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I FUCKING HATE BEING POOR

we use to be upper middle class but then MY MOM FUCKING DIVORCED SO SHE COULD MARRY FUCKING JESUS

LIKE I GET IT, I HATE DAD TOO BUT NOW WE HAVE LITERALLY NO MONEY BECAUSE GUESS WHAT? SHE LOST HER JOB AND DAD IS THE ONE WITH ALL THE MONEY

WE DONT HAVE FOOD AND SHE WASNT ABLE TO PAY THE GOD DAMN FUCKING BILL

MY GREEDY ASS LITTLE SISTER STILL THINKS SHE CAN SPEND OUR PARENTS MONEY ON WHATEVER THE FUCK SHE WANTS WITHOUT CONSEQUENCES LIKE NO YOU CANT HAVE NEW CLOTHES EVERYDAY AND 6 LABUBUS WE ARE DRINKING EXPIRED MILK FOR BREAKFAST.

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my own blood is probably my third biggest turn on

ik theres a kink for watching ppl sh but is there one for yk doing it yourself?

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Humans are really ! I've never really seen myself as a human tbh

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hey so i relapsed

yeppp

i wish i could just give all my fucking problems to someone who wants them cuz i sure as hell fucking dont

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if i disappear randomly just know im probably logged into another account to help with productivity and recovery

ill be back when i relapse xP

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if i make a jirai kei themed notion dashboard template would anyone use it ?

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IM DELETING ALL SOCIAL MEDIA EXCEPT TUMBLR AND INSTAGRAM AND DELETING ALL MY GAMES AND ALL DISTRACTIONS AND I WILL FOCUS ALL MY TIME AND ENERGY ON RECOVERY AND BETTERING MYSELF SO I CAN BE PREPARED FOR SCHOOL AND HAVE A BRIGHT FUTURE!!

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I feel like i NEED to be famous or else I have no worth but im also wayy too paranoid and talentless to even really put myself out there so i end up just hating myself after every unproductive and disappointing day

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do you ever just like live in constant fear because everything seems to be a trauma trigger or is that just me?

um anyways my headphones aren’t loud enough and my walls are not thick enough and my door needs to be glued shut.

the only place I can feel 100% comfortable is in my bedroom in the house completely alone and online in my little discord server of silly friends.

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i love my friends sososososososo much all my friends gets kissies

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im so fucking sensitive im crying over having an iphone what is wrong with me😭😭😭😭

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hj chat um high af rn i just brike up wifh my boyfriend i man seiously crashing out

omgggg im so fucked up

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I feel personal offense when someone doesn't like a piece of media that I connect to on a very deep level or that I just enjoy a lot. Like I understand people have their own opinions and thats totally okay but it hurts my heart

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★・⸝⸝﹒₊˚﹕ about me !

˙ ‎♡‧₊˚ hihi you can call me Shiyu 白悠 ! ︶ ˙ ‎☆‧₊˚ I prefer shi/hir pronouns but im not pushy w it ! ˙ ‎♡‧₊˚ im a minor so please dont be weird with me… ︶ ˙ ‎☆‧₊˚ im boygirl + xenogenderfluid and queercian ! ˙ ‎♡‧₊˚ im russian and japanese . ︶ ˙ ☆‧₊˚ im alterhuman! Im an angel, kitty, puppy, and more !

꒰꒰ ✦⋆ ˚ ༝ i have ADHD, age dysphoria, Ana, BDD, BPD, C-PTSD, DD, DID, GAD, HPD, narcolepsy, paranoia, and stockholm . ── these all affect me greatly . ₊˚.༄

꒰ also an addict for whatever you can think of to be honest ( ´ ▽ ` ) 🚬🔪🍃🍬💊 ꒱

 ꒰꒰ 𝜗𝜚﹕likes : music, fashion, art, animals, psychology, my strange little hyperfixations, nonfiction books, my bf<333 and more !!

 ꒰꒰ 𝜗𝜚﹕fandoms : hsr, enstars, alien stage, nso, bsd, vnc, sk8, and more that i can not for the life of me remember…

⨳┇im a landmine/jirai so I will be posting possibly triggering content regarding drvg use, shed, and trauma .

︶꒷꒦ I’m using this blog as my main blog but all interacts come from another acc because paranoia . ₊˚.༄

 ᵎᵎ 𓂃 I don’t have a DNI, anyone can interact ! But I will block if I’m uncomfortable !  ◞⁺⊹