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YOURS, JUST THE WORD AND I WILL BE THERE.

1. letters to felice, frank kafka | 2. strangers, ethel cain | 3. overture (1992), helen frankenthaler | 4. desperation sits heavy on my tongue, a.m | 5. against the loveless world: a novel, susan abulhawa | 6. a green thought in a green scale (1981), helen frankenthaler | 7. wife, mitski | 8. ruth 1:16 | 9. lush spring (1975), helen frankenthaler | 10. no exit, jean-paul sartre

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YOURS, JUST THE WORD AND I WILL BE THERE.

1. letters to felice, frank kafka | 2. strangers, ethel cain | 3. overture (1992), helen frankenthaler | 4. desperation sits heavy on my tongue, a.m | 5. against the loveless world: a novel, susan abulhawa | 6. a green thought in a green scale (1981), helen frankenthaler | 7. wife, mitski | 8. ruth 1:16 | 9. lush spring (1975), helen frankenthaler | 10. no exit, jean-paul sartre

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I am devoured with restlessness and fever. I cannot be quiet. I am wildly dreaming of escape, voyages, love. Wildly craving love. What can I do?

Anaïs Nin in a diary entry dated June 13 1943, featured in Mirages: The Unexpurgated Diary of Anaïs Nin, 1939-1947

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girls my age are getting engaged and having kids meanwhile i need 3 midday naps and 8 hrs of alone time per day

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thinking about how when you experience a lot of shame in your formative years (indirectly, directly, as abuse or just as an extant part of your environment) it becomes really difficult to be perceived by other people in general. the mere concept of someone watching me do anything, whether it's a totally normal activity or something unfamiliar of embarrassing, whether I'm working in an excel spreadsheet or being horny on main, it just makes my skin crawl and my brain turn to static because I cannot convince myself that it's okay to be seen and experienced. because to exist is to be ashamed and embarrassed of myself, whether I'm failing at something or not, because my instinctive reaction to anyone commenting on ANYTHING I'm doing is to crawl into a hole and die. it's such a bizarre and dehumanizing feeling to just not be able to exist without constantly thinking about how you are being Perceived. ceaseless watcher give me a god damn break.

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Sylvia Plath

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Corridor 2

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The little things? The little moments? They aren’t little.

- Jon Kabat-Zinn

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oh to be the person in someone’s heart shaped locket

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btw if u have ever been nice to me even in passing and even in the most inconsequential ways, i think of it often and carry it in my heart. love is everywhere u look

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Touched bottom again. Decided to liberate myself. We are never trapped unless we choose to be.

Anaïs Nin, from The Diary of Anais Nin, vol. IV: 1944-1947

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Alfonsina Storni, from Mask & Clover: Poems "The Siren"

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Andrea Gibson, Lord of the Butterflies

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Clementine von Radics, Mouthful of Forevers

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I just want to be fine

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i can not believe we are 6 months in to 2024.its not even a joke anymore. life is but a blip. someone put me down like a dog