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Drunk Confessions pt. 6

Felix x Female reader

Word count: 1.4K

Synopsis: Felix breaks the golden rule when drunk. Stay away from your phone.

A/N: 18+ ONLY! I promised you guys I'd finish this series and by god I mean to! I'm in a slightly better head space so I'm gonna try and do some writing and see where we get! Thanks for waiting so patiently and showing my old work plenty of love while I've been off. Warnings below the cut!

Warnings: 18+ ONLY MDNI! strong language/cursing, drinking/getting drunk. That's it coming back a little tame. If I did happen to miss something let me know and I'll add it asap!

When you woke up you did what you did every morning. Out of habit, the first thing you did was check your phone. This morning when you checked you had 5 missed texts, one missed call, and a voice memo, all from your best friend, Felix. You read through the texts that got progressively harder to read the drunker he’d gotten into the night. It made you laugh. You were glad he’d been out having a good time with the guys. He didn’t get to do that often with how hard they all worked. Last night they had decided to go out drinking and ended up staying out and clubbing all night.

The voice memo was clearly from when they’d already gotten home because the first thing you could hear was all the rest of the guys goofing off in the background playing video games.

“y/n... hey... uhhh... GOD will you guys shut up I’m trying to talk in here! Uh y/n! You’re asleep already. I bet you look like an angel you always look like an angel when you’re sleeping.”

Sure you thought to yourself, face down in a pillow, drooling like an angel.

“You’re so beautiful and funny and sweet oh my gosh you’re so sweet and you cook good food for me and the guys and your hair smells like coconuts and the beach and it reminds me of home and I remember the first time I laid eyes on you at work and...” Just then you heard Chan’s voice come over the speaker.

“Felix what are you doing bro?”

“I’m sending y/n a voice memo. Chan says hi, anyway, I can’t tell you that you make my heart feel funny when I think about you...”

“Uhhh Felix I don’t think you want to...” Felix gave Chan a stupid look.

“Chan it’s not polite to interrupt.” Chan laughed.

“You’re right mate, continue.” Chan walked back out and Felix tried to pull himself together a bit, unsuccessfully.

“Look y/n... I love you. I am in love with you. I’m so completely and utterly over the moon in love with you. From the moment I met you. It was love at first sight for me, I didn’t even know your name but you were glowing and laughing and I felt my heart jump for the first time and it has every time I’ve seen you since. I hope one day I can tell you, that I can kiss you, marry you. I see all that with you I just don’t want to ruin what we have. We’re so close and you’re my best friend and I couldn’t bare losing you and honestly I’m afraid of what your answer would be. I know you care for me, love me even, but I just don’t know if you’re in love with me. God I’m rambling at this point, you’d think I was a drunken fool... well I am.” Just then you could hear Chan walk in again.

“Seriously mate I don’t think you want to send that...”

“I’m not Chan I’m gonna dele-” The message cut off and you could only imagine the absolute chaos that ensued after Felix accidentally hit send. He looked away from the phone for 2 seconds and unintentionally let up off the mic button which then sent the voice memo. Straight to you. Your heart was ready to burst. He was in love with you?! That had to have been the sweetest confession you’d ever heard. You were glad Felix’s silly drunk self sent you the voice memo before he realized what he was doing. You were getting ready to dial Felix’s number but before you could his contact photo popped up showing he was calling you. You answered immediately.

“Y/n?! Hey...”

“Hiya Lixie! You're up awfully early considering...” Your smile was in your voice and Felix couldn’t help but smile too until he remembered why he was calling.

“Uh yea... y/n... I sent a voice memo last night do me a favor... just delete it. Don’t listen to it just... please just delete it.” You could hear the worry in his voice.

“Felix? I... I already heard it.” The wind was knocked from him, you could hear it over the phone as he let out a big breath.

“Y-you already listened to it?!”

“Well yeah Lixie you know the first thing I do is...” Click. Did he just? Hang up on you? You looked at the phone and saw your home screen. You sighed and called him back. No answer. You called again. No answer. You called again. Straight to voicemail. So dramatic. You called Chan and a grumbly hungover voice answered.

“Mhello?”

