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Legit me the other night

Where is the lie

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chasing the white rabbit,

never seeming to catch it

until it finally lead to a hole at the bade of a giant tree

looking curiously down to catch that darn rabbit

without warning, our hand slips and we start to fall

Sometimes, its graceful, Peaceful even.

Other times, we find ourselves thrown against roots, rocks and pianos

until we are so far bruised that the pain starts to feel normal, dare I even say it feels good

With a thud, we land on rough soil

our heads pounding, our bodies aching

We look up... there is nothing, nothing but darkness. 

Frantically looking around... we are lost

yet... yet this place seems familiar, like we have been here before.

There was no stopping that fall, or the pain along the way.

Now... Now we try and find our way back... Back to ourselves before...

Before we fell down the Rabbit hole

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One Night Stand Turned Into Forever

annalisa stood with her bag over her shoulder, waiting patiently. Her stomach was filled with butterflies and tying in knots. She only done this one other time. She looked down at her feet hearing a car pulled up made her stomach drop. He got out of the car in tight jeans and a plain black shirt. He was much more handsome in person then his picture on his profile made it seem like.  

"Annalisa?" He asked , his voice sent shivers down her spine. She rubbed her arm feeling goosebumps down her arms.  

"yes, Warren, right?" She asked softly and he nodded. He took her up in his arms and hugged her... tightly. 'god he smells so good' she thought to herself as she hugged him back. He let her go but held her hand as he walked over to the door of his truck. The door creecked as it sung open and he helped her up into her sit. His hand was on her back which caused her to tremble with excitement. Once she was fully in her seat he hurried over to his side and got in then started to drive. She had fore warned him that she was shy. So the ride on the way to his house the music was the only thing that was heard.  

Once there she looked around and smiled "you live on a lake?" She asked excitedly.

He laughed "yes well my cousin does Im staying with them for a while" he walked over and helped her out and took her hand leading her into the house.  

All the nerves she felt went away when he kissed her hard. She moaned against his lips pressing against him. Soon all their clothes were off and they were on the leather couch. They were touching and kissing parts of each other that neither had gotten attention to in a while. She whimpered when suddenly his hands and lips were no longer on her skin. But instead he was between her legs his hard cock throbbing against her thigh.  

"are you ready baby?" He whispered looking at her. She nodded quickly and he thrusted into her over and over harder and harder. They moved together as one. Soon she was screaming out his name and he was grunting hers as he pulled out and came all over her bare stomach. They came together and came down together. They laid there breathing hard and content. His body was so sweaty but she didn’t care.  he groaned and rolled off of her smiling.  

"wanna go fishing?" He asked softly. She laughed and nodded getting up. They both put their clothes on and walked out to the dock so he could go fishing. They talked about everything now. About how he possible might be having a child. He also talked about how he would be with the mother of his child if he could because they were best friends. But she was with someone else and he didn’t like him much. While standing there listening to him she felt like she didn’t want to stand in the way if his best friend wanted to be with him later. After a while they walked back into the house to sit and cuddle for a bit. Before she knew it they were kissing agian and soon she was on her hands and knees on the couch. he was behind her thrusting into her agian then stopped for a bit kissed her and ran out to his truck and grabbed something. she laid breathing hard biting her lip. a smile spread across her face when he return, lube in hand. He got back on his knees behind her. he quickly lubed up her ass and his cock before carefully sliding into her ass which had never been fucked before. she gasped out his name moving back agianst him as their sweatly bodies slammed together over and over agian. He reached around her and began rubbing her clit faster and faster until another orgasm rocked through her body. her body tensed causing her ass to squeeze around his throbing cock in return caused him to cum hard in her ass. once they came down they dressed again and fell asleep on the couch until he had to take her to work. once there she stepped out of the truck and waved goodbye making the choose then to stay out of his way when it came to his best friend.

