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( 𝑒𝑣𝑎𝑛 𝑚𝑜𝑐𝑘, 𝑡𝑤𝑒𝑛𝑡𝑦 𝑜𝑛𝑒, 𝑔𝑒𝑛𝑑𝑒𝑟𝑞𝑢𝑒𝑒𝑟 ) hey, was that 𝐒𝐈𝐑𝐈𝐔𝐒 𝐁𝐋𝐀𝐂𝐊 passing by ? so much has happened recently; i haven’t seen the 𝐏𝐔𝐑𝐄𝐁𝐋𝐎𝐎𝐃 in forever, but i’d recognize 𝐇𝐈𝐌 / 𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐌 anywhere. rumor has it the 𝐓𝐇𝐈𝐑𝐃 year is studying to be a 𝐓𝐑𝐀𝐍𝐒𝐋𝐀𝐓𝐎𝐑. they always reminded me of 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐀𝐑𝐂𝐇𝐄𝐑 𝐁𝐘 𝐓𝐀𝐘𝐋𝐎𝐑 𝐒𝐖𝐈𝐅𝐓. i’ve also heard they’ve been recruited by 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐎𝐑𝐃𝐄𝐑 𝐎𝐅 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐏𝐇𝐎𝐄𝐍𝐈𝐗. but despite all that i think they’re still 𝐆𝐑𝐄𝐆𝐀𝐑𝐈𝐎𝐔𝐒, 𝐑𝐄𝐒𝐈𝐋𝐈𝐄𝐍𝐓 & 𝐐𝐔𝐈𝐂𝐊-𝐖𝐈𝐓𝐓𝐄𝐃 and 𝐂𝐎𝐍𝐓𝐑𝐀𝐑𝐘, 𝐈𝐌𝐏𝐄𝐓𝐔𝐎𝐔𝐒 & 𝐀𝐑𝐑𝐎𝐆𝐀𝐍𝐓. and the 𝐆𝐑𝐘𝐅𝐅𝐈𝐍𝐃𝐎𝐑 alum still reminds me of 𝑢𝑛𝑐𝑎𝑙𝑙𝑜𝑢𝑠𝑒𝑑 𝘩𝑎𝑛𝑑𝑠 𝑡𝘩𝑎𝑡 𝑛𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟 𝑞𝑢𝑖𝑡𝑒 𝑟𝑒𝑠𝑡 𝑠𝑡𝑖𝑙𝑙; 𝑟𝑒𝑑𝑟𝑎𝑤𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑡𝑎𝑟𝑜𝑡 𝑐𝑎𝑟𝑑𝑠 𝑢𝑛𝑡𝑖𝑙 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑝𝑢𝑙𝑙 𝑡𝘩𝑒 𝑜𝑛𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑤𝑎𝑛𝑡; 𝑠𝑡𝑖𝑙𝑙 𝑙𝑒𝑎𝑟𝑛𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑛𝑜𝑡 𝑡𝑜 𝑓𝑙𝑖𝑛𝑐𝘩 𝑎𝑡 𝑠𝑜𝑓𝑡𝑛𝑒𝑠𝑠; 𝑎 𝑚𝑎𝑔𝑝𝑖𝑒’𝑠 𝑒𝑦𝑒; 𝑎 𝑝𝑎𝑡𝑐𝘩𝑤𝑜𝑟𝑘 𝑜𝑓 𝑐𝑙𝑢𝑚𝑠𝑦 𝑠𝑡𝑖𝑐𝑘-𝑎𝑛𝑑-𝑝𝑜𝑘𝑒 𝑡𝑎𝑡𝑡𝑜𝑜𝑠; 𝑙𝑎𝑢𝑔𝘩𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑖𝑛𝑡𝑜 𝑡𝘩𝑒 𝑠𝑖𝑙𝑒𝑛𝑐𝑒 𝑜𝑓 𝑎 𝑓𝑢𝑛𝑒𝑟𝑎𝑙, 𝑑𝑟𝑢𝑛𝑘𝑒𝑛 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑖𝑟𝑟𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑒𝑛𝑡; 𝑎𝑑𝑑𝑖𝑐𝑡𝑒𝑑 𝑡𝑜 𝑐𝑖𝑔𝑎𝑟𝑒𝑡𝑡𝑒𝑠 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑡𝑜 𝑐𝘩𝑎𝑛𝑔𝑒; 𝑡𝘩𝑒 𝑙𝑜𝑢𝑑𝑒𝑠𝑡 𝑣𝑜𝑖𝑐𝑒 𝑖𝑛 𝑡𝘩𝑒 𝑟𝑜𝑜𝑚, 𝑒𝑎𝑠𝑖𝑙𝑦 𝑠𝑙𝑖𝑝𝑝𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑏𝑒𝑡𝑤𝑒𝑒𝑛 𝑙𝑎𝑛𝑔𝑢𝑎𝑔𝑒𝑠 𝑚𝑖𝑑-𝑐𝑜𝑛𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑠𝑎𝑡𝑖𝑜𝑛; 𝑡𝘩𝑒 𝑎𝑑𝑟𝑒𝑛𝑎𝑙𝑖𝑛𝑒 𝑜𝑓 𝑚𝑎𝑘𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑠𝑜𝑚𝑒𝑜𝑛𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝑙𝑎𝑢𝑔𝘩; 𝑡𝘩𝑒 𝑤𝑎𝑟𝑚𝑡𝘩 𝑜𝑓 𝑎𝑛 𝑎𝑟𝑚 𝑠𝑙𝑢𝑛𝑔 𝑜𝑣𝑒𝑟 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑠𝘩𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑𝑒𝑟𝑠 𝑎𝑔𝑎𝑖𝑛𝑠𝑡 𝑡𝘩𝑒 𝑛𝑖𝑔𝘩𝑡’𝑠 𝑐𝘩𝑖𝑙𝑙; 𝑡𝘩𝑒 𝑙𝑎𝑠𝑡 𝑜𝑛𝑒 𝑎𝑤𝑎𝑘𝑒 𝑎𝑓𝑡𝑒𝑟 𝑡𝘩𝑒 𝑝𝑎𝑟𝑡𝑦, 𝑠𝑖𝑡𝑡𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑜𝑛 𝑡𝘩𝑒 𝑟𝑜𝑜𝑓, 𝑠𝑡𝑎𝑟𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑑𝑜𝑤𝑛 𝑡𝘩𝑒 𝑠𝑡𝑎𝑟𝑠; 𝑗𝑜𝑦 𝑎𝑠 𝑎𝑛 𝑎𝑐𝑡 𝑜𝑓 𝑟𝑒𝑏𝑒𝑙𝑙𝑖𝑜𝑛. well, then, i guess some things never change.