“Chan it’s y/n. Is Felix home?” Chan wasn’t sure.

“Hold on. LIX!!!” You could hear him shout back.

“WHAT??!” Chan breathed deeply into the phone.

“Myea he’s here.”

“Good I’m on my way, keep him there and do NOT tell him I’m coming.”

“Y/n I...”

“Chan.” He groaned out tired.

“Finnnneee!” You smiled.

“Thanks Channie! See you soon!”

“Mhmm see you soon.” You quickly washed up and got dressed before heading over to the guys’ place. You knocked on the door and were met by the same groggy Chan you’d spoken to on the phone.

“Is Felix still here? You didn’t tell him did you?” Chan rubbed his eyes and shook his head no.

“No I didn’t, he’s in the living room with Hyunjin and Changbin watching something on tv.” Chan moved out of the way letting you in and yawning as he shut the door behind you. You came around the corner into the living room and Felix saw you. You’d have thought he’d seen a ghost how big his eyes got.

“Lix-” He got up and dashed out of the living room heading to his own room, shutting and locking the door. The guys looked at you and you rolled your eyes exasperated.

“What was that all about?” Hyunjin finally asked.

“Lix sent me a voice memo last night...” Chan started laughing.

“Oh god I forgot.” You glared at Chan.

“Don’t laugh, he’s embarrassed and won’t talk to me because of it.” Chan stopped laughing and wiped his eyes.

“It’ll be okay as soon as you tell him.” You stood there with your arms crossed.

“What do you mean? Tell him what?”

“Well, you love him too, don’t you?” You stood there speechless for a second.

“What did you think it wasn’t obvious? You both are so ridiculous. If he hadn’t accidentally sent that to you who knows how long this would have gone on.” You stood there a moment and then just shook your head. You made your way towards Felix’s room to try and get him to talk to you. You tapped at the door.

“Lixie? Please talk to me.”

“No Felix here!” He called through the door. Then a thought hit you. What if he wasn’t just embarrassed? Was he avoiding you because he regretted sending it? You don’t think your heart could take it if it wasn’t true. If he didn’t really love you.

“Are you ashamed that you sent it? Did you... did you not mean it?” He could hear the pain and worry in your voice.

“If you didn’t mean it it’s... it’s okay. I’ll just... I’ll just go.” You should have thought this plan through better before dashing over. Felix quickly opened his door.

“Wait!” You stopped and turned back.

“I’m not ashamed and I did mean it.” You let out a little sigh of relief.

“Felix I came over here to tell you that I love you too.” Felix stood there stunned.

“What?”

“I love you too Lixie. I always have. How could I not fall in love with the most beautiful and kindest man I've ever met?” Tears were welling up in your eyes and Felix grabbed your hand.

“I meant every word I said on that voice memo last night. I’m madly in love with you y/n...” Before he could go on you leaned in and pressed your lips against his. One of his hands came up and cupped your cheek and he kissed you back sweetly.

“Told you.” You and Felix jumped at Chan’s voice.

“Jesus! Announce yourself when you enter a room.” You scolded Chan as Felix blushed and rubbed the back of his neck.

“I entered the hallway to go to the bathroom I didn’t realize that warranted an announcement. My apologies.” Chan said sarcastically before heading into the bathroom.

"Behold bathroom I have arrived! Fear me!" He shut the door as he continued announcing himself boisterously leaving you and Felix alone again. You both stood there awkwardly for a second before Felix cleared his throat.

“Uh, why don’t we go and have some breakfast and talk a bit.” The smile spread across your face again.

“I’d like that Lixie, I’d like that a lot.”

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SKZ Drunk

Confessions Series

Part 1 - Chan

Part 2 - Minho

Part 3 - Hyunjin

Part 4 - Changbin

Part 5 - Jisung

Part 6 - Felix

Part 7 - Seungmin

Part 8 - Jeongin

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Drunk Confessions pt. 6

Felix x Female reader

Word count: 1.4K

Synopsis: Felix breaks the golden rule when drunk. Stay away from your phone.

Warnings: 18+ ONLY MDNI! strong language/cursing, drinking/getting drunk. That's it coming back a little tame. If I did happen to miss something let me know and I'll add it asap!