A few years later Annalisa was thinking about Warren it was very out of the blue but she wanted to know how he was. she called her friend Xael up and conviced her to drive him to his house hopinng he still lived there or they would know him. once they pulled in she got out of the car and headed to the front door and knocked on it. "lissy nobody seems to be home come on!" Xael yelled from her car, Annalisa shook her head "imma check around the back" she headed around and was greeted by and older man. "hello can i help you?" he asked looking puzzled "hi i was just looking for Warren. is he here?" she asked softly "im anna" the older mans eyes widden "anna? as in Annalisa?" she nodded "yeah i uh havent seen him in a while and.." the guy cut her off "soo youre the girl who ruined him" "ruined him?" "yeah because you disappered. he fell for ya you know?" "no i didnt know... i didnt mean to i thought he would be happier with mary" she said softly talking about Warrens best friend "him and mary never got together and turns out the baby wasnt even his" he said looking at annalisa who looked very shocked. "i..i didnt know. i came to say sorry i didnt mean to hurt him. when will he be home?" "he should be home soo if you would like to wait" "i would thank you" she said and then walked back to her friends car and told her everything "listen lissy im sure you remember him differently but he doesnt look like your type" Xael pointed out "he is. his profile picture doesnt do him justice" she said softly. she heard the same similar truck coming down the road and her heart began to race. she watched as he pulled in not noticing her yet. he jumpped out of his truck. the years had been kind to him. he walked right past her still lost ini his own thoughts being pulled out of them hearing someone call his name She called his name once but he didnt look back the second time he stop dead in his tracks and turned seeing her. she smiled that sweet smile of his and his knee buckled. he shook his head and then turned back around heading to his boat and headed out onto the lake. the older man who she had learned was his uncle yelled after him then got in his and headed after him. Annalisa was almost in tears when he ran away from her. she no longer had the strength to stay standing. she sunk to the ground and bite her lip. she knew she messed up. hours had past and neither of them return. Xael helped her up and was gonna help her into the car when he pulled in, in a different truck halling a old camper behind it. two dogs jumoed out of the cab and one ran over to her. he was one the phone with an animal settler. he sound very angery and concerned. he thanked her for catching the one dog before his uncle took them both inside and warren headed into the camper. Xael nodded toward it and annalisa followed him. both inside he shut a door between him and her and she sighed "look im so sorry. i thought i was doing what was right. you seemed so in love with her and i didnt want to stand in the way of that. i just wanted to tell you im sorry for disappering. i understand if you dont want to talk to me" he laided his head agianst the door "its not that i dont want to  talk to youu. its the seeing you thing thats getting to me" "wha..?" he slammed open the door walked over to the door to leave the camper and shut it. "i cant see you. it hurts. youre smile, the way you brush your hair behind you ear. the way you refused help at work.." "you saw me at work?" he nodded "before you left i would drive by to try and talk to you but i couldnt, i was so hurt. damn it Lissy dont you realize i fell in love with you that day and seeing you does two things to me" he looked at her in a very serious manner "makes my heart feel like its gonna pound out of my chest and..." he grabbed her hand and placed it on his raging hard on that was concelled by the tight jeans. she squeezed gently causing him to groan and shake his head "dont..." he whispered but before he knew it she was down on her knees, his jeans were around his ankles and his cock was out of his boxers and down her throat. she sucked on him like it was her job. she stared up at him as her eyes began to water. he pulled her up, bent her over the counter in the camper, pulled down her soaked panties and began to fuck her hard. it didnt take long before they were both yelling each others name and cumming hard. he pulled her agianst him and whispered "stay with me" "always" she whispered back and kissed him

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Heart

Please take my heart

Make it into a work of art

A work of art that is beautifully flawed

Please take my heart

Make it into a work of art

A work of art that is spitefully awed

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I live within dreams

Sinister and cold

With no room to grow

A lifeless void

With nothing to show

No secrets told

Dreams are like Darkness and Snow

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Sunshine

Baby you are my sunshine

Over all you will come above

Baby our hearts entwine

You fill my heart with so much love

from your tiny toes to your mighty cries

from your cute little nose to your big blue eyes

Baby you are my sunshine

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To the one who taught me

We are the same

I have followed in your foot steps 

You taught me how to walk

I wanted to be the same

never noticing the mis-steps

You taught me how to talk

People always said we look alike

You always followed it with “poor child”

People have not seen how much we are alike

and even that is putting it mild

I followed in your foot steps

I spent my while life learning from you

Who would have thought

the greatest lesson you would have taught

Would have been one I would have to learn on my own

How to heal from a broken heart, how to walk away on my own

I followed in your foot steps

a single mom

doing what needs to be done for her own

ignoring the pain to push though for those little eyes

ignoring the pain for those sweet little giggles

ignoring the pain for that little person 

that will one day follow in my foot steps

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chapter one

 As the wind howled outside like a wolf in the night, Lillian sat in the library lost in her piles of books.  She had great works from Edgar Allen Poe, to Robert Frost, along with marvelous books like Moby Dick and Weathering Heights. As she focused on reading everything else faded into the background. She found herself in the home of a young man and the elderly man he was taking care of. She could hear the thudding of the old man’s heart in the floorboards, along side the young man. She was so immersed in the story she did not hear her sister running up to her.

