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they say you can't pour from an empty cup but i've been doing it my whole life and aside from all of these mysterious ailments it's working out great for me

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― Margaret Atwood, The Blind Assassin

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sometimes my s/o makes me feel like a rabid dog

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having the same lover in multiple realities is so beautiful

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what giving up on shifting would feel like

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how i feel when i see my s/o depicted ROMANTICALLY with another person

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sexy knights. sexy wounded knights. sexy wounded weary knights. sexy wounded weary knights in the rain. sexy wounded weary knights in the rain pledging their loyalty to you.

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how can we stop expecting to wake up in cr after shifting attempt?

　how to stop expecting to wake up in your cr ,

well . . . you never 'wake up' in your desired reality. you don't arrive. there is no terminal gate, no sudden cut to black followed by credits rolling on a new world. if you're waiting for the crash, you've misunderstood the flight. but that's semantics. anyways.

shifting isn't an event. it's not a rupture, it's not a lottery win, it's not a punishment or miracle. it's continuity. like breathing, like blinking. what happens when you shift is not that you go somewhere else. it's that you stop arguing with where you are. and by the time you notice, the scenery's already changed.

so you don't wake up in your cr because your cr isn't a separate bedroom you break into once you've behaved enough. your cr is the bed you've always been in. your cr is now. it's here. it's this. but you're still trying to see it through the peephole of your old logic. through scarcity and suspense and the habit of believing everything real has to hurt.

the expectation to 'wake up' comes from the same place as superstition. it's a theatre of reward. you're still expecting it to feel deserved. to arrive with trumpets. to be marked by something. you're still trying to prove something to the doorman in your mind who thinks heaven has a guest list.

but your reality doesn't need fanfare. it doesn't need to knock. it's not late. it's not reluctant. it's not waiting on you to be more visual, more perfect, more devotional. you are not an unpaid intern at the church of quantum theory. you're not performing piety for a state change. you're not a myth. you're a chooser.

so . . . stop expecting to wake up. instead, assume you already did. yesterday. last week. two months ago. during lunch. when you put your phone down. when you said 'this is done.' the moment passed already. you missed it because you were squinting for a sign.

anywho. reality doesn't tap you on the shoulder. it really just expects to reflect something you've given. either the belief that you're here or you're there. your thoughts materialise.

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what do you do with the 3d?

let's clear the floor. let's slit it open tile by tile. let's sweep the shards into our palms and try again. let me rip the carpet up while we're at it, dig my hands into the marrow of the matter and ask, what are we doing with the 3d, really. are we making it our girl friday or our ghost. are we ignoring the curtain or stepping through it. the question is, do you even recognise what you're looking at.

but let's step back. what is the 3d, anyway. physical reality. consensus hallucination. not sacred, not sinful. not a riddle to be solved nor a cage to be broken. just a card in the deck, drawn with shaky hands. the one everyone agrees to pretend is real. you can treat it like an omen, if you want. or a person you absolutely abhor. but don't mistake it for the author. it's only ever the copy, the imprint, or the last known address of a belief. yesterday's ink on today's page, and even that can smudge.

because everyone has an answer and most of them feel like used tissues. soggy with someone else's satori. should we ignore the 3d. befriend it. spit at its feet like it called us boring. the answers all sound like someone else's language. someone else's idea of what devotion is. someone else's diagram of control. and most of them are at war with nuance. 

the 3d is your echo. it's a feedback loop, a dog who learnt the tricks you taught it. it moves like you do. it learns what you reward. it listens to what you repeat. it's not speaking, it's mouthing back. and yes, it has weight. like wet fabric or a hospital corridor. it has textures. grit. gravity. but weight is not truth. it's just density. what you believe has mass. not because it's real, but because you've given it rehearsal time, memorised the script, built sets around it, fed it from your own bowl.

so here's what the 3d is: a tarot card. upright or reversed, depending on the day. never the deck itself, never the hand that shuffles. it's a reading, not a sentence. a reflection, not a law. its power is borrowed. it's never permanent. it's never personal. it is what you thought yesterday, blinking back at you in today's light. you don't have to ignore it. you don't have to kneel at its altar, either. the 3d can be your chorus girl or your case study.  it doesn't mind. it has no ego. it doesn't need to win. it just needs something to reflect. and if you change your face, it will too.

treat it how you want. name it. reframe it. pin it to the wall or forget it in a drawer. pet it like a cat or argue with it like a brother. none of it matters. what matters is remembering that it follows you. it always does. not because it loves you. because it has no other choice.

just remember: the card is not the future. it's a translation. and all translations are subject to error, to bias, to mood. the 3d isn't fact. it's rendering. if you want a different reading, shuffle again.

it's a ghost. and it only haunts what you've already abandoned.

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things take time because you’ve decided they take time. manifestations don’t show up because you’ve decided they won’t.

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This whole blog is just a conversation I am having with myself

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Slow dancing in the kitchen while light filters in from the window making the whole room pink

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why do you keep sabotaging yourself?

before rolling your eyes….. hear me out. take a deep breath, clean your glasses if you have them, take a sip of water to refresh yourself.

one thing i have noticed in the shifting community is that people, unconsciously, despite having the desire for positive outcomes keep doing everything except accepting the fact that they are, indeed, self sabotaging themselves. and no, this is not victim blaming. i am not being mean. this is not an inspirational post. and i am not trying to demotivate you. its me, hopefully making you realize that your actions have consequences. because this is what shifting is.

affirmations are not only about shifting. they are your thoughts (not the intrusive ones!!!or caused by anxiety) that keep shaping your reality. you thinking that your teacher is going to call you in class to answer a question? affirmation. you thinking that tomorrow your boss is going to give you a day off? affirmation. you thinking that today is going to be a boring day? affirmation. you thinking that you are not able to shift? affirmation. manifestation. they are just fancy names, but all mean the same thing.

unironically, your ‘shifting abilities’ are based on your perception of them. you keep shifting. and if you keep saying that you can’t shift, that you are not in the void, that you don’t have your desires…. now, tell me what you are telling your subconscious, who doesn’t have eyes. ‘oh, we don’t have them, okay then’ when you can say you are in your dr, and your subconscious wouldn’t blink twice. fooling your subconscious is waaaay easier than fooling a blind person.

you have free will, you can choose which affirmations you want to believe in. do you want to complicate your life by believing that you don’t have your desire, or you want just chill with your desire? it’s not as complicated as some people claim it to be. you just have to make a choice.

i. everything shows you the opposite? you are seeing what you were affirming until now. start with the positive ones.

ii. your negative thoughts are too powerful? this is what you keep telling yourself, and this is why they are. from now on, they are as relevant as drake after not like us.

iii. how do i be delusional? you are not being delusional. you are just making a new base. a positive one, this time. is it delusion or it’s just programming? are you being delusional when planning to go out with your friends . . . . treat it as simple as this.

iv. but i am a negative person,,, because apparently this is what you want to be. you are experiencing past assumptions, and you have the free will to shape your present and future like you want.

v. no matter what i affirm, i never shifted,,,, how is this relevant in any way? manifestation can change your past, but not the point. you are going towards your future.

vi. i don’t believe in myself. well, i do. and now you do too because you started affirming that you believe in yourself.

vii. how do i affirm . . . just like how you think.

viii. . . and how do i feel that is true? you don’t have to feel. you are not casting a spell. you don’t have to be grounded. you are just thinking positive things that are about to shape what you see. think about them like you used to think about your negative ones. the positive ones do not have any different formula.

you want it to be easy, you have just to think of it. because it is. your mind is more powerful than you think, so why not using it for good instead?

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this reality pmo

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me when i’m in this reality