The voice memo was clearly from when they’d already gotten home because the first thing you could hear was all the rest of the guys goofing off in the background playing video games.

“y/n... hey... uhhh... GOD will you guys shut up I’m trying to talk in here! Uh y/n! You’re asleep already. I bet you look like an angel you always look like an angel when you’re sleeping.”

Sure you thought to yourself, face down in a pillow, drooling like an angel.

“Felix what are you doing bro?”

“I’m sending y/n a voice memo. Chan says hi, anyway, I can’t tell you that you make my heart feel funny when I think about you...”

“Uhhh Felix I don’t think you want to...” Felix gave Chan a stupid look.

“Chan it’s not polite to interrupt.” Chan laughed.

“You’re right mate, continue.” Chan walked back out and Felix tried to pull himself together a bit, unsuccessfully.

“Seriously mate I don’t think you want to send that...”

“Y/n?! Hey...”

“Hiya Lixie! You're up awfully early considering...” Your smile was in your voice and Felix couldn’t help but smile too until he remembered why he was calling.

“Uh yea... y/n... I sent a voice memo last night do me a favor... just delete it. Don’t listen to it just... please just delete it.” You could hear the worry in his voice.

“Felix? I... I already heard it.” The wind was knocked from him, you could hear it over the phone as he let out a big breath.

“Y-you already listened to it?!”

“Mhello?”

“Chan it’s y/n. Is Felix home?” Chan wasn’t sure.

“Hold on. LIX!!!” You could hear him shout back.

“WHAT??!” Chan breathed deeply into the phone.

“Myea he’s here.”

“Good I’m on my way, keep him there and do NOT tell him I’m coming.”

“Y/n I...”

“Chan.” He groaned out tired.

“Finnnneee!” You smiled.

“Thanks Channie! See you soon!”

“Mhmm see you soon.” You quickly washed up and got dressed before heading over to the guys’ place. You knocked on the door and were met by the same groggy Chan you’d spoken to on the phone.

“Is Felix still here? You didn’t tell him did you?” Chan rubbed his eyes and shook his head no.

“Lix-” He got up and dashed out of the living room heading to his own room, shutting and locking the door. The guys looked at you and you rolled your eyes exasperated.

“What was that all about?” Hyunjin finally asked.

“Lix sent me a voice memo last night...” Chan started laughing.

“Oh god I forgot.” You glared at Chan.

“Don’t laugh, he’s embarrassed and won’t talk to me because of it.” Chan stopped laughing and wiped his eyes.

“It’ll be okay as soon as you tell him.” You stood there with your arms crossed.

“What do you mean? Tell him what?”

“Well, you love him too, don’t you?” You stood there speechless for a second.

“Lixie? Please talk to me.”

“Are you ashamed that you sent it? Did you... did you not mean it?” He could hear the pain and worry in your voice.

“If you didn’t mean it it’s... it’s okay. I’ll just... I’ll just go.” You should have thought this plan through better before dashing over. Felix quickly opened his door.

“Wait!” You stopped and turned back.

“I’m not ashamed and I did mean it.” You let out a little sigh of relief.

“Felix I came over here to tell you that I love you too.” Felix stood there stunned.

“What?”

“I love you too Lixie. I always have. How could I not fall in love with the most beautiful and kindest man I've ever met?” Tears were welling up in your eyes and Felix grabbed your hand.

“Told you.” You and Felix jumped at Chan’s voice.

“Jesus! Announce yourself when you enter a room.” You scolded Chan as Felix blushed and rubbed the back of his neck.

“I entered the hallway to go to the bathroom I didn’t realize that warranted an announcement. My apologies.” Chan said sarcastically before heading into the bathroom.

“Uh, why don’t we go and have some breakfast and talk a bit.” The smile spread across your face again.

“I’d like that Lixie, I’d like that a lot.”

