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i only ever post on this account by accident OR if i wanna talk about drinking someone's blood

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i think if she is fresh and warma nd nutritioud still i woulrd eat it all

Ok so. I have a question. If there was a full glass of human blood in front of you, and the was absolutely no health risk to drinking it, like, that's not ever a factor, how much of it do you think you would drink? Because I would at least take one solid gulp.

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I'm not OP but this post resonated with me, so here's an explanation from my perspective sonce people are interpreting this in bad faith:

Identifying with my disorders denied me my humanity. For example, I used to dance every time I ate, and I never questioned it. I would just shimmy and move whenever I had a meal and it was fine and it caused me no issues. Then I found out I had ADHD. Suddenly, I scrutinized my own behavior. Was this behavior a symptom? This perfectly mundane behavior became part of My Disorder. Even without external judgement, I began judging myself. This was not Normal behavior, it was Disordered behavior. I ended up making myself stop. I stopped doing a lot of things. I denied myself any weirdness to make myself normal. But if you view yourself as your disorder, you can never see yourself as a person, just an animated bundle of symptoms. Neurotypical people are allowed quirks and problems and bad habits without reducing any of it to one innate cause. They are allowed to just be people. We must allow ourselves to see ourselves in the same way. We must allow ourselves to face our struggles without tying them to our identity as disordered. While diagnosis can be a useful tool to identify disabling symptoms and find resources, seeing your diagnosis as your identity can make everything you do inherently deviant/disordered.

I have also experienced other people dismissing my ideas because these align with what they consider disordered thinking. This one guy asked me my opinion on something related to philosophy and then after hearing my opinion, told me I must be autistic. He told me I just didn't understand the point of the question. In reality, I knew full well what I was talking about. I had written about it at length in a philosophy class and the professor had been extremely receptive to my atypical perspective. But this guy (a psychology grad student btw) took my perspective and completely dismissed it because "autistic people tend to think like that." How utterly dehumanizing to me, and to autistic people, for him to chalk up the way I think to autism. To assume that autistic people are just preprogrammed with certain ways of thinking that are "wrong." To attribute anything atypical autistic people might think to their autism rather than their reasoning. Similar things have happened before. I've expressed my thoughts, which I spent a great deal of time considering before voicing, only to be told "oh sweetie, you might want to consider that you're on the spectrum." I internalized that for a long time. I dismissed myself the way others dismissed me. Eventually I realized how shitty that was, and I began to see myself as a person again. It turns out, any ideas I have that challenge social norms get called autistic. For the record, I've never been diagnosed with autism. I used to think about it a lot, but ultimately it does not matter to me whether or not I'm autistic. No one deserves to have their perspectives or experiences dismissed as only symptoms. Your experienced and your thoughts are your own. Anything that questions the norm will be labeled as disordered. You don't have to accept this as true.

We're human first. When people (including yourself) dismiss you—your thoughts, your beliefs, your experiences, your actions—by attributing them to your disorder, don't take it lying down. Question it. Challenge it. Keep in mind that what is labeled as "disordered" is cultural and serves specific interests. If you're really into psychology and you've been getting all your information through that lens, I recommend looking more into sociology. Some excerpts from my old textbook that might be useful to get you started:

my advice to everyone is to stop identifying with your mental illness or disorders. centering your identity around being unwell will inhibit you from reaching a destination where you are well.

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i drank a friends blood so i think its ok to let your friends have just a little blood especially your friends who are bugs

just saw something crawling on my hand and it looked like a spider so i was like "oh hey friend what are you! :D" well it was an arachnid but definitely not a friend 👍

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This is one of my fsvorite pictures and all day at work I was tossing pizza dough and muttering to myself man you bugly af DIE BUG DIE and imagining the bug and smiling

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If you're darker than a certain shade you can't have justified rage because you were hurt, all your rage is 'savage' and 'primal'. You're only allowed to cry and die, never strike back

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kids these days are spending too much time modifying their reproductive organs into intriguing shapes and giving them bright colors and other pollinator-attracting qualities. back in my day we simply put many spores into a wind or water current and were happy if they made it a quarter mile..... didnt bother with any of that stuff. i remember when we would all take root in a wet patch and throw our spores around, but have you been to a wet patch recently? its disgusting, is what it is

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why is faygo so expensive