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"Ok then, let's call it and go get some food. I'll rub your back while we watch a movie?" Simon says pecking his girlfriend's lips before standing up and holding out his hand.

In the Training Room

"You try getting two hours of sleep, going on morning patrol, then training for an hour and not get tired. I promise it's pretty impossible," she retorted from her spot on the floor.

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"Stiles has a lot of potential. Ive been trying to convince him to ascend." Simon said before humming. "Hunter and I are around the same size and a leather jacket would be great. I think Izzy would like it."

"His shifter b-.... Ohhhhh. Stiles." Simon laughs "I forgot they were going out now."

"Dang it.. I wanted to borrow his jacket for my date and Jia is MIA too."

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"His shifter b-.... Ohhhhh. Stiles." Simon laughs "I forgot they were going out now."

"Dang it.. I wanted to borrow his jacket for my date and Jia is MIA too."

"Hey.... Oh crap you're not Tae." Simon flushes "Handsome and Asian but not who I was looking for. My bad, Ill leave you to your reading."

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Simon couldn't help the slight flush of his cheeks at her smile. She always had that affect on him ever since he met her. He always knew she was a bit of a maneater which made him a bit proud that she actually wanted to spend time with him and that she liked him as more than a friend. "As if you'd regret your 7 inch heels." He laughs "But no, no hikes. We are going somewhere close by, I promise." He grins as they set off she short walk before walking into a large building, Willis Tower. He pushes the door for the elevator and guides Izzy inside. "I hope you like where I'm taking you. I thought this place would be kind of romantic." He flushes "I admit I'm not the best at planning dates though. My idea of a fun date is street food and an underground rock show or a poetry reading." He laughs. "But you're special, so I thought we could go out on the Ledge together." He shrugs.

Simon had been on dates before, plenty of times when he dated Clary and Maia, but this date was different. He's not saying he didn't have feelings for Clary or Maia but what he felt for them paled in comparison to what he felt for Izzy. It was like both combined and then some. He was in love with Izzy, he long admitted that to himself a long time ago. He must have fixed his hair ten times, took his glasses on and off at lest 20, to say he was nervous was an understatement. And then he met her in the sitting room and it felt like his heart was in his throat. "Um yeah, yeah, lets go." Simon grins a bit nervously, offering his hand.

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"Hey.... Oh crap you're not Tae." Simon flushes "Handsome and Asian but not who I was looking for. My bad, Ill leave you to your reading."

At the Institute Library

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Simon had been on dates before, plenty of times when he dated Clary and Maia, but this date was different. He's not saying he didn't have feelings for Clary or Maia but what he felt for them paled in comparison to what he felt for Izzy. It was like both combined and then some. He was in love with Izzy, he long admitted that to himself a long time ago. He must have fixed his hair ten times, took his glasses on and off at lest 20, to say he was nervous was an understatement. And then he met her in the sitting room and it felt like his heart was in his throat. "Um yeah, yeah, lets go." Simon grins a bit nervously, offering his hand.

It wasn't that Izzy had never been on a date, but the premise of a date with Simon made her feel like a fish out of water. And Izzy didn't do nervous... not usually anyways. She must have changed her outfit about four times before she settled on one, and now she was waiting in the Institute's sitting room like they'd agreed on. She looked up every time someone passed by in the hallway, but when it was actually Simon she felt that wave of anxiety nearly threaten to knock her over. "You ready?" She managed to ask.

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Simon didn't know, was the thing, but with Izzy he felt comfortable in their relationship and had a good feeling about it. "I don't but we've got good juju, I feel it." He says "I believe in you, Iz. Even if you don't believe in yourself, I always will whether we are just friends or you are my girlfriend."

Simon smiles back at Isabelle when she told me that she didn't like anyone else. That she hadn't ever allowed herself to like anyone else before him. "Mental kung fu is hard. I haven't mastered it either." He chuckles softly "But it does make me feel better... That you don't like anyone else."

Simon held Izzy close as he kissed her, feeling her melt against him as she kissed him back this time. This kiss was different. It held more emotions, more hope that maybe the two of them would be alright. Simon vowed to be patient with Izzy because she was all he wanted. It had been Izzy all along.

Simon continued to touch her as she spoke, seeing the depth of her feelings in her dark eyes. He wished he coumd take all of her fear from her but if learned anything from all his years of pining over Clary it was patience. "You don't have enough faith in yourself, Iz. I trust you. I know you won't hurt me." He says gently kissing her forehead.