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AU Series

Bang Chan- Office Space (first touch)

Lee Minho- Thinking Out Loud (telepathy)

Seo Changbin- A Familiar Face (only remember S.M. face from past life)

Hwang Hyunjin- Love Letters to Who (you and your S.M. write back and forth in a journal)

Han Jisung- The Sound of Silence (deaf until you hear your S.M. voice)

Lee Felix- Why Does it Hurt (feel what your S.M. feels)

Kim Seungmin- The Enemy of my Enemy (soulmate & enemy's names)

Yang Jeongin- Color Theory (only see black and white until you meet your S.M.)

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The Final Straw

Stray Kids x afab reader (a little Bang Chan x reader)

Word count: 4400+

A/N: This has been sitting in my WIP folder forever so I finally polished, and finished it! I hope you all like it!

Summery: What happens when enough is enough and you finally have to tell the boys what's been happening in your relationship.

Warnings: Strong language/cursing, violence, mentions of domestic abuse, mentions of injuries, self loathing/self doubt. (If any of these things can be triggering please do not read and if I missed anything PLEASE let me know!)

That was it. The last straw. This was the last time you were calling Lee Minho to come get you because your boyfriend Lance, correction, ex-boyfriend Lance’s temper got out of control. It was the last time you were letting him put his hands on you. Every time before you called Minho to come get you, you would beg him not to make a big deal out of it and to not tell the other guys. Especially not Chan who was wildly protective of you. It wasn’t going to be that easy this time. All the other times you were able to placate Minho with excuses. ‘It was just an argument’ ‘he was getting loud’ ‘he was saying nasty things so I just wanted to leave.’ The truth was he had slowly been getting more physical with you for a while now and for whatever reason when he apologized you believed him, you would accept it and go back. Every time he said it would never happen again you would actually believe him but you told yourself after this time it would really never happen again. You weren’t listening to his empty apologies and excuses anymore. You were worried about when Minho got there though. Usually, everything was easy enough to hide. Long sleeves that covered bruises on your wrists and arms left by too tight a grip or a little color corrector for a bruise by your eye or on your cheek when he slapped you. No one would know the difference. You had gotten quite good at hiding it. The guys would never know, you made sure of that. Not this time though. This time your bottom lip was split. It was swollen and from the top of the fullest part of your lip to almost the dip in your chin was a cut. Your eye was turning a sickly greenish yellow, sure to be a black eye later and on the opposite side of your face was a bruise and a cut on your cheek. The black eye and cuts had come from your ex’s ring when he decided an open-handed slap just wouldn’t cut it this time. So there was no hiding it. You were waiting in the lobby with your hood pulled up and a bag of clothes when Minho pulled up. He put the car in park and got out to grab your bag for you. You tried to keep your head down, your hood pulled tight. You tried to keep him from seeing your face but when he got a good look at you Minho’s face went ridged. He tossed your bag in the back seat, turned on his heels and headed towards the building door. You ran to him with tears in your eyes and grabbed his arm pleading with him.

“No Minho! Don’t! Please let’s just go!” Minho looked at you. He wanted nothing more than to give Lance a taste of his own medicine but you looked exhausted and scared. Unwilling to be the one to further the distress you were already in he nodded and turned back towards the car. Minho opened your door and helped you in before getting in the driver’s side and heading towards the dorm. The car ride was quiet for the most part aside from the radio playing softly. Minho would steal a glance over at you from time to time but your eyes were closed and you were appreciating the feeling of the cool window against the bruise on the side of your face. When you opened your eyes again you realized how close you were to the dorm and started to get antsy. As if he could read your mind Minho spoke up.

“The rest of the guys are at the gym and the studio. I was the only one off for a doctor’s appointment today so don’t worry about getting bombarded.” You let out a sigh of relief knowing you didn’t have to walk into a room full of men that, while they would have your best interest at heart, would want answers as to why you looked the way you did. Answers you weren’t sure you could give, that you weren’t sure you had.

“Thanks Minho.” He quirked his eyebrow at you as he pulled into a parking spot.

“For what?” You leaned over and hugged him tightly once the car was stopped. He hugged you back.

“For always knowing what I need even when I don’t.” Minho pulled back and gave you a tense smile.

“Well, if I always knew I’d have seen what was going on before now. I should have.” You shook your head as you felt guilt creeping up on you for keeping your friends in the dark about what had been going on with you.