okay so here’s what you need to understand about sirius:

for the first 11 years of their life, their identity was defined by their family. being the heir to a pureblood dynasty came with a lot of really confining expectations ! they were moulded to be the perfect pureblood son. though obviously, that didn’t last lol

and then he went to hogwarts, and he met james, and then he met the rest of the marauders, and he didn’t want to be that perfect pureblood son anymore

so now he shaped his identity around being the opposite of that. all his decisions were to spite his family and show how little he cared about them. he was like, lowkey super self destructive as an act of rebellion. getting into fights and smoking cigarettes and getting a motorcycle and shit. completely did not really think much about their future because some part of them didn’t expect to get there ?

they really clung to this identity cause it felt like. wavering would come off as doubt or weakness to his family and their ilk ? so they laughed off any mistakes, and made almost a performance about how confident and happy they were with their life

don’t get me wrong – for 90% of the time, they were genuinely confident and happy. he and the marauders were basically on top of the world. they were the family sirius had always wanted but had never had. they were popular, and charming, and treated rules as mere recommendations. they were only fifteen and became animaguses, and created a comprehensive magical map of hogwarts. how do you get better than that ??

it didn’t really matter if they were impulsive or short-sighted, because most of the time, if something went wrong, there were no real consequences. they could just brush it off and continue blithely through life

a major wake up call for sirius though was when he told snape to go to the whomping willow on a full moon, and almost got snape killed. obviously this was incredibly upsetting for remus and the rest of the marauders, and at first sirius was unapologetic and refused to admit he’d done anything wrong

but it really shook them to have their friends this upset with them, and it kinda pulled them out of their own ass ? tbh at that point the marauders were probably the only ones who could make sirius think like, oh shit maybe i was in the wrong

so, yk, it’s been slow going since then but they’re basically trying to figure out their identity when it isn’t defined by their family ( whether to please or to spite them )

when he moved in with james after sixth year ended, and got out of his house that also helped a lot i think, to be out of that toxic environment

so right now he’s slowly learning that self-preservation and thriving is actually more of a rebellion than self destruction is, and he’s learning to admit his mistakes and heal his inner child and all that boring mature stuff. but don’t worry, he still does a lot of fun dumb shit !

at hogwarts college, he was on track to become an auror, but he kinda became disillusioned with it bc he doesn’t really trust the ministry. partially cause he’s fiercely loyal to dumbledore and believes the lies about him originated from someone in the ministry. he also thinks hogwarts college is totally bs because he wants to be involved and fight in the war and stuff

they ended up being on track to become a translator instead, because they took a mermish class as an elective and found out they actually have a knack for different languages

which shouldn’t really be a surprise really lmao given how much they love to talk

it’s also just been super cool cause he’s gotten to learn about different species like trolls and mermaids and goblins and their cultures

some other stuff:

used to wear his hair long but changes it up a lot with magic – the current look is a close-cropped pink buzzcut

has their own house in london that he bought with money from their uncle alphard

got a used tattoo machine and has been learning to tattoo on themself

trying to quit smoking but he’s not very good at it

got a vasectomy a couple years ago lol #childfree

that’s all i can think of for now lol