sillygloworm

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i feel so disgustingly complex

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reblog if people r allowed to send u asks as if theyre ur friend. wanna tell me how ur day went? do it!!! ask me for advice? sure! ask a personal question? go right on ahead!

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actually, maladaptive daydreaming isnt even really daydreams its just dissociation

i realise that what i thought was so quirky about me as a little kid (though i still had negative effects from it even then) was actually just severe dissociation disguised as “dreaming!”

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This music video goes hard

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Yall will never understand the intricate ways in which I weave worlds together in my mind so all my fandoms will collide

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My dreams are weird and getting too realistic that now my daydreams are more intense and my dreams are mixing into my reality. Constantly confusing me. I’m going insane.

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I really need to study but I can't stop thinking about things that don't exist...

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sometimes you just get nine new paras in one day. sometimes you write a 3pg rant abt the bare minimum you know abt them. sometimes you do absolutely zero homework. it is what it is

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Can’t talk rn bro, daydreaming.

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"it's all in your head" and be fucking grateful for that...if they ever escape...there will be hell to pay

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i think a lot, i don't think i can stop ever thinking. daydreaming is esspecially a major part of it, i daydream for most of my day. i daydream about celebrities, about a normal life where nothing is wrong, my ocs world where everything is wrong. i think of very complex, written out, and visual scenarios. being in my head constantly thinking about anything and everything has it's pros and cons.

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When you wake up from such an incredible dream or daydream, to a reality you just can't fit in. This fucks with me.

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"it's all in your head" correct! unfortunately I am also in there

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probably the biggest thing keeping me from recovery is the fear of what my life would look like if i quit. i don't think i'm fit to live in the real world. i don't know how to be alone without md. my anxiety and fears of rejection & abandonment are unbearable. i never learned how to socialize. i fear i 'd have too much time on my hands and that i'd spend it being depressed and lonely beyond endurance. i fear i'll never feel as loved and happy as i do in my daydreams. the thought of living in reality and giving myself a chance at life is horrifying.

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im in love with someone who doesn’t exist

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