“No Minho you couldn’t have. I was foolish and made sure of that.” Minho looked at you seriously.

“The only fool in this situation is Lance.” He said bitterly.

“You’re like my little sister Y/N. I’ll always do what I can to protect you. Right now, I don’t want you to worry about explanations, not for me and not for the guys. I know they can be a lot at the best of times let alone in a stressful situation and I don’t want you to worry about THAT right now. Let’s just get you up to the dorm and settled. We can worry about what to tell the guys after.” Minho grabbed your bag as you got out of the car and you both made your way up to the dorm. When you walked through the door your heart plunged to your stomach. You saw very familiar shoes by the door. Someone was home already.

“Minho? Is that you man?” CHAN. You really weren’t ready for this. You looked at Minho with pleading eyes but he wasn’t sure how to help in this situation. There would be no getting you past Chan to the spare room without him noticing you AND the way you looked. Before you both could even try and think of any way to keep Chan from realizing you were there, he rounded the corner and saw you.

“Oh! Hey Y/N I didn’t know you were…” Chan’s words stopped short when he saw the cuts and bruises on your face.

“Oh my god! What happened?!” He walked towards you his hands outstretched. You could feel tears welling up in your eyes already. How were you going to explain how stupid you’ve been for allowing this to happen? Before you could try and get words to form Minho’s hand came up to the small of your back and gave you a gentle nudge to walk on past Chan.

“Go get settled Y/N. I’ll make some ramen while you do.” You listened to Minho and took the opportunity to do just that. You walked past Chan your eyes downcast as you did. Chan’s hands fell back to his sides and you felt his eyes follow you, worry and confusion etched on his face. While you unpacked the few things you brought in the spare room Minho started grabbing a pan and filling it with water to boil as Chan followed him into the kitchen.

“What the hell is going on Minho?” Chan’s voice was firm but Minho could hear the worry he was trying to hide. Minho shook his head.

“You need to give her a minute Hyung. I didn’t know you were home already and she’s not prepared to get into it just yet.”

“Get into what? What happened? Why can’t you just tell me?” Minho gave Chan a serious look.

“Because I don't even know the whole story and it’s not my place Hyung. Please be patient. When are the other guys due back?” Chan let out a huff of air frustrated with Minho’s vague answers.

“Maybe an hour or so I guess. Why?”

“Because you know as well as I do they’re gonna be worse than you when they see she’s here and the state she’s in. I want to make sure she’s as ready for that as she can be before they get here.” Chan nodded. He could definitely understand that. He grabbed an ice pack out of the freezer and headed towards the spare room you were currently in as Minho continued to start your ramen.

“Chan Hyung!” Chan turned and Minho looked at him seriously.

“Don’t pry, give her time.” Chan shook his head in understanding and went on. When he got to your door he knocked gently.

“Y/N? I have an ice pack. May I come in?” You opened the door and allowed Chan to enter. He handed you the ice pack and you turned away from him as you put it against your bruised eye.

“Thank you.” Your voice was small and you wouldn’t look him in the eyes. Chan had never seen you like this. You were always smiling and confident, laughing. It tore him apart inside seeing you like this and as much as he wanted to ask questions Minho’s voice echoed in his head. ‘Don’t pry’ ‘give her time’.

“You’re welcome. Minho is starting the water for your noodles now. Why don’t you get showered and into something comfy before the guys come home and use up all the hot water?” You nodded. No words and still unable to bring yourself to look Chan in the eyes. You set out a big t shirt and some sweat pants before heading towards the bathroom. Icepack still pressed against your face and Chan made his way back out to the kitchen. You were still in the shower when the rest of the guys came piling in the dorm about thirty minutes later.

“Who’s in the shower Hyung?” Hyunjin asked as he flopped into the nearest chair. Chan and Minho looked at each other and Minho answered.

“Y/N.” Felix squealed in excitement.

“Oh! Yay! Are we having a movie night?!” Chan shook his head no.

