right time, neither the right moment for both Hongjoong and y/n. A little talk is indeed needed after the concert.

[01:11am]-

missing him a little too much when he's camped in the studio

San - fluff /f reader/etablished relationship/idol au

내가 당신을 사랑하는 방식 -

Sometimes San needs to remind you how precious and lovable you are

Wooyoung - fluff /f reader/etablished relationship/idol au

같은 노래 -

While attending to Yeosang's wedding, the reader is asking herself about her relationship with Wooyoung. Maybe she's finally ready to take the next step.

Jongho - angst/f reader/etablished relationship/idol au

나의 첫 죽음이되어 줘 -

Sometimes things are meant to fall apart, and the love you give to each other isn't enough.

All members -

reaction to s/o seing/communicating with ghost

[shinyddeonghwa]

[01:11am] HongJoong

I wanted to tell you that I miss you. With no subtext. No guilt. No anger. No expectation that you'll fix it.

This is where we are meant to be. Me apart from you, my hands a little empty, and my heart a little sad.

I just miss you. I wanted you to know.

[shinyddeonghwa]

쓰라린 이별

Warning : Brief mention of anxious thought if you squint rl hard / none other

Member : Hongjoong

As Ateez was screaming their last goodbyes to the Texan Atiny who came to the concert, you took your chance to leave before everyone and join the little place where the vip where about to get their hitouch. The light in the arena came back and now the crowd was moving toward the exit, except a few fans still on their cloud 9, realizing for some of what has been happening and other crying their heart out after the show they just lived.

You were thrilled you've been able to attempt the concert. It was not the first time you saw them, but still the ambiance was incredible and always got you living your best night.

Wooyoung and their manager were the ones helping you get the tickets for tonight. Since you've been for a part time their translator during their past world tour, you've had grown more or less close with every members, to a point we're you even developed more feeling for a certain someone.

Nonetheless, you were glad no one knew about you as you went to the backstage door, passing by few Atiny, who were looking at you silently curious since you didn't have a staff hoodie on you. One of the security worker escorted you to the green room were you sat waiting for the guys who were now doing the hitouch.

As the time went by, you found yourself daydreaming about him. Again. How these past few months have been full of though for Hongjoong, the times you spent on the phone, talking nonsense early in the aftermath. Every little time you grew closer to each other, and every times, you got attached more and more.

Most of your mutual friends knew. Your eyes were pouring love for him as much as his smile said it all about you. You were even questioning if you both knew of it but inconciously played it off. It was weird after all. Hongjoong has never been the type to settle down with someone, moreover, he's lifestyle made it difficult for him to enjoy a real relationship.

And so were you. You've had your amount of heartbreak, and you were done with remaining exes in your contact list.

The door opened and the room was instantly filled with laughter and loud voices, mostly coming from the boys but also some of their stylist and managers.

- Y/n !! Oh lord it's been so long ! I'm glad to see you again, how you doing girl ?!

San was the first to get you in his embrace, a small hug and a huge grin on his face. You gladly answered, happy to reunite with them after sometime.

You cheered for everyone, getting hugs here and there, even a peck from Wooyoung who you were pretty comfortable with.

Then, your heart skipped a beat. He was not looking at you, holding his phone in his hands, he passed by you to drop his mic pack on the coffee table and finally turned to see you. A little grin formed on his face, the shyness coming from both of you, making it all a bit awkward.

Everything seemed as if it had stopped. You were no more paying attention to the rest of the guys nor anyone. Only him. Only both of you.

- hi...

You let out a bit squeaky. You could already feel the heat coming to your cheeks, cursing at yourself for looking like a teenage girl with her first crush.

He smiled but did not answered, instead he simply opened his arms for you to join in.

- I've missed you 달.

You hummed. His nickname send shivers down your spine. If you could, you would've run to him and spend the rest of your life in his arms. Warm embrace, smell of cologne and little bit of sweat.

The night went by, you were all super thrilled and excited to have spent this time together. The guys were enjoying the fact hey were able to recall with friends after their concert. It was always comforting for them and so was it for you. As you were walking back to the exit accompanied by everyone, you felt the melancholia coming back to you. As if you already knew how this night was going to end, same as the others.