“Lilly… come… mother needs you…” her younger sister said out of breath. Mary was taller than Lillian, very beautiful and 2 years younger. She had blonde hair that flowed down around her shoulders, blue eyes and a perfect figure. Lillian was not so lucky. She had long brown hair that was always curly, eyes that changed colors so nobody knew their true color, she was about 5’0 and a bit on the heavier side and was cursed to wear eyeglasses for the rest of her life.

Lilly looked up from her book and sighed “what is it now?” she asked as Mary grabbed her hand and pulled Lilly to her feet.

“Mother said it is very important.. That it can not wait” Mary rushed as she pulled her out of the family library and into the family room where their mother sat pacing. Scarlet was a mirror image of Mary about 20 years older though. She turned quickly to her girls and grabbed Lilly’s hand.

“He wants to see you… You need to go see him” her mother’s voice sounded hopeful and pleading as if she knew what Lilly would say next.

“No mother I will not… there is nothing for me there… no love, no joy” she said her eyes looking up at her mother.

“Marriage has nothing to do with love Lillian you will do this for this family and that is” Scarlet’s voice sounded harsh and hurtful “we can not survive unless you do… you father…”

“My father is a useless man who left the mother of his three children alone to pay off his debt by promising a horrible man my hand” Lilly interrupted her angrily. Lilly refused to be with a man so cold and heartless. All three women in the room jumped as the doorbell rang and a crackle of thunder shook the house. Mary quickly answered the door and a man stepped inside. He was a tall man about a foot and a half taller than Lilly. He glanced up from his feet and looked dead at Lilly and started toward them, in three long strides he was right in front of them.

“I had requested to see you Lillian” he said not taking his eyes from hers, his gaze was cold and painful to hold for more than a few seconds.

“I know. I wasn’t planning on coming to see you” she said with her head held high as she looked up at him

He glanced at her mother and sister “if you will excuse us” he said and they quickly nodded and left the room leaving Lilly alone with him. She watched as the door closed and she swallowed hard. She was now left in a room by herself with Damon, the man her father promised her hand to. She gulped being so closed to him. She had heard horrible things about him, rumors she believed but never asked him about. Damon could tell by her eyes she was scared of him.

He gently took her face in his hands and whispered “i will not hurt you Lilly, i could never hurt something so beautiful” his voice sounded in her ears, she shook her head not believing him.

“How could someone say that, when they willing know they can take away someone’s happiness within seconds” she whispered looking down at her hands. She moved away from him and sighed. He looked at her puzzled at to what she was getting at.

He shook his head and said “let me prove it to you” his voice was soft and caring.

Lillian nodded “one chance Damon” she whispered somehow she believed he wanted a chance to prove himself. It could not hurt to give him that chance.

CHAPTER TWO

         It had been two months since Damon walked into her house that night. She was still very nerves about spending time with him. The first few weeks she refused to be alone with him. He gladly agreed to prove to her that he would not hurt her. Slowly he showed her a side of him nobody got to see very much and slowly she let a wall or two done. By the third week, they went on dates by themselves. He invited her to his home and on trips all over the country. He was always such a gentleman. Two different rooms, knocking before entering the room and giving her space when she needed it.         One night she was sitting in his library, reading like she did in her free time. She was lost in a book he had asked her to read. The claiming of sleeping beauty had her attention that, she did not hear him walk in. He sat down on the couch across from her like he always did. He loved to sit and watch her read for hours. it no longer made her felt her uneasy. it comforted her instead to know he was near and watching over her. The words in the story spoke to her, caused her to shiver and become wet between her legs at the idea of Damon treating her in such a way. She glanced up at him and gulped softly. His stared caught her eyes and she blushed looking away.           “Is this what you want?” Lilly asked softly looking down at her fingers.           “Only if you agree to it. I would never force it upon you. I will still want you if you say no but I will hold back my Dominant tendencies” He said with such a tender voice.       Lilly closed the book before standing up. She walked over to him and knelt in front of him with her hands on his knees. She wanted nothing more to give this man all of her. She knew she should have been wondering why she was so willing to allow him that most intimate part of her but she could not help it. She knew that he would protect her and care for her. She could see it in his eyes. “I want it” She whispered looking into his eyes. Damon gave her the sweetest, and handsome smile she ever saw cross his face as he lifted her face to him by her chin and caught her lips with his own. He claimed her lips as his own. Soon he would do the same with her body but for now, he just kissed her, in a way that shook her to her very core. The kiss took her breath away making her melt into his kiss.