“I don’t think so Felix.” Felix’s face fell into a pout. He loved movie nights with you, they all did. If you weren’t there for a movie night then why? When you came out of the bathroom you had one towel wrapped around your hair, another around your body, steam following you out. You looked up and saw all eight of the guys standing there looking at you. The six that had not yet seen you saw your face, hair tucked away and nothing to block any of the cuts and bruises. All their faces fell with concern. Not a single one was able to say anything before you turned and rushed to your room. Tears falling from your eyes as quickly as they welled up. You weren’t ready. Not yet. You hadn’t even had a chance to tell Minho what happened. You still couldn’t look Chan in the face. Now they were all there looking at you with those eyes. Those ‘poor thing’ eyes and they didn’t even know what happened yet. How were you going to do this? You heard a light tapping at your door. You sniffled getting ready to tell who ever it was to please go away.

“It’s me. I have your ramen.” It was Minho with your soup. You hid behind the door and opened it letting him in. When he saw your tears, he sat your ramen on the side table and pulled you in for a hug.

“Take your time. Eat your food but then I think you should come out and that we all should discuss what happened today. When you’re ready. I really think it will help if you get it all off your chest.” You nodded into Minho’s chest and wiped your eyes. When he left you could hear him and Chan out in the living room with the other guys.

“Look I know you all have questions. Trust me, I have the same questions but bombarding her before she’s had a chance to collect herself isn’t going to help.” Minho continued what Chan was saying.

“We only got here a bit before you guys came home so give her a moment. You all stink. Take your showers make some food and give her some time.” Everyone listened and did what Minho told them to do including you. You took your time. You got dressed, ate, dried your hair, and thought long and hard about exactly what you were going to say. You tried to not to let thoughts of how disappointed they all would be, disappointed for you to allow something like this to happen, to cloud your judgement. You tried to tell yourself they loved you and wouldn’t possibly blame you but you blamed yourself so it was hard to not imagine those scenarios. When your noodles were gone and you finally heard the shower stop and things start to settle in the dorm you decided it was now or never. You mustered up all the strength and courage you had and left your room for the first time since the guys had gotten home. When you walked out into the living room all the guys were sitting together quietly talking about their days. Chan noticed you first. You finally forced yourself to look at him and he gave you one of his tight-lipped smiles and patted the empty spot between him and Minho on the couch. You rushed over and nuzzled into his side, holding onto his arm, burying your face into his shoulder. Minho grabbed the blanket off the back of the couch and threw it over your shoulders. You sat there a moment with your face hidden by Chan wondering where to start. When you looked up you saw everyone’s eyes on you which you were more prepared for this time. You took a deep breath.

“Okay…. I don’t know how to go about saying this or where to start.” Chan grabbed your hand and intertwined his fingers with yours giving it a reassuring squeeze. You could feel the tears pricking your eyes already and you hadn’t even gotten into anything that had happened yet. You looked down at Chan’s hand laced with yours and started picking at the cuticles of his fingernails nervously. Minho wrapped his arm around your shoulder trying to reassure you that you were safe to speak here.

“Lance…he…” You didn’t think the room could get any quieter than it already was but all the breath seemed to stop as soon as you uttered Lance’s name. The air got thicker as everyone was certain of the next words you were about to say.

“We’ve been fighting a lot for a while now, todays was especially bad. He was calling me names and screaming, throwing things, breaking things. It all escalated so quickly and before I knew what was happening, he had me pinned down and…” The words were coming out so fast and you sobbed when you went to take a breath in. You felt Chan tense next to you. He was using all his will power to keep himself in control, to stay calm for you, when all he wanted to do was walk out of that dorm, find Lance, and beat him to death. Instead, he leaned over, planted a kiss on top of your head, and squeezed you tighter. You knew they all knew what you were trying to say but you still couldn’t bring yourself to say the words ‘Lance hit me.’ You cried harder and buried your face in Chan’s hoodie again. Felix, sitting on the floor directly in front of you, grabbed your foot and started rubbing it, skin ship the only thing he could think to offer to try and make you feel some kind of comfort. Hyunjin, also sitting on the floor, scooched closer and rested his head against your other leg as Minho rubbed circles softly on your back trying to calm you. Changbin was sitting in a chair across the way fuming, anger just radiating off of him. He was always so reserved with his emotions, especially his anger, but now he had pure hate boiling inside him. Hyunjin and Jisung both were fighting to stop the tears in their eyes, unable to understand how anyone could do something like that to you. Seungmin, always a level headed person, was the one to speak up first.