Homgjoong was beside you, silently walking, head low. In his though, he didn't realised it was time for goodbyes. He lifted his head as you taped on his shoulder a small smile on your face.

- So... I, Hm, well I was wondering, when we'll next meet ?

You asked quite anxious, trituring your fingers. Sometimes you were wondering if he really felt the same as you. His actions somehow showed that yes he cared for you, but maybe not as much as you did. Maybe his heart was not telling him as yours does, to call you every night. Maybe he wasn't thinking of you right when he wakes up. Maybe you were just friends still after all.

Maybe hugging you, calling you names and stuff was just his way of loving his friends.

You could see he was chewing up his lips while hanging his head low and putting his hand in his pockets. You though that it was right when your heart would die. You were about to confess, or at list, drop a little more hint than usual, tired of playing games only your mind knew about.

As you opened your mouth to talk, he interrupted.

- you know I mean it right ? I do love you y/n, but I just can't. I mean...we can't, just... This.

He was gesturing with his hands motioning the gap between you two. You felt the lamp in your throat forming and your eyes starting to burn from the tears building up. You felt stupid, even tho you knew it all, you've had your high hopes, and he continued.

- This.. All, this is going to consume us, and you know it babe. You know it too well. It might be fun and fluff for the first weeks, months of you will, but then ? You know we're going to end this by hating on each other.

Deep down you knew he was right. As much as you hoped for things to go well, as much as you would try your best, this wasn't the right time for both. But what could you do. He was being an angel trying to protect you at all cost and not getting another unwanted heartbreak.

You lowered your head, unable to look at him. You were afraid things would fall apart after that.

Hongjoong kissed you on the forehead and held you tight for a split second, before leaving.

[ @closer-stars ]

[shinyddeonghwa]

우리가 절대 하지 않는 말

Warning : none

Member : ensemble but Seonghwa focus

-...and she was like, hell no Yeosang, I'm not going to dive in this weird ass green water just to get your goggles back"

The guys were laughing at Yeosang's stories, except one. Seonghwa was not having it. At all. Not that he didn't like those nights, actually he loved them, it was always nice to meet up with the guys once in a while even tho they lived together, but to take time only for the eight of them and appreciate a little beer or so around the table.

What had have Seonghwa so caught up, is that that despite being the oldest one, he was still the only one enable to bark out random stories about his girlfriend's adventures as the boys were usually doing.

Seonghwa was known for being a quiet one, even from his member, he sometimes liked to have his own privatcy and was keeping things for himself. But this time, what has him shut down is that he didn't know. He was not sure yet. Does he truly loved her ? Enough to show her off completely and share to everyone who was willing to listen to his all so funny stories ?

Yunho had sensed his elder was struggling so he gently pushed himself toward him on the couch and elbowed him a little, with a cute grin.

- what is it Hyung? You haven't said anything. You okay?

Seonghwa turned his head to face him and as his usual self, just shrugged it off with a little eye smile saying he was okay.

As the two kept looking at each other to send who was going to talk back first, the room became quieter, and the boys all sensed something was going off with their friend so Jongho decided to ask about it.

- Ah, Hyung, are you really okay? You look so off recently. Did something happened?

Seonghwa could feel the atmosphere of the room had changed and all eyes were on him, which is quite a thing he was not so fan of but what could he say against his little brothers worried gaze.

He decided to let it out. After all, if he couldn't trust them, who could he go to? So he readjust himself on the couch and, after sipping his last trait of Soju, took a deep breath.

- how do you know you're in love? Like how am I supposed to know if I really want to settle with her ?

His question was surprising everyone. Rare were the times when Seonghwa confessed, moreover about his love story so obviously everyone got worried about you two.

- wait, did something happened with Y/n? Are you guys done or something?

This time it was Mingi who tried to unvestigate but Seonghwa was quick to tell him off.

- No, no. Not at all. It's just...ah, I don't know you guys keep talking about your girls like all the time and saying how much you love them and I don't know... I feel like, you know. I've never tell mine I loved her, because I don't know.

