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[slow-cheese]

september 21st 2023

its been a while since i been on here. tumblr that is. i felt like sharing a post. i only have two followers and thats enough for me because both of them are inactive. at least to my knowledge. im listening to ghost of your guitar solo by mj lenderman. such a beautiful track that i always come back to it just to be in a state of mind where the music takes control and i am nothing but the receiver. take me where you wanna go, ill follow.

whats so great about this song is that its a needle in the haystack, a real gem. i see the artist as of today has gained more listeners and im happy for them. a part of me is sad that this song might be one day over played by the internet so all i can do is just enjoy it to the fullest untill that day arrives. im honestly kind of a gate keeper. i like to share my gems with people special in my life.

i shared the song today because no one is reading this post and i am just writing my thoughts as they come down. primal is a really good show that i have been watching recently.

i dont know if ill ever post again. i downloaded tumblr on a whim, i went onto the app store to look for a game to play on my phone. something compelled me to, couldnt tell you what it was. as i was on the app store i saw tumblr coincidentally and just decided why not withