sleepingspongekoala

[sleepingspongekoala]

5/5/22

Mahal na mahal kita.

-P

[sleepingspongekoala]

1/3/22

I miss you, so much.

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4 / 21 / 21

Daily appreciation post:

I love you, everyday love.

-P

[sleepingspongekoala]

01 24 21

You are, and always will be.

-P

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01 10 21

I miss you.

-P

[sleepingspongekoala]

To the one that got away,

I wrote this letter with a lot of emotions inside of me. There’s a lot of pain, heartaches, and full of what ifs. But also, I’m writing this because I’m happy that you’re the Bestfriend that would forever be the girl that could have been the one. 

I want to cradle your head on my chest. So that you may never forget, the heart that chose you over and over until the very end. And just because we can’t be together, that doesn’t mean I won’t still love you. You were the battle I hoped to win. Sadly, we cannot force people to love us back the way we wanted it to be. I’m sorry it happened and you felt nothing while I felt everything. But ironically, I would do it all over again. You know what, I think the pain you feel in losing someone you love never really goes away -- it just can’t happen. That’s impossible because you cannot just switch your emotions off. I think what happens is that you just learn to ignore the pain, to live with it, to stuck it up and tell it to fuck off. But the pain is there to stay. That is why when we hear a certain song, see a certain face, or be in a place that reminds us of the person we used to be with -- it will all come crashing down. It doesn’t matter if you were able to keep the pain for the longest time because the pain will be as raw as if it were only yesterday. You were supposed to be the one that would never have a chance to hurt me because you were my best friend. But you found a way. And just like that, I lost you.

I’ve been asking myself a lot of questions. What happened? What went wrong? What didn’t I do right? Why does it end? And I’ll I’m getting is, “All I did was to try to make it last while protecting what we have.” What if I never said it? Or is this the prize of trying? I tried even when everything is in complete chaos. I hold on to something that is too loose. I’m a believer that this love is worth a try. But I never heard this kind of ending. When the one who gambles for another hello, loses another goodbye. It’s like going through another war still wounded and then getting hurt again. The worst is, the one who breaks your heart was the least person who you’d ever expect. So is this what happened to the person who’s only fault was to love? I hope not.. I’m barely making it in being okay by myself. And I believe that people who gives their all, deserves the best. Maybe not now, but eventually..

I want to be completely honest with you, I loved you with every single fiber of my being. And I’m not good with metaphors so I’ll just tell you straight up that you were worth all the hurt. For the past three years, I have love you more than anyone else. Without asking for anything, I just want to be there beside you. Every time, and every day of my life. I want the whole world to know, that you are so beautiful inside and out. You are the most genuine, precious, and selfless person I’ve known in my life. You’ll do anything for anyone if you think that it’ll be good for them even if it’ll cost your friendship. And now the pages are crumbling, call me sentimental but it felt like losing one of the best chapters of my life. I wanna keep that. But losing the heartbreak means losing all the love that made me brave enough to risk it all. That’s what is happening and I have no power against it.

Beyond that, I ‘am so thankful that you came along, for being there with me, when nobody else was. For your simple constant efforts and gestures even there’s nothing to celebrate than it’s just the 1st day of the month. For always standing next to me when I was so blind to gave my everything to the wrong person. I will be forever grateful for you giving me happiness within numbered days.

It’s just sometimes the hardest thing and the right things are the same.. 

But always remember, YOU ARE WORTH IT. 

I love you, always and in all ways. 

-P

[sleepingspongekoala]

30 Sep 20

Hi Love,

I saw this on Facebook.

Same smiles, same food, same drink,

Same resto but just diff branch..

This should be the 3rd year that we could re-create this memory.

Unfortunately,

We’re not really talking again now.

I tried texting you that I miss you with an unknown number,

Hoping that you’ll remember me.

And for that I’m sorry.

I just really want to tell you how do I feel right now.

I miss you so bad 🥺

Please know that I’ll always wait for you, my Bestfriend.

“Magbago man lahat, pero hindi tayo”

Diba? 🤞🏻

I love you still, always.