"Trust me, I get it. I worry too, you know? I mean my last two girlfriends wanted someonre else but just kind of... Settled for me. I think they liked me enough to try it but it still didn't work out." He says, referring to Clary and Maia. "The fact that you trust me means so much to me, you know? I understand how scared you are but I won't give up on you, on us. Like I said the other day, you're important to me, Iz. " he says "I'm not going anywhere." He says before leaning in and kissing her again, this time slower. He poured everything he was feeling into the kiss this time, savoring it and committing the way it felt to memory.

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"Well it's good to know at least a few people won't judge me." Simon says with a soft sigh before listening to what Ava had to say about the pain and darkness that came from losing a Parabatai. "Maybe it's still sore since it hasn't been that long." He says "I knew Clary pretty much my whole life even before we even knew about this world. There was one point I even thought I was in love with her. You know how first loves go. It's hard to think that she's just.... Gone." He frowns "I don't regret becoming her Parabatai but sometimes I wonder if all this would have been easier if I hadn't ascended. Just continued my life without my memories you know? But then I see Jace or Alec or.... Izzy." He smiled fondly "I remember why I wanted to remember. Even if we haven't always had the best relationships. Even if it still hurts."

"I honestly have no clue what I'm doing anymore."

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"I know the feeling." Simon sighs "What happened? I mean you don't have to tell me if you don't want to but sometimes it helps to talk to someone that isn't part of the situation." He shrugs.

"You too?" Simon asks.

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Simon let out a shaky breath when Jace got closer, close enough to touch if he wanted to. This was wrong on so many levels. He was pretty much in love with Izzy and she liked him back, which still shocked Simon, but they were just friends at the moment. Friends that kiss and have feelings for one another but still just friends because Izzy was sitting through her insecurities. But Simon had to admit there was always an underlying tension with Jace. Which is why his flirting made things so hard. "Oh I can definitely handle you but.... " he sighs "I shouldn't."

"I honestly have no clue what I'm doing anymore."

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Simon never thought about what made a Jewish cemetery Jewish. "Honestly I have no clue, burying Jewish people there? " he laughs. "Oh the spell from the drink wore off at some point and I just, you know, poofed back human." He said gesturing with his hands. "It was weird." He laughs before humming. "I did a couple of times but like it was to either help in a fight or like get information to help my friends. I didn't really use it for anything evil or whatever." He says before laughing. "No, Jace did it on his own. He won't admit it but he has a soft spot for me. We made out once." He laughs at the memory and again at the Star Wars reference. "You can go about your business. Move along."

"Right? All hotness and leather!" Simon exclaims before laughing "Jace is an ass but yes, he's very hot. If you see a blonde Shadowhunter running around with a hero complex that's him. Though you may have heard of him if your friend is a werewolf? Hes the one that had all that drama with Adam because of his daughter Jessie." He said before listening to his story. "I've read about those... Nogitsune right? Like the evil version of a kitsune? Like thru control those clay ninja things... Oni? That's crazy you became one of those and even crazier you survived that. How are you still alive and human, dude? You should totally go to the academy and ascend. Become one of us!"

Simon liked Stiles, he knew they were going to be fast friends. "Yeah like an honest to got squeak squeak rat. It bit my maker, Raphael, on the finger and that like put his blood in my system and a whole bunch of other stuff went down and next thing you know I'm digging myself out of the ground in a Jewish cemetery zombie style.. It was crazy." He says waving his hands around "Yeah dude, a total I vant to suck your blood vampire fangs and speed and super cool Jedi vampire mojo." He says doing the Jedi mind trick movement with his fingers. "I usually stuck to cow's blood that Clary or Izzy brought me from the butcher shop but like I've drank from 4 people. Three of those people are Shadowhunters and the angel blood makes them taste like.... Oh god it's hard to describe. Like think of the best dessert you ever had and it's like that. Like Clary tasted like this chocolate mousse her mom used to make and Alec was like uhhh apple pie. Jace has different blood though, he was the one that saved me from Clary's psycho dad. His was like.... Sex." He flushed "I did drink from one human and she tasted like chicken but like I accidentally took too much and someone turned her after I ran. She was crazy. Like a lot of stuff happened because of her." He says. "Dude tell me about it! Clary's dad wanted to kill all the supernaturals in the world and her brother was even crazier because he had demon blood but seriously a bullet? I have to hear this story."

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Simon made a face at that. "Hey! I was high." He says "One, I doubt your girlfriend would like that much." He smirks before teasingly trailing a finger over his chest to mess with him "Two, you can't handle me, big boy." He winks before pulling back.

"I honestly have no clue what I'm doing anymore."

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The images of Izzy tying him up and wearing that leather outfit he knew she had on her closet with the stilettos just sent a shiver down Simon's spine and he involuntary let out a whimper with a soft "Yes Mistress." Before clamping a hand over his mouth and blushing profusely.

