“The thing that I don’t want: I don’t want people looking at me and thinking I’m mad. ‘Cause I know what I saw. And that’s the thing; I know that I’m tired...I’m so tired and I’m finding it hard to think straight right now, but, I mean, I want to talk about this. Wanna find out about this. But I don’t want people to think...I just want everything to be straightened out. No frayed edges. No loose ends. All straight. All smooth. I don’t want...I don’t want people thinking that there’s anything wrong with me ”