Seonghwa plotted himself a little more on the couch, a hand to cover his face as he was already regretting it.

While the guys cooed at him, more or less reassured that nothing too bad had happened, San who was sitting on the other side of the couch, decided to take the turn. After all, he's the one who got the longest into the relationship and everyone had out bet on him he'll get married the first. He got up to get another glass of cheongju and stayed standing so that he could face everyone.

- When you can't experience anything without wishing the other person was there to see it too. That's how I knew I love her. I mean, sometimes you meet someone and it's just so clear that on some level you two belong together whether you're lovers or not, you just work it and the more time goes by, the more you wish this person was with you on every single day. Not because you miss it, but because this one makes all the random little things looking like new adventures and amazing stories to tell.

San left everyone in silence, thinking about their own stories. He let out a little chuckle and patted his elder on the shoulder before leaving the room.

- hey its okay Hyung, you don't have to worry much. I'm sure she understands but don't waste too much time on missing to tell her you love her.

Seonghwa sat on his bed, all these talks got him thinking way too much and the alcohol wasn't helping. He kicked his slippers off and got under the covers, only wearing his short. The phone in his hands, he was still hesitant should he call her or not. Everything that the guys have told him tonight made him even more confused. He knew he loved her, for sure, but did he really felt it the way his bandmate did? The alcohol took over him and gave him a little bit of courage to dial her number. The tone of her voicemail ring and he let out a breath, a little bit reassured he didn't have to tell her now. Still, he decided to leave a message.

- Jagiya... Hey it's me. Ugh... Well I guess you might be sleeping right?.. Hm that's weird but, I just you know. I wanted to tell this for a while now. I.. Ugh I really miss you, and I.. I love you. Yes I love you. Like really, I'm sorry I didn't tell you earlier, but yeah... I was afraid somehow. But, yeah... I love you, goodnight.

And with a last shrugg he left to sleep, revieled he has somehow figured his feelings for her.

[ @closer-stars ]

[shinyddeonghwa]

(211009) eternal sunshine :: seonghwa

[shinyddeonghwa]

Ateez Masterlist

Seonghwa - fluff /f reader/etablished relationship/idol au

우리가 절대 하지 않는 말 -

Seonghwa finds himself a little troubled over his feelings for his girlfriend.

A night drinking with his member might do the trick.

Hongjoong - angst /f reader/flirt/idol au

쓰라린 이별 -

Not the right time, neither the right moment for both Hongjoong and y/n. A little talk is indeed needed after the concert.

[01:11am]-

missing him a little too much when he's camped in the studio

San - fluff /f reader/etablished relationship/idol au

내가 당신을 사랑하는 방식 -

Sometimes San needs to remind you how precious and lovable you are

Wooyoung - fluff /f reader/etablished relationship/idol au

같은 노래 -

While attending to Yeosang's wedding, the reader is asking herself about her relationship with Wooyoung. Maybe she's finally ready to take the next step.

Jongho - angst/f reader/etablished relationship/idol au

나의 첫 죽음이되어 줘 -

Sometimes things are meant to fall apart, and the love you give to each other isn't enough.

All members -

reaction to s/o seing/communicating with ghost

[shinyddeonghwa]

everyone needs to know this

[shinyddeonghwa]

everyone needs to know this

[shinyddeonghwa]

yuri knew, that couldn’t have gone through anything she went through, without the eight boys on her side. they were her strength when she felt weak, they brought the sun on her gloomiest days, they were always there for her. they helped her be the person she is today. and for that, yuri is forever greatful.

tags: @chaerincore @softieteez @atzaria @ateezjuliet @srkuv @shinyddeonghwa @m00niesk7 @filmyoongs

[shinyddeonghwa]

yunho: if cinderella was a cooking servant would she be called mozzarella instead?

juliet: i think you should keep it down

yunho: why?

seonghwa, in the distance: [aggressively slams laundry machine door]

[shinyddeonghwa]

cozy environments from ponyo and wolf children

[shinyddeonghwa]

listening to music isn’t enough anymore i need to eat it