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the two bad fatigue moods:

gets super emotional, cries over the smallest things, empathetic™, can’t handle anything, irritable, overstimulated™, anxious

can’t feel anything, barely able to think, apathic™, can’t relate to anything, emptiness™, can’t cry, slow™, dissociating

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bodych*ck full stomach

First pic sucking in, second, just pushing my hips forward.

I feel so disgusting, I don’t even know how I look. Am I thinspo? Am I fat? I can’t tell

my photos, reblogging is fine, repost with credit

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brain: your stomach is growling. you’re dizzy. you are weak. you can’t even stand up. you need food, don’t ignore the signs anymore.

me: *eats something*

brain: how could you, you fat fuck monster. you should be ashamed of yourself.

WHYISITALWAYSLIKETHIS

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ed-things nobody talks about

(some things I experienced when my ed was really bad when I was 16-17. It’s not all fun and it’s not like the cute thinspo-posts you see here everyday)

hiding food in your pockets, shoes, socks… while eating with others

forgetting that you were hiding the food in these places (oh the smell)

friends, family … finding the food you were hiding

trowing away the food someone you loved gave you

making people cry and constantly worry about you

being upset when people give you the bigger portion (do they think you eat that much????)

being upset when people give you the smaller portion (do they think you are fat and that you should eat less????)

drinking to much water before a doctors weight in so you feel like you are peeing your pants

the pain after the laxatives kick in

being afraid to put chapstick on (because you know, it’s made out of fat lol)

not going out with frieds, because there is food everywhere (you will regret it later, because everyone went clubbing and now that you are healthy they are not into that anymore, aka missing out your youth)

freezing when people around you wear a bikini

not being able to get pregnant, although you recovered

heartproblems, although recovered

struggling with hormone-production, although you recovered

having bad teeth, although you recovered

having problems with your bones, although you recovered

having problems with your nails and hair, although recovered

the need to take medication your whole life because of a few years of having an ed

loosing your sexdrive

being afraid to fall asleep and never wake up again

not being able to stop, even if you want to

Edit: If you reblog please don’t use tags like pro ana because this post is clearly not pro and I also don’t want to get deleted once again ♡

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me: *fasts for days*

*excessively works out*

*gets dizzy/lightheaded*

*is exhausted in the middle of the day*

*cries when food is offered*

everyone I know : doing great girly😊💖💕✨keep it up🤪 🤪

me:

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"It gets better". Bro, It's been gradually getting worse for years.

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idk i just feel like sayin this out loud:

eds are not only created by social media. it's not only young girls lookin at photos online and wanting to fit into unrealistic standards.

eds are more than saying: lemme starve myself to death real quick so that i look like this model i saw online.

starvation means control, power, being superior, making own decisions, always being successful, always being able too choose and to achieve.

As simple as it is -controlling your nutritional intake- it is yet so addicting because you can cope so many things by starving, weighing yourself, tracking everything...

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them: how’s your mental health?

me: i’ve literally been posting about wanting to die for like a decade

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don't forget you're here forever

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Relatable.

(stolen from Instagram)

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the mentally ill urge to starve myself until i end up in the hospital😩😩🤪🤪

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do you really want to disappoint yourself again?