Simon smiles back at Izzy after she kissed his cheek. "I mean everything I've gone through since following Clary into this life kind of makes you start opening your eyes a little." He says as he strokes her hair, laughing at the poke to his side. "I promise I will, I like this. Holding you like this. I think it would be comforting sleeping next to you." He confesses.

Simon laughs at her comment, glad she was taking the teasing well. "What about you though? I feel like you would like tying people up and all that." He jokes.

Simon felt for Izzy because everyone grieved in their own ways. Some distracted themselves, like Jace with his hero complex, some found someone to talk to, like Alec did with Jamie and Helenus, and some people isolated themselves, like Izzy. "We all are just trying to do our best to keep moving forward. There is no right or wrong way to grieve, Iz, you did what was best for you at the time and your brothers understand that, I understand that. Jace's choices were his own and it's neither you or Alec'd fault. You're all doing the best you can because er have all been through so much the last couple of years." He said softly as he stroked her cheek. He smiles when she said he could come to her too if he needed her. 'I'll hold you to that next time I can't sleep or I get woken up by flashbacks and nightmares." He says kissing her forehead gently.

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"I guess you're right. I mean everyone here has been so welcoming and nice but I get the feeling that some still look at me differently because I wasn't born into this, because I used to be a Daylighter." Simon sighs "Does it get any easier, Ava? This darkness and void I feel in my soul? I felt my Parabatai die and I don't know, it feels like of me is missing. Is that normal? Does it ever go away?"

"I honestly have no clue what I'm doing anymore."

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Simon laughs at her comment, glad she was taking the teasing well. "What about you though? I feel like you would like tying people up and all that." He jokes.

Simon felt for Izzy because everyone grieved in their own ways. Some distracted themselves, like Jace with his hero complex, some found someone to talk to, like Alec did with Jamie and Helenus, and some people isolated themselves, like Izzy. "We all are just trying to do our best to keep moving forward. There is no right or wrong way to grieve, Iz, you did what was best for you at the time and your brothers understand that, I understand that. Jace's choices were his own and it's neither you or Alec'd fault. You're all doing the best you can because er have all been through so much the last couple of years." He said softly as he stroked her cheek. He smiles when she said he could come to her too if he needed her. 'I'll hold you to that next time I can't sleep or I get woken up by flashbacks and nightmares." He says kissing her forehead gently.

Simon laughed at her expression after his comment, missing her little quips while she was away. "Sorry that was a bad joke." He laughs "At least I didn't say Alec."

Simon held her close, comforting her and in turn getting comfort from her at the same time. "I'm sorry I was there more... For Max." He says softly, his eyes watering as he truly felt for her. She had shut everyone out in her grief and at first it hurt but he understood after time passed. "Everyone grieves in their own way, you know?" He says looking down at her, tracing under her eyes. He frowns when she said she hadn't really been sleeping much because she was alone with her nightmares. "I can understand the nightmares. I get them too sometimes." He says "if you ever just... Not want to be alone, call me or come to my room ok? I'm here. I'm always here. Sometimes you just... Want to have someone there."

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"That's true. I guess I just haven't found my purpose yet."

"I honestly have no clue what I'm doing anymore."

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Simon liked Stiles, he knew they were going to be fast friends. "Yeah like an honest to got squeak squeak rat. It bit my maker, Raphael, on the finger and that like put his blood in my system and a whole bunch of other stuff went down and next thing you know I'm digging myself out of the ground in a Jewish cemetery zombie style.. It was crazy." He says waving his hands around "Yeah dude, a total I vant to suck your blood vampire fangs and speed and super cool Jedi vampire mojo." He says doing the Jedi mind trick movement with his fingers. "I usually stuck to cow's blood that Clary or Izzy brought me from the butcher shop but like I've drank from 4 people. Three of those people are Shadowhunters and the angel blood makes them taste like.... Oh god it's hard to describe. Like think of the best dessert you ever had and it's like that. Like Clary tasted like this chocolate mousse her mom used to make and Alec was like uhhh apple pie. Jace has different blood though, he was the one that saved me from Clary's psycho dad. His was like.... Sex." He flushed "I did drink from one human and she tasted like chicken but like I accidentally took too much and someone turned her after I ran. She was crazy. Like a lot of stuff happened because of her." He says. "Dude tell me about it! Clary's dad wanted to kill all the supernaturals in the world and her brother was even crazier because he had demon blood but seriously a bullet? I have to hear this story."

"Well yeah, but is that all? Am I just supposed to be a soldier and nothing else?" Simon asks with a sigh "I guess I'm just trying to find my purpose. Thinking about it now, I didn't really ever have one other than following my best friend into the supernatural world and kind of getting stuck. I never really did anything for me or found myself. I was just the nerdy sidekick."