“What’s important is that once things got physical you got yourself out of there Y/N.” Minho’s eyes met Seungmin’s. He had no way of knowing for sure, you hadn’t told him otherwise, but Minho had a good idea from all the other times you had called him that this was not the only time. He shook his head at Seungmin. When the realization hit Seungmin he bit his tongue but the words already hung in the air.

“Unfortunately, Seungmin I wasn’t that smart. Today was not the first time.” Just like that Minho’s fears were confirmed. Everyone’s hearts sank. How could they not have seen it? How could this be going on under all their noses and not one of them notice? Chan was beating himself up inside of course. He was supposed to protect you and he hadn't. He felt awful. Then your intrusive thoughts started coming out like vomit. You couldn’t stop the words that were forming in your head from coming out of your mouth.

“He kept saying it would never happen again and I believed him! How could I be so stupid?!! How could I believe someone that would do something like this to me?!!!” Your voice was getting louder and louder but you were only yelling at yourself.

“Maybe I deserved it if I couldn’t see what was really happening! I deserved it for believing such an obvious lie!”

“NO!” Changbin who had been completely silent in his chair up until that point yelled as he stood from his seat fuming.

“No! You did not deserve that! Don’t ever say that!” He wasn’t trying to yell AT you. He just wanted you to stop saying such awful things about yourself. To stop saying such horrible, untrue things. You froze for a moment, in shock by his outburst. Changbin was always so sweet and soft spoken with you. You couldn’t recall anytime he’d ever raised his voice at you so when you heard him shout it broke the last bit of the damn that had been holding you together. You clung to Chan again and utterly broke down as he wrapped his arms around you tightly. Chan shot Changbin a look and Changbin stood there, he instantly regretted raising his voice at you. He wasn’t mad at you of course. He was pissed at Lance and upset you spoke so poorly of yourself when they all cared so much for you.

“Y/N… I’m… I’m sorry… I didn’t mean…” Chan put up a hand and shook his head as if to say ‘it’s okay’. He knew better than anyone what Changbin was feeling, Minho too. They both wanted nothing more than to do to Lance what he’d done to you but they understood at this point it would do no good. It would help nothing; it especially wouldn’t help you.

“I think it’s best we all take a moment and cool down.” Minho suggested. As soon as he did Changbin made a b line out the door of the dorm with Minho hot on his heels. The others got up and started cleaning up the kitchen from dinner. Chan sat on the couch with you, holding you until you thought you couldn’t possibly cry anymore. When the tears finally stopped you stayed in his arms taking deep breaths trying to even out your breathing being somewhat soothed by the sweet smell of his cologne.

“You know Changbin didn’t mean it. Yelling at you I mean.” You shook your head. You knew.

“I know. I also know I really didn’t deserve that. Just sometimes my mind tricks me into thinking that there was something I did wrong, something I could have done to achieve a different outcome but I know that’s not true really. It was Lance, not me.” Chan shook his head in agreement to that as he squeezed you closer to him. Just then Minho burst back through the front door.

“Hyung! We have a problem!” Chan moved you aside quickly and got up from the couch to meet Minho by the door. He was out of breath trying to keep his voice down not to panic you while trying to get words to come out.

“Changbin... we went outside to get some air and… Lance! He showed up looking for Y/N!” Chan looked over his shoulder at you. He saw your face, you heard. You shook as you made yourself as small as possible on the couch, hiding yourself in the blanket Minho had put on you before.

“Hyung!” Chan’s attention flew back to Minho and he continued.

“Lance started saying horrible things about how he knew he’d find Y/N here. That he knows she’s sleeping with one or all of us. He was calling her terrible names and Changbin.... he attacked him. He is down there beating the shit out of him right now Hyung! I couldn’t get him off him alone! I need your help!” Chan slid shoes on quickly and pointed at Han.