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To forgive when you heart has been tore into pieces 

To say that it was okay you left

To clear my head and heart from the pain

is hard but can be done

To open my heart back up

To trust

To love again

is damn near impossible

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wishing

wishing i was different

wishing i was someone first choices

wishing i could turn back time and change things

wishing you would not have lied

wishing you would have been the one

wishing you could have pay attention to how much i cared

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You

You… are the rain that falls on my skin

You… are the music graces my ears

You… are the song that leaves my lips

You… are the story I cant wait to continue to write

You… are everything in my life that makes it perfect

You… are the love of my life

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Lost

     I am lost in the land of bewildered thoughts

The sun outside is bright.

The air is warm

The soul inside me is as dark as night

The thoughts in my head feel like a sandstorm:

I feel lost

I feel out of control

I want to love but at what cost

I want to be whole

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For Daddy

Craving that beautiful swish of the flogger as a sensational sting of the leather makes a sharp crack against tender skin

Longing for that wonderful freedom that the unbroken bond between us causes as one gives over the unabridged control to another

Yearning for that marvelous love shown through a heavenly caress as an unselfish devotion is laid bare

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I love… everything about him. I love… the way he says he loves me I love… the sound of his voice when he is happy, tired, drunk, or excited. I love… the little smiles I get over pictures I love… the way he brights up my darkest of days with two little word “I’m here” I love… the fact he sees me as this biggest, most important person in the world, when in fact I’m just a small part of it I love… how no matter how insecure, how down right hard on myself, he seems the beauty in me that I’m to afraid to see I love… that he has awaken a part of me that I didn’t even know was there, or did but refused to let anyone see in fear of judgement, and persecution. I love… the way my heart aches, yearns, and pleads for him when I wait for that simple little message in the more “good morning dear” I love… that no matter what I say or do, he will love me though it all I love… that he has saved that very part of me I felt was lost forever, the happiness, the love, the joy I love… that he sees though the hurt and the pain and pulls me though it until all I see is love, caring, and kindness I love… him, always, forever, if he disappears from my life one way or another, even then I will love him still

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Daddy's Little Kitten

The wind chimes’ soft music began to get louder as the wind rushed though them. The sun made itself shine though the rain clouds like a child playing peekaboo. The wind mixed with tiny rain drops caressed her lovely pale skin. LunaRose sat on the porch of her and her husbands little two story white picket fenced home. Her light lavender rocking chairs swayed back and forth causing the wood of the porch floor to creak with every movement. She laid her head back and closed her eyes listening to the wonderful nosies that surrounded her. She couldn’t imagine anything could get more beautiful.

Marcus stepped out of their home, the screen door snapping shut behind him. The sound made her open her eyes and turn her head toward this noise. She found herself looking upon his devilishly handsome face with that down right cricked smile. There it was the one thing that make her life a million times more beautiful. He reached his hand out to her. She smiled shyly and placed her hand in his and he pulled her to her feet. Within seconds she was against his chest. One of his strong arms wrapped around her waist as his other hand pulled hers between. Both their hands rested between their chest, hers raising and falling at a rapid pace, while his was calm and controlled. She slide her free hand over his shoulder and into his curly brown hair at the nape of his neck. She glanced up into his eyes and blushed seeing the lust and love in his eyes. Her heart began to pound to the same rhythm of the thunder that rolled around them. Before she knew it his lips were against her neck drawing the sweetest sigh from her lips. Then he did the very thing that made her weak in the knees. He bite into her soft skin, this time a loud moan sounded from her throat. He moved his head up looking at her and laughed as she whimpered when he stopped biting. He took her chin in-between his thumb and index finger, pulling it up to look at her

“what is it little one?” He asked moving his hand around her waist to her ass causing her to gasp.

“Daddy stopped biting” she embarrassingly whispered her cheeks becoming a darker hue of red.

This made him chuckle deep in his throat “but If daddy bites princess will be turned on. And he isn’t sure if he isn’t sure if he wants to tease her tonight or give her what she wants” he explained

It had been days of teasing and edging her to almost the point of Ecstasy then stopping. He always came but didn’t let her. It was her own fault though. She knew better then she tease him and the last time he was out working she did. When he came home to punish her she came without permission resulting in the days of her not getting to. She looked up at him pouting and whining like a dog in heat.

