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Ever been violently high and sweeping the floor at your minimum wage service job at 4 am, getting lost in your thoughts while your one surviving earbud sings in your ear, and realize you might be in love with your best friend

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Oh and I had to temporarily stop my HRT and I hate it :(

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My dad kicked me out and I feel like everyone I know thinks I'm a loser and irresponsible despite the fact that I have some pretty decent back up plans just because those plans are gonna take a little while

I mean it's not even like this was a good place to live, like no I don't wanna be homeless for a while but I also don't wanna love with a man that has hated my best friend of 20 years for being Muslim, or abused his own mother when she was sick, or has allowed this house to fill with trash and black mold and rats and roaches and bed bugs just cause he's too cheap to pay to fix, too embarrassed to ask anyone for help, and too lazy to try to fix anything himself.

Like I have tons of tweets and posts about how this house and this sorry excuse for a father make me the most suicidal I've ever been. Obviously it's not ideal that this happened to soon and it'll be stressful but like, idk at least I'm feeling less like I wanna die??? At least my mom is helping a little and my sister is gonna help put money into a trailer we can buy together. I'd rather be trailer trash again than dead personally.

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I was reading a book (about interjections, oddly enough) yesterday which included the phrase “In these days of political correctness…” talking about no longer making jokes that denigrated people for their culture or for the colour of their skin. And I thought, “That’s not actually anything to do with ‘political correctness’. That’s just treating other people with respect.”

Which made me oddly happy. I started imagining a world in which we replaced the phrase “politically correct” wherever we could with “treating other people with respect”, and it made me smile. 

You should try it. It’s peculiarly enlightening.

I know what you’re thinking now. You’re thinking “Oh my god, that’s treating other people with respect gone mad!”

Happy Valentine’s Day.

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got told at lunch "you feel like Tumblr Incarnate" and i had to tell them i've been here for 13 years and counting. i was here three years before dashcon happened. i saw the mishapocalypse. i survived the gigapause. i've been here longer than the shoelaces post. i've been here since it was hipsters versus fandom and i played both sides extensively by overdoing the sepia filters on everything and making my own flashing galaxy gif edits for my fandom posts. i'm every tumblr. it's all in me

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something something everyone wants nonbinary terminology that sounds natural but no one wants to use new terminology enough to naturalize it. idk to tell y'all this but new words are always going to sound weird until they don't. nonbinary people are gonna continue to be alienated by language until we pussy up!! also tbh i feel like some people just think any terminology that is blatantly tied to nonbinary people is cringe by virtue of exorsexism making all nonbinary things cringe

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"don't go grocery shopping when hungry" doesn't work for me because Not Hungry Me cannot conceive of a universe in which food is needed so she buys like a cup of pomegranate seeds and some fancy cheese and thinks that'll get us through the week.

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if "vagina-haver" was first proposed by a radfem you know literally every terf everywhere would be using it. like terfs would be talking about how "menstruator" is such a powerful radical term to identify with because it centers the menstrual blood that symbolizes womens power or whatever. like how am i supposed to take criticisms of this seriously ohhhhh hold on everybody the people who can't go five seconds without basing their identity on having a pussy want to preach about how medical language focused on pussy is misogynistic

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please help me get urgent root canal treatment

I hate that I have to make this post, but... I need help. I've got a root canal infection that is not budging, and the only way I can have a root canal treatment is if I get it done with a specialist, as I had treatment on this tooth 5 years ago, but it wasn't done correctly at the time. This will cost £995 AT LEAST, potentially £1,190 if they have to examine it first. I managed to borrow money from family to get a dentist to diagnose the issue, but I don't have anyone I can borrow upwards of a grand from just like that.

