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Ronan telling Adam "maybe I dreamt you" and Andrew telling Neil "you're a pipe dream" killed me and revived me. Like how do you just say that and move on? That's the greatest love confession I've ever heard. We're just gonna move on from that?

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officially deciding that this isn't getting finished so now you guys can have the full sketch with the andreil & jerejean we left out

i just need him to be loved haha....

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"I know chatgpt is bad but you just don't really have any choice" you literally do. Don't use it. Have some moral backbone.

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petition for jeremy to help jean get over his fear of water by simply blowing him every time jean has to get wet. likeee what better therapy could there possibly be than jeremy knox’s mouth?

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everything aside tho, I can't get over the fact that this is the first time jean has been so vocally protective of neil in front of someone else. and the person he chose was andrew, the person who mirrors jean's misplaced connection to neil, the foxes' number 3, the partner neil chose for himself when he escaped the life where jean would have been chosen for him.

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I did have to reread this part like three times to make sure I was seeing the words right

This is foreshadowing

I don’t care what anyone says

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nicky hemmick who left the safe place he’d found to try to build one for his cousins, even though he barely knew one and had never met the other, who sat neil down and made him confront the fact that exy couldn’t give him a fulfilling life on its own, who desperately wanted to believe that his parents might still love him when they reached out & later had a blowout fight with them on the courthouse steps in his cousin’s defense, who confirmed to neil that they were friends and was devastated at the idea that neil hadn’t known, who is unapologetically himself in response to finally feeling free after years of hiding, who survived because his german teacher saw him struggling and was concerned enough to give him options, who tried to take aaron’s side for years, even though aaron never let him, who earned andrew’s protection without making a deal with him, who plays best with his family at his back and by his side

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seth was so soooo full of life despite everything. He told Neil to fuck off till he learned to score against andrew, he pumped his fist and got really excited after Allison first asked him out. He always came back to Allison, he knew kevin wasnt worth more than him just because hes the son of exy, he wanted to propose to allison, he wanted to live so fucking badly, he was working through his shit with every fibre of his being he WANTED he WANTED TO LIVE

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"You could just use ai" yeah well I could also just kill you.

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cody and jean's friendship is genuinely so important to me, because how often do you think cody ever meets someone who doesn't acknowledge their transness on first instinct? because as a trans person, i can guarantee not once in their life has anyone ever been so nonchalant about their pronouns, and then here comes this 6'3 sheltered french man who most definitely has them internally bracing for questions ("they? but you're only one person." "yeah, but what are you really?" "she— he— oops, i mean they. sorry, it's just so hard for me!") but then they meet jean and all it takes is hearing their teammates use they/them once for him to pick it up effortlessly. jean, who's been sheltered in a cult his entire life. jean, who's too afraid of his own sexuality to even look at jeremy for too long. jean, whose native language has little to no accommodations to be gender neutral. jean would be the first person they'd expect to be confused or hostile, and they probably wouldn't even fault him for it if he was. but he isn't. he treats cody like a human being first and doesn't ask a single question as to why he should.

and then there's the other side of the coin. jean is used to his eating disorder being a topic of discussion by this point, and his fixations with numbers and measurements being scrutinized rather than gently counteracted. cat helps by teaching him to cook, and jeremy and laila try too, but even then he's still surrounded by nutrition facts and labels and calculations to lose himself in. but then cody notices, and they keep noticing, and as subtly as possible they start to find tiny things jean enjoys to brighten up his day. they ask cat what fruits he likes and bring him peaches and buckets of strawberries, snacks without a label to lose himself in or visible numbers to panic over. and they don't force him to have them, but they're visibly elated and encouraging when he does, and when he actually enjoys them. jean doesn't make cody feel like a burden for something they can't control, so cody refuses to do the same. they just want to help, to make sure he eats, and to make sure he enjoys eating.

and fuck, dude, i can't stop thinking about them.

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David Wymack: unfortunately it is my circus and it is always my monkeys

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"You sure?"

Aaron turned on Andrew. "I don't care if you're gay, and I don't care that you picked the literal most irritating person on the planet to fall for. I care that you're being a hypocrite."

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Neil shovel talking Jeremy this Neil shovel talking Jeremy that. Where are Jean’s flowers for shovel talking Andrew

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Even In Arcadia - the whole collection

Look to Windward Emergence

Past Self Dangerous

Caramel Even in Arcadia

Provider Damocles

Gethsemane Infinte Baths

Official art by: Alex Tillbrook

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jerejean

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I wonder if Jeremy had a favorite teacher in school. One he can feel comfortable with staying after class or something. What if he had one, and he stayed behind so frequently because he didn’t want to go back to that house where you can see your breath when you breathe. Imagine 12 or 13 year old Jeremy going to this teacher with a little present at the end of the school year to show his appreciation for being a friend. The teacher doesn’t know what’s going on at home, but they kept watching Jeremy’s journey. They watched his high school exy games. Imagine one day they hear that Jeremy is all over the news for a scandal. They are so confused because that’s not the sweet kid they knew in middle school! Yet, they silently never gave up on him. If anything, they feel bad that Jeremy was forced to come out publicly. The teacher keeps watching for the next four years. They become proud to ever knew of this special kid as they see him become the captain of the USC Trojans. The teacher keeps news clippings of each of their students, especially those that had an impact on them. They have so many news clippings of Jeremy, they are so proud of him for overcoming and becoming so strong.

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Reblogging bc I started today and I am in immense pain