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synth fellas I am selling my octatrak mk2 black version for 1200 on here, that's like 300 off or something, come n get it if u want it!! it's mint it's mint!! I am selling it cause I wanna fund some other things u know how it goes I want a lota expensive equipment.

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I should look at this everytime I’m suicidal

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I should look at this everytime I’m suicidal

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DANCE WITH ME YOU LI-IA-IAR ♡

OVERBLOT ASHI??? ANYBODY??? the ANGST that this baby can store!!! SHEESH!!!!!!! <3 I only have one post dedicated to her and liar dance lyric analysis (the post is kinda outdated in gen) BUT…… I also have an overblot monologue as a treat 🫶 I wanted to better explain her angst and so!!! BABAM!!! enjoy

ASHI’S MONOLOGUE:

Sometimes I wonder why I ended up here.

A place named “Twisted Wonderland”, and at a school named “Night Raven College”.

At first, I figured that I was the odd one out— Y’know, the Ramshackle prefect and everything. The magicless girl at the magical all boys school? Nuts, ain’t it?

I’m known for a lot of things. Things that are different from the others. The fact that I stand out is part of the Ashi charm, something I’m known for.

But… Over time I found myself sorta feeling in place here.

Because as much as I try to believe it, I can’t safely say that I’m better than anyone else here.

I’m a fake. I make conversation and lots of friends, but for what? A backup in case something goes wrong? A sense of protection for my reputation? In what case are any of those friendships something I truly want? In what case are any of these strings just a tool instead of a thread made of my real feelings?

Behind this, I’m no different from any other student here. Even through my individuality, my cheerfulness, my endearing oddness… I’m still a horrible person. Using people to get what I want, toying with people and their feelings in order to gain power and gain a spot the top. All to become untouchable. It’s screwed. It’s not right.

My insides are ugly. The truth of me is something I want to keep tucked away deeply, because I don’t want people to see this part of me. A brash, annoying, selfish version of me, everything people hate to see. I don’t want this side of me to be seen because people will run away— people I don’t care much about, sures, but people I love, too. I don’t want to drive them away. So I keep quiet and give them a shallow show.

I give them a source of entertainment that’s controlled by the real me, every calculated movement translating into a marionette-like response. The only show I allow you to see is one that’s so carefully crafted by the chaotic clown backstage. The one that is shunned away from the light, the strings being the only hint of the puppet’s phony existence to the foolish audience.

But suddenly, I feel as if being here has started to let this side of me come crawling back into the spotlight.

It scares me.

It scares me to be vulnerable, let all of my faults lay out on the table like playing cards. To take the risk without the protection, to gamble everything I’ve built up away just like that. But you…

You.

You make me feel safe. You make me feel as if I don’t need to hide anything. I can give you the key to my heart and you would have no malicious intent. You wouldn’t cut out the parts people don’t like. You would enjoy the performance in full, every bit of it.

You make me believe that I’m nothing special, and yet something so valuable at the same time.

It’s silly. You’re silly. And yet that’s something that’s helped me.

It’s helped me realize that that truly is just how people are.

We aren’t villains. We aren’t antagonists. We aren’t monsters.

We are nothing but people, with faults and feelings that should be valued.

I am more than just a jester, a sake of entertainment.

I’m a person who is entirely worthy of love. All of me.

It reminds me that I must’ve came here for a reason.

Because this is where I belong.

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Rbing everytime I wanna kms

I should look at this everytime I’m suicidal

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(english butler voice) Will you be making an attempt on your life this evening, sir?

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I GOT 5TH YAYYYYYYYY :DDDDDD

final stats DREW KILLED 4 PEOPLE OH MY LORD

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Shawty wasn’t there to give me water 😿😿😈😿

im kinda rooting for sapph here but could you have picked anyone else but v please.. poor sage too..

DREW PLEASE YOURE OUT FOR SOME MUCH BLOOD so sorry lux. you got pretty far this time though!!

lux the only one who died today...

I FUCKIN KNEW EDIE WAS ABOUT TO SNAP. GOOD LORD. i was thinking drew was gonna win

i guess killing so many people would lead to something like this eventually

I REALLY HOPE NOTHING BAD HAPPENS TO THEM THIS HAS BEEN SUPER CUTE FOR XENDIE

i really did want sapph to win.. you made it so far though!! proud of you

GUYS WHAT THE FUCK. ???? XEN AND EDIE HAVE BEEN SO CUTE THIS ENTIRE GAME. WHAT A SICK BETRAYAL.

i.. think its just v and edie now.. my worst nightmare.. my beloved wife and my beloved child...

ARE YOU KIDDING ME??

AGAIN?!

pay respects to @lowcallyfruity @otomedad @shinysparklesapphires @lilac-multifandom-multishipper and @edith-is-a-cat

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Oh he’s 2D?…..baritone….turn around😌😌😌

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OMG CAT MEETS SWEETS REF I LOVE THAT SONG

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XYR JUST BATTING THEIR EYELASHES ITS SO SILLY

I FINALLY DREW THEM AGAIN

💌: @h2llish @xen-blank @lowcallyfruity (if you wanna be tagged in future art, lmk!)

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When I use proper grammer it’s so funny I sound so robotic

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WHAT DOES THAT MEAN 😿

I FINALLY DREW THEM AGAIN

💌: @h2llish @xen-blank @lowcallyfruity (if you wanna be tagged in future art, lmk!)

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Btw xe literally jumped on him he didn’t pick her up or anything he just caugh xem

I FINALLY DREW THEM AGAIN

💌: @h2llish @xen-blank @lowcallyfruity (if you wanna be tagged in future art, lmk!)

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Guys I only have two tickets to baritoneland, so you’ll have to fight over them :(

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I should look at this everytime I’m suicidal

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This with Luis and Navi