-P

[sleepingspongekoala]

29 Sep 20

My Kk,

This is a continuous post from yesterday. ☺️

Everytime we talked about you having a boyfriend or anyone,

You always say these things that I shouldn’t be worried about you,

That you are already happy with what you have right now.

I just want you to be really happy.

I want to see you smiling,

Not only your lips but also your eyes.

Always remember that you’re too beautiful to be sad.

I love you, always and in all ways.

-P

[sleepingspongekoala]

28 Sep 20

Hi Kk,

I just remember this Biggie Koala,

I gave you this cos’ most of the time you won’t let me sleep beside you.

So instead of me,

I think you’ll prefer her. 😅

I hope you also miss her,

Like how much you miss your bed in Doha right now.

But I think,

You love your bed more than anything else.

I hope you could still sleep 18hrs a day so you wouldn’t have a bad day every waking up.

I miss you, Kk.

-P

[sleepingspongekoala]

27 Sep 20

I miss you, so much.

I don’t know if this is really want you want,

You’re so cold,

And I don’t know what to do anymore.

Slowly, I’m trying to accept the fact that things weren’t be the same like before.

I hope you’ll be happy with your decisions in life.

You don’t know how much I cried and prayed every night, every thursdays, and every fridays, for just a single text from you.

But received nothing..

I will always love you with all my heart.

Please be happy.

-P

[sleepingspongekoala]

26 Sep 20

xx February 2020 xx

Kk,

If I could go back in time,

Definitely this is one of those days.

Where in,

It’s just Me + You + Snow..

And that red circle over there,

I saw how happy and enjoyed you are playing and sliding all alone the ice.

I was even about to hit you,

But decided to sit myself in the ice and we were just laughing ourselves out.

Those happy days with you that I miss,

I really miss you a lot,

Everyday.

-P

[sleepingspongekoala]

25 Sep 20

Love,

Hello.

I’m tipsy.

But I want to tell you something..

I love you,

With all my heart.

So much.

And I do miss you,

So badly.

Please.

Please.

I want to be with you

Right now.

Always,

-P

[sleepingspongekoala]

24 Sep 20

Hello Love,

It was Valentines 2020 xx

I didn’t expect that you’ll give me something,

But in my surprise,

You have one for me.

As usual,

you’re always the first to give.

But you never fail to make me kilig.

I was thinking to give you a real flower bouquet,

But I don’t want to because it’s too common.

This one I made, esp only for you.

That’s how you love chickenjoy (in PH)

And I want to show you how special you are in just a simple thing like this.

I really hope you liked it.

So much love,

-P

[sleepingspongekoala]

23 Sep 20

Hi 👋🏻

Remember you sent me this lucky panda?

It was my assessment,

And I was really nervous..

Then you sent me this as a lucky charm,

And it worked! ☺️

I know it will,

Thank you always.

And know that I’m always lucky to have known you,

And as my bestfriend.

I miss you.

-P

[sleepingspongekoala]

22 Sep 20

Hi Love,

My bestfriend recommended this song to me before,

But I was not that affected when I listen to it back then.

But after everything happens,

I tried to listen to it once again.

My tears fell,

I can’t help it.

This is how I feel right now.

“And I will make sure to keep my distance,

Say I love you,

When you’re not listening.

..To save what we have.”

I miss you.

And I love you so,

Always.

-P

[sleepingspongekoala]

21 Sep 20

One of my favorite day xx

Our day tour in our favorite city,

R O M E.

Our 2nd destined flight together.

Super tiring day,

But this is one of the best I ever had.

I hope whatever you wish for to this coin will be granted.

All I wish that time is,

Not to lose you in my life, ever.

You are important to me since then.

I hope when we go back to work,

We could do this again.

I miss you so much.

Thank you for everything.

-P

[sleepingspongekoala]

20 Sep 20

Hi, again. 👋🏻

Early night dayss xx

Your fave place in BGC, I think.

We used to spent drinking here

When we’re in a layover and leave together.

But more on with your bestfriend.

Wish that we could drink together..

I miss everything about you.

Sad that,

I can’t see you now.

-P