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“you sank into my soul and found things no one was supposed to see”

— e.e.

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Rupi Kaur, Milk and Honey

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“and then one day, I decided you weren’t worthy of my tears at 3 a.m anymore”

— moving on

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I never realized what a big deal that was. How amazing it is to find someone who wants to hear about all the things that go on in your head.

Nina LaCour, Hold Still

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“there was life way before you happened and there will be life after you happen.”

— moving on. finally.

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There’s always going to be someone else. Someone that’s better for you. I told that to my ex when he was crying for me to take him back, I tell that to my friends when they’re going through breakups, and I tell that to myself whenever I need to hear it-which is often and always the hardest. But we always, always move on and love again and those low points we thought we’d never get past, well they always become distant memories. Because the amazing thing about us as humans is we’re capable of loving more than one person in our lifetime and our feelings are capable of change. So even if you really did love someone with all your heart, it doesn’t mean you can’t use all your heart again to love someone else.

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Since New Year’s Day I feel like I really need to change some things. Yes, I still dream about you. Yes, I still think about you. Yes, I still kinda want you back. But something’s different. It’s like I finally realized that this won’t happen, that I won’t get you back. And I’m not fighting anymore. I’m no longer fighting against myself. I think I’m ready to move on.

I think I am finally clean

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My Goodbye -rochelle bretton 06.06.2018

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He wasn’t a bad person. But if he isn’t bad I can’t hate him. And if I can’t hate him, I can’t move on.

I’d rather hate myself than hate him.

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you’ll find another

they said

but I don’t want another

I thought 

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There wasn’t yelling. There wasn’t fighting. There wasn’t “fuck you” and “I never loved you” and “I’m not going to miss you.”

There were two tired hearts. Still beating, but no longer in sync. Four eyes that never seemed to meet at the same time. Twenty fingers that no longer entwined. Two pairs of lips that hadn’t met in months.

So we said goodbye. We said we’d keep in touch. We said “good luck,” and we meant it. And it hit me:

I spent so long being mad at you, that I forgot you were human, too. That we were both flawed. That I loved you, I loved you, I loved you.

I still do.

“i’m sorry for not realizing you were doing your best”