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hi guys. if anyone reads this wondering where i've gone, i'm taking some time off this damned site. i'll be back, but i need some distance to remember how to get through a day without scrolling for half of it. might be a week, might be a month, might be half a year. who knows. this site is stealing too much of my time, and i want to take it back. i want to watch movies, i want to play video games, i want to sew and crochet and embroider, i want to read!! GOD i want to read. so until i've done that and feel like i can approach this site in a casual way again, i'll be off. love you guys. feel free to send me stuff or tag me, i'll look at it when i get back. bye now! <3

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There's a Thing you like to do. When you're bored, your first thought is the Thing. You find yourself going to do the Thing without even thinking. It's the first thing you do when hot wake up, and you inevitably stay up late doing it.

Maybe it's drinking or smoking, maybe it's online gambling. Maybe it's social media, TikTok, porn or something much darker.

You lose track of time when you do it. When you're NOT doing it, you wish you were. You resent your responsibilities for getting in the way of the Thing. You resent friends and family. The Thing makes you happy, and everything else is anti-joy.

It's addiction.

The good news is, there's a thousand ways to overcome addiction.

The best way is to work with a professional. Maybe find a support group. But there are countless other options.

For some people, cold turkey works. For others, keeping a sobriety journal is enough. Gratitude lists, prayer, community support, there are many different approaches. And you can do more than one at once.

My Thing is mobile phone video games. And I treat this with a sobriety app.

There's a community aspect, where others with similar addictions post their stories, and you can post yours.

When I first joined, the most common addiction in my community (i.e. phone addiction) was to social media. Instagram and TikTok.

That's no longer the case.

The most common addiction in my community is now to AI chat bots.

This isn't an aspect of LLMs I've seen discussed. But people are hooked on these chat bots the way others are addicted to cam girls.

In this app, my feed shows me people who've been sober for as long as I have. I relapsed this week, so I'm seeing people who are 3 or 4 days clean.

I love them. These brave people, acknowledging a problem and doing something about it.

And they're in despair. A new Thing exists, and it's a temptation that ruins their lives. And there are so many more of them than other phone addictions.

I don't think we've begun to see how drastically this technology is harming people.

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me and stevo talk about the commodification of alternative crowds

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I wish we had more female characters like Eleanor Shellstrop. One of the most unlikable people you've ever met. Read a Buzzfeed article on most rude things you can do on a daily basis and decided to use that as a list of goals. Makes everyone's day worse just by being there. Dropped a margarita mix on the ground and tried to pick it up, only to get hit by a row of shopping carts which pushed her into the road where she was hit by a boner pill delivery truck, killing her instantly. Cannot keep a romantic partner despite being bisexual. Had a terrible childhood but will die before she gets therapy. Best employee at a scam company. Just the worst but also can't help but root for her to improve.

Absolute loser. Girl-failure. Bad at almost everything. Literally perfect female character.

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I'm fucking dying at this page someone shared on Bluesky.

Behold, the Embroidery Trouble Shooting Guide that forgot to close its <h3> tags.

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The Brian David Gilbert episode of Very Important People is funny front to back but the best part is right after the reveal when Brian is clearly experiencing some kind of mad scientist gender euphoria. Me too.

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@helpicanttype

if you ever need me, just remember im only 6 messages, 8 dms and 12 missed calls away

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if you ever need me, just remember im only 6 messages, 8 dms and 12 missed calls away

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goodnight to crazy people only

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Ashore and fish are different creatures and walking fish are certainly a thing only in fairy tales and art.

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this from the guy who wrote the sting pain index, a scale he constructed after letting himself be stung by insects

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The human body's response to HRT is actually admirable in the sheer indifference. Just pure I Don't Give A Shit, I Just Fucking Work Here compliance to the new instructions. You can get testosterone injected straight into your body and it doesn't even question where that shit came from, coming back from a coffee break and just going

"Okay, everything seems to be in ord- oh fuck now what? Oh huh. Alright fine. New orders came in, cancel the menstrual cycle. Dig up the genetic balding patterns from somewhere, I don't fucking know they're buried somewhere in the dna. I'm greenlighting the growing-hair-on-your-toes thing. Yeah just cancel the ongoing maintenance processes, new orders came in so this is apparently what we're doing now."

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well that can't be good

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checking out some of the songs from hazbin hotel and there's some really good ones, they're all catchy, but when it comes to conveying story beats/dialogue/exposition the lyrics get really awkward. I'm sure it's really hard to write natural-sounding communication via lyrics on top of all the other stuff that goes into songwriting, but damn does it take me out of it

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instagram comment under a pencil drawing: YOU are what the TRANS COMMUNITY needs RIGHT NOW ❤️ a MACHINE could never MAKE THIS 😠❤️👍

tumblr tag under the same pencil drawing: #not teenage mutant ninja turtles

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