“Please daddy please take me. I promise I won’t cum without permission again” she begged.

His smile turned into a grin. He leaned forward and kissed her deeply biting her lip hard enough to cause it to bleed. Before he pulled away he licked the blood off her bottom lip then spun her out of his arms. He smacked her ass hard causing a yelp to leave her lips.

“Thank you daddy” she whispered knowing it was one of her rules to say thank you after every spank.

“Go get our box princess.” He said unbuttoning his shirt.

She stopped for a second to stare at his body as the fabric fell off his skin. He crooked an eyebrow up as a warning. She giggled and fled into the house and up the stairs to their room grabbing their box of goodies and headed back out to the porch. By the she got back he was completely naked and hard waiting for her. She placed the box at his feet and knelt down behind it. With her head down, her hands folded together and raised up offering her wrist to him. He opened the box and pulled out a long piece of ribbon. He looked it over then placed it back in the box. He then grabbed her wrist cuffs and smiled. He strapped one on each wrist. He placed her collar around her neck after removing her day time one. He took a long thin chain and hooked on end to the melt loop on one of the wrist cuff. He pulled her up to her feet and brought her over to the rail of the porch. He wrapped the chain around the rail a couple times then put in though the loop of her collar before hooking the other end to the last wrist cuff.

“Comfortable?” He asked softly as he put her hair up into a pony tail for her, and placing her kitty ears on. They were baby pink with little white bows on the bottom outward side of the ears.

She nodded softly “yes daddy” she purred gently.

“Good” he said sharply. He unzipped her dress, he untied the straps that were around her neck and pulled the dress down. He tipped her legs so she would left them up. He pulled the dress away from her and tossed it onto her rocking chair. The swish of the fabric hitting the car caused her to shiver. She was now standing with nothing on. Her breast dangled down causing her already hard nipple to run against the finished wood of the porch rail. She didn’t dare look back as she heard him going through the box again. She jolted forward by accident when he shoved his tongue deep inside of her. She blushed when she heard him growl. His hand grabbed her hips and pulled her back closer. He began to wiggle his tongue inside of her while rubbing her clit. She was thrusting her hips back against his face. She let out a gasp as two of his fingers buried themselves inside of her and curled up hitting her gspot over and over as he sucked on her clit. She held herself together until she felt her first orgasm building.

“Daddy… daddy… may I cum please?” She asked trying to hold it in.

“No” he said stopping his assault on her pussy. He went back to the box and grabbed a bottle of lube and her baby pink fluffy kitty tail that matched her ears. He lubed up the anal plug and then his fingers pushing them into her ass. He moved them in and out of her making sure her ass was nice and ready then slide the plug inside of her.

“Wiggle your tail princess” he commanded in a deep harsh voice.

She did as she was told and wiggles her tail for him hearing him moan and the sound of him stroking his cock at the sight of her. She was so wet it dripped down her legs.

“Such a good little kitten” he commented as he continued to watch her for a few more seconds “Are you ready?” He asked softly she nodded. “Yes daddy”

He came up behind her, shifting her tail to one side so that he could push an inch of his cock inside of her. She moaned grabbing onto the rail. He pulled out then pushed back in, adding another inch as he did so. He repeated this until all eight of his inches were buried deep inside of her and she was panting and moaning. She was turning so hard to not cum. He knew it because the next thing she knew he was pounding into her like he was trying to break her.

“Oh daddy” she moaned and whimpered.

“Is someone getting close again?” He asked breathlessly.

She nodded quickly “yes daddy please please may I cum now please?” She begged and whined.

“Yes baby girl cum for daddy” he breathed in her ear before pulling her hair, yanking her head back and pounding her harder. She screamed out his name as her orgasm rocked though her. She grabbed tightly on the rail as she shook cumming hard. Her pussy tighten so much that it causes him to go harder. As her orgasm took over her body the sound of her screams and how tight she got turned him on so much it forced him to cum with her. He couldn’t stop himself as he emptied his seed deep inside of her. He groaned her name as their bodies slapped together. Once both of their orgasm slowly came to a stop, he slowly pulled out and watched as their cum ran down her thighs.He moved and unhooked her from the porch, replacing the chain back in the box and fixed her ears.

“Come inside little one I’m not finished with you yet” he stated, picked her and the box up and carried them inside.

She purred contently in his arms “thank you daddy”