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Updated Resume

Shayla Messersmith PO BOX 662 Orangevale CA 95662 Shaylamessersmith@yahoo.com (916) 289-0050 Objective To grow and build with a company long term, develop interpersonal relationships with the employees and guests around me and, to excel and learn as much as I can so I can grow within the company. Experience

{10/2019}- {current)Roseville CA (All regency bullshit info)

Dishwasher- Scrape and sort dishes before loading them into the dish washing machine for cleaning. Monitor dish machine water temperature during sanitary wash cycle. Unload dish washing machine and put away utensils and dishes at proper storage units. Sweep and scrub kitchen floors to ensure a clean and tidy work are. Bag kitchen trash and discard in a dumpster at intervals. Maintain adequate levels of detergents and other cleaning supplies. Assist the preparation of food in the kitchen and serving food as needed. 

[04/2018] – [11/2018] Roseville, CA 1-855-596-9379 Appraisal Management |Customer Service Representative | Lenders Valuation Services Assisted appraisers, lenders, realtors, loan officers, contractors, guests and personnel in location of appropriate address’s and how to navigate the company's website as members. Routinely checked in with appraisers to accept new orders. Communicated and checked in with appraisers to assure their turn over time was efficient, quick and got processed in a timely manner. Disclosed with office personnel about clients private information and transferred them over to the correct department. Great communication skills and how to diffuse conflict using calm and proficient forms of verbal aptitude. [02/2011] - [04-2018] Roseville, CA 916-246-6119 Retirment Living | Dining Room Supervisor | Sierra Regency Platinum Living Trained new employees on the dinning floor, managed dinning staff, initiated the best communication for conflict resolution and problem solving. Managed routine cleaning duties for the staff to maintain appropriate kitchen and dining room sanitation. Kept up the proper aesthetic in the dining room, kitchen and bus room. Assisted staff members if they needed help in a stressful situation. Assessed time management to increase efficiency in service and closing time. Built relationships with customers, residents and employees alike. Maintained a lively, happy-go-lucky, teamwork disposition. 2 Education Casa Roble High School/GED • Folsom Lake College 2012-2015 English/Psych Major Communication/Leadership ROTC, have lead group team building group exercises after work including work games to get to know staff members, problem solving/resolving conflict games. Group meetings and talking about the workplace and how to make it better. Using positive and negative affirmations to lead staff members in the right direction. Having an upbeat, honest, professional and open communication with staff members at all times. Reviewed with team members about rules and regulations in the workplace. References ..........

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The Suck 2/13/2020

 11:15am  It’s Thursday morning and beautiful. Although, I woke up with my mind frame in a void. 

A few things have transpired this week that are depleting me in mental energy and in a way I want to be self defeating and say, “Fuck it all”, but im trying not too as well.

I have 3 main things on my list:

Jason and his mental imbalance

Nate and his primal male bullshit when he is drinking (we can’t be friends)

Work and how they always seem to fuck me over and keep me in a hole.

This fucking little triad is sucking away my positive character and either making me depressed or really bitchy because I want the issues to stop and go away.

There are so many faucets of each of those issues that tear me down. I miss the good thoughts and feelings that used to come with Jason or Nate, but now it seems its become a nuisance and I want one or the other to stop talking or stop drinking or stop crying or stop playing fucking victim.

Work, I don’t think too harshly. It’s just leaves a putrid distaste in my mouth.

Also, fuck Jason for always challenging me when it comes to words .i.e.”putrid” Like he’s trying to edge me with annoyance and then call it playful or joking? Are you kidding me? Either you’re blind of your own actions and just plain stupid to not hear the dumb shit that comes out of your mouth or you’re sincerely manipulative because you know it gets a rise out of people and you play it off as a victim. I’m not sure of either....but both to me are not characters I want to tolerate. 

 Don’t say you’re smart, but in turn, act so dumb.

Nate is a whole other snowball. Bi polar almost with you’re whole,”Oh, I care about you”.antics then tell me...”you’re haunting me”. This boy cannot make up his mind. And don’t get me started on his drinking...BIG fuck boi bro status. As if he’s trying to attend to the other male egos in the background as he say’s to me on the phone, “I want to have sex with you, I know you want it too...don’t lie”.

Fuck right off Nate. I haven’t wanted to be sexual with you in years. Pull you’re head out of your ass. The lack of charm men have is so off putting. The more they do it, the more I look at you like another number. Try harder douche bags.

I have more to say, but this vent will do. I would like to divulge deeper into what the fuck has been happening as of late so I don’t go into a dark place.

If I can make sense of all the triggers I can pull myself out. 

-peace

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I think about all the things I can solve when I drink.....

While doing so...

It shouts....CLEAN!

This is OCD DEVELOPMENT

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Random stories people tell me are irrelevant and boring as fuck. Like, the don't give a fuck about the Chinese and how they take away your credit score because you don't t know Kung Fu.

....ok and what do I do with that piece of information?

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And Let me introduce myself

I’m here because I’m sick and tired of my friends and other people stalking me reading my other personal blog to find out what is happening to me and what dirt they can dish out on me. I’m here because I feel uncomfortable sharing with the world my real thoughts....

because lets be real. I’m no saint. I’ve got some less than acceptable thoughts in the social world. Granted, I also think my thoughts are quite normal and mesh with the rest of the real world, but it’s not often that people can be self aware enough to dish out their own disturbing thoughts or insidious devices.  

I guess I can’t either because I have created this secret Tumblr, just to use as an outlet to bash, cry and complain about what the fuck is happening inside me.

Another part of me is hoping, that in the long run, after a few hundred posts, they’ll find this and enjoy the drama. Because what is life for me, but a little bit of drama and drool.

 -ShojoShay