This infection has me in such bad pain that I haven't slept properly in weeks. I'm literally desperate. I'm physically disabled and can't work, so paying for this myself would be impossible. Please, if you can help at all, I would be eternally grateful. I've set up a gofundme as the amount is so big, but if you'd rather donate via PayPal I'll link that below too. Thank you for even reading all this, I appreciate it <3

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Ever notice how any time someone calls you "cringe", 99 times out of 100 what they mean is "you're happy and I don't like it"

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i've said this before but i suppose it bears repeating and clarification. it is arabs and palestinians who have suffered the most under islamist rule. we (middle easterners, revolutionaries, religious minorities, gender and sexual minorities) as people, understand what hamas represents better than israelis do, better than anyone does. we understand what the entire spectrum from political islam to outright jihadist extremism does. we understand dictatorship. we understand theocracy. we understand fascism.

the repression israel has created is so absolute, has destroyed civil, diplomatic, intellectual and peaceful avenues so absolutely, that it leaves no avenues for anyone to condemn hamas anymore. even the representative of hamas's ideological and political opponents, the PLO (which oversees the West Bank), is openly frustrated at the request to condemn hamas. and it's not because he sympathizes with them. he has absolutely no political, personal, ideological or economic reason to.

israel has bombed gaza in 2008, 2012, 2014 and 2021, each and every time with the declared intention of targeting hamas and instead murdering civilians en masse. everyone familiar with israel understands that 'hamas' is meaningless, that israel has no real interest in defeating them (and that defeating militant resistance to an occupation with military force is not possible), that they went so far as to fund them as their choice of preferred enemy. when palestinians hear 'hamas' they correctly understand that israel intends to kill everyone. it is, to use the lingua franca of this period, a dogwhistle. on october 7th, israelis were horrified to see this dogwhistle suddenly become an actual whistle, but nothing else changed except for the intensity and savagery of their attacks on gaza. instead, the more they say hamas, the more they murder civilians en masse, just as they always have. everyone in gaza has said "this is not new, just worse." they have always understood that they are the target. no amount of condemning hamas, being a good palestinian, a good civilian, or even a newborn will change that.

this includes all of hamas's ideological opponents and so-called victims as well. peace activists, intellectuals, palestinian christians, and queer palestinians alike are not condemning hamas right now. they can't because they are busy fighting for their lives and homes against the israeli occupation. if you understood the personal toll this takes on them, if you understood how deeply their trauma runs, you would understand just how evil the israeli narrative on hamas is for all palestinians.

if you want a plurality of palestinian opinion, get rid of the israeli apartheid state. if you want tolerance, get rid of the israeli apartheid state. if you want israelis to be safe in their homes from the threat of hamas militants, get rid of the israeli apartheid state.

the truth is, there is a base and deeply evil racism at the core of asking to condemn hamas, especially by those who would never condemn israel or the violence it requires to maintain itself. it presumes that they have the right to ask for a condemnation of child murder, without ever giving an apology for child murder or the promise to stop murdering children. ghassan kanafani once called this "a conversation between the sword and the neck."

it is absurdity in full display, a macabre delight in impunity disguised as moral superiority. more than treating every palestinian as a terrorist in interrogation, more than its dehumanization and islamophobia, it is at its core asking "do you agree our children are more important than yours?"

and lest you forget, Israel's current minister of national security has already said it directly. as he famously once told arab-israeli reporter mohammad magadli, “Sorry Mohammad, my right to life precedes yours, that is the reality.”

in many ways, that's far more honest than asking "do you condemn hamas?"

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they're called love handles for a reason. And the reason is i love handling them

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Average tumblr user be like “The grueling experience of being perceived...” *overshares*

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i think #starving might genuinely be the best tweet of all time. they could delete the website tomorrow and we can take solace in how it was all downhill from there

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looks like october is…. octover

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In the United States it's common for high schools to stage a simulated lethal crash to teach kids about the dangers of distracted or impaired driving. This often includes fake blood and first responders to stage rescuing people from the crash. Is this done anywhere outside the United States? I don't feel like it is. So I ask

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what could it be about crabs that makes them so delightful?

could it be those big, soulful eyes?

those powerful, handsome claws?

those hearts of pure gold?

we may never truly know the answer……………..