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PoA feels have consumed me. This is inspired by Within Temptation - The Swan Song

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this is the most beautiful piece of art i've seen in a long time oh my god

ac: likeafunerall

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I think so many people in the fandom fail to grasp the difference between "flair for the dramatic" and "being dramatic," and that's how we got Sirius Black, the drama queen (TM) who cries when he chips his nail polish or because Regulus is taller than him (WTF???) instead of Sirius Black, the unhinged lunatic who broke into the Gryffindor dormitory on the anniversary of his best friend's death, laughing maniacally and brandishing a twelve-inch blade with the sole purpose of committing the murder he was imprisoned for.

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Why do people make it look like it's Sirius who goes along with whatever james wants when it's clearly the other way round?

In the one scene we get from their teenage years it's pretty clear that james is the one who keeps trying to get Sirius's attention. He looks for Sirius's reaction after he yawns hugely and ruffles his hair in the exam hall, then stops showing off only for Sirius (despite his inflated ego being a huge part of his personality at the time), and bullies Snape because Sirius just says he's bored. Personally I see Sirius as having a more independent personality that doesn't rely on external validation, given that he rejected his family's pure blood ideology and ran away at 16, while james at that age was ruffling his hair to look like he just got off his broom, showing off with the snitch, enjoying wormtail's admiration, constantly looking to see if lily was watching him, etc etc(and all of this is just from 1 memory lol).

Also Sirius has no qualms about disagreeing with him (unlike how he's portrayed to be james's yesman in the fandom), he asks james to stop showing off and points out that he's conceited when he wonders why lily is turned off by him. I just can't see Sirius blindly following someone even if it is james, because I think he would have learnt early on that he couldn't blindly trust the people he loved, so while he would trust james with everything, he simply wouldn't be inclined to behave that way. Even so he's way too independent for something like that. The real simp was the spoilt and pampered guy tracing the initials of his future wife lol

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I feel like this fandom never really talks about the fact that Peter Pettigrew murdered at least twelve people. Probably more (either directly or indirectly) while he was working for Voldemort. Like, everyone fixates on the fact that he turned traitor, that he was a spy and he got James and Lily killed and framed Sirius for it, and all of those things are absolutely terrible, but like... he murdered twelve people in cold blood. What Sirius went to Azkaban for was that murder, not for supposedly betraying his friends. Most of the wider wizarding world wasn't aware that the Potters had a secret keeper or that they'd been betrayed, they just thought that Voldemort had tracked them down, as he had so many others, and that was that. What Sirius was famous for was supposedly murdering thirteen people (twelve muggles + Peter) with a single curse. The mass murder was the big deal here as far as the rest of the world was concerned, and even without all of the betrayal, murdering twelve people on its own is still an absolutely horrific thing for Peter to have done, and nobody really seems to talk about it. He literally has so much blood on his hands.

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Dueling Sirius. Let's say this was just practice at Grimmauld so we don't get sad :)

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Okay, this is actually my last post on this subject, because I’m tired of talking about it but I realized I don’t think I’ve stated my position directly.

The prank was not a big deal.

There was no plot. There was no “explanation of what Sirius was thinking,” because Sirius wasn’t thinking, because it wasn’t a set up at all. It was a snide comment responding to a student who we are told, and who Lily tells us, had been following the Mauraders around with the conviction he could catch them and reveal their secrets for an extended period of time and fifty/fifty already suspected and was insinuating Remus was a werewolf. (He tells Lily this is his theory based on other evidence, and she reacts like it isn’t news; it could be something he made up post fact but like… charting moon cycles isn’t hard, Hermione does it third year too and is a large measure less obsessed than Snape apparently was.) It was a sarcastic comment Sirius tossed off with no intention or expectation that Snape would actually follow the instructions, because the idea of Snape following his instructions was ludicrous.

I think this because a) in the books, many people discuss it, and no one suggests what Sirius did was a big deal except for Snape, including the other person most directly affected, Remus, but mostly because b) any other scenario is ludicrous.

We know Sirius made the remark directly to Snape, vs. arranging for him to over hear it. So, in order for Sirius to be setting up Snape, Sirius would have to say something like, “It would be funny if you poked the knot under the Womping Willow and followed us, then you’d find out where Remus went with Madam Pomfrey,” and expect Snape to actually do it, naively believing Sirius wasn’t setting him up. And honestly, the more hostile and violent you believe Sirius generally was to Snape, the more ludicrous this scenario is.

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the way i fell for him reading PoA is concerning

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Okay but your tags on that professor post....would give anything for a lil sketch of Professor Sirius "then study" Black.

Professor Black is not moved.

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Heyyyyyy I’m back!! Damn!! I love a good Sirius in Azkaban.

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Heyyyyyy I’m back!! Damn!! I love a good Sirius in Azkaban.

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Old v. young Sirius

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what would happen if a post-azkaban Sirius fell in love? Obviously he wouldn't be in the best place to have a relationship, but do you think he'd recognize this and try to distance himself? or do you see him trying to make it work despite this? would the way he feels love/the intensity of it be different from a pre Azkaban sirius? do you see any world in which this could work for him?

So Sirius has this immense capacity for love that even Azkaban can't diminish. He loves Harry with his entire being, and I think he would be capable of loving someone romantically in the same way. Essentially his ability to love intensely is something that even the hell scape of Azkaban couldn't take away from him.

My issue with post Azkaban Sirius having a romantic relationship isn't that he can't but more that he's lost so much of his formative years that he probably doesn't know how he fits into society- he's been so dehumanised, isolated and had his formative years taken from him that reintergration would be so so tough. Also, there would be a very uncomfortable power imbalance if he's still a fugitive.

If he was given his freedom, his priority would probably be focused on the war or on rebuilding a solid foundation of adulthood (I also don't see him as someone who prioritises romance, so he'd likely start by building solid friendships and a family with Harry). Plus, how would he even know what he needs in a partner as an adult? He hasn’t had the chance to figure out those aspects of his life for so long.

If he did find someone, I can see him distancing himself (at least initially), especially as during OoTP he self-isolates a lot when the trauma and depression become too much. Adding to this the fictional character's rights violation that is Azkaban—dehumanised him so severely that it could deepen his feelings of unworthiness. He might believe that, after being treated like less than human for so long, he no longer deserves love or happiness. Also his unresolved guilt over James and Lily’s deaths, as well as his absence during Harry’s childhood, would likely only intensify this belief, leading him to push someone away, thinking they deserve better than what he can offer.

But if he felt secure in their love and comfortable, he would walk through hell to make it work with that person but it would be a challenging start.

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thank you, lucille bluth, for all of my walburga black inspirational quotes

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As I am still proud of this work (that is rare for me), I thought I just share the timelapse :) New Sirius painting is still in the making :')

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the fact that sirius most certainly thought his soul was going to be sucked out is not something we don’t talk about much

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I have been sooo busy this month, therefore it is just a portrait study this month :') I am working on another really awesome art project, which has completely nothing to do with my Sirius works. However, the other project might help me to live off my artsy stuff one day. Perhaps. 🥲 (and it is also really fun!) This time I tried to paint a more dangerous, angry looking Sirius. I also recognized I am painting him slightly too young (in my opinion), so I also tried to fix that.^^