“Jisung go make sure Y/N is alright! All of you stay here! We’ll be right back!” Chan and Minho rushed out the door and down to the bottom floor. When they got out to the street, they saw Lance hunched down on the ground and Changbin kicking him in the ribs.

“How the fuck. Could you. Put your hands. On Y/N like that! You. Piece. Of shit!” His words were punctuated with kicks in between.

“Someone. As good. As her!!!” Changbin climbed on top of Lance and started punching at his arms he had up trying to block his face. Chan grabbed one of Changbin’s arms and Minho grabbed the other. It took all their strength to pull him off Lance. Changbin was practically frothing at the mouth.

“If you ever show your face, if you even so much as breath her name! I will fucking kill you!” Lance stood up gasping for air, face bloody. He opened his mouth about to say something again. Chan was ready to square up this time and Minho interrupted Lance before he could speak.

“If you know what’s good for you, you won’t say whatever it is you’re thinking of saying and just leave. If I couldn’t stop Changbin alone you think I can stop both of them?” Lance looked at Chan and Changbin who both looked ready to go blow for blow with him. He scowled, spit blood on the curb and walked away without another word as Felix, Seungmin, and Jeongin rushed out the building doors.

“Everyone! Upstairs NOW!” Chan yelled at the others as he tried to calm himself back down and help Minho practically drag Changbin inside.

Back in the dorm Jisung rocked you, petting your hair and cooing in your ear telling you everything was gonna be okay. That Chan and Minho were handling it and that Changbin was gonna be alright. Anything to get you to try and calm down. Truthfully you were terrified that Lance would hurt them, get in somehow and hurt you again too. NONE of the guys would ever allow that but you weren’t thinking clearly in the moment. When the door burst open Hyunjin jumped and it made you almost leap out of your skin and Jisung’s arms. When you realized it was the maknaes you only had one question.

“Where’s Changbin… Chan… Minho?” Felix, Seungmin, and Jeongin looked around.

“They were just behind us a minute ago.” Your mind went into over drive. Were they hurt? Did Lance do something after the others had come back up? You clutched on to Jisung’s shirt in a panic.

“Sungie please! Make sure they’re alright!” Jisung nodded and hurried from the couch out the front door almost running directly into the other three men. Chan was trying to get Changbin to get a grip before they went back into the apartment.

“Get a hold of yourself Binnie! Going in there like this isn’t going to help!”

“He’s right Changbin.” Jisung agreed.

“You have to get a hold of yourself now. She’s in there in a panic and we need you to calm yourself and go let her know you’re okay. Do you hear me Binnie?! She needs us right now!” Changbin nodded and took some deep breaths. His breathing had evened out but his hands were still shaking when the four of them finally went back into the apartment. Felix and Jeongin had you in their arms taking over where Jisung had been before rushing out to check on the eldest of the group. When you looked up and saw Changbin you leaped from the couch and ran towards him throwing your arms around his neck and sobbing into his chest. He pulled you tightly against him.

“It’s okay Y/N, I’m okay. I’m so so sorry if I scared you.” You shook your head; he could never scare you.

“I was scared FOR you Binnie never OF you. NEVER of you! Are you okay?” Changbin melted right there unable to control his own tears any longer. Here you were, after all you’d been through and him making a difficult situation worse with his behavior and you were asking HIM if he’s okay. It just made it that much harder to understand how anyone could ever hurt you like that. You all talked a while longer and once everyone calmed down exhaustion from the day hit. Chan decided it was time to call it and for you all to try to get a good night’s rest. As you all broke off to go to your respective rooms you stopped Chan at your door.

“Chan…..” You were nervous to ask him your question.

“Yea Y/N? What is it? Do you need anything?” He asked voice still full of concern.

“Well… would you… would you lay with me? Just until I fall asleep? You don’t have to but…” Chan smiled and cut you off.

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“Of course I will baby girl. Anything for you.” Chan followed you into the spare room you were staying in. You both climbed into the bed and curled up under the blankets. Your back against Chan’s chest, his arms securely around you. You weren’t sure what was next or what this new beginning in your life had in store for you but what ever happened you knew you could get through it with the love and support of your boys. Knowing that, you were able to relax into Chan and fall asleep. More at peace than you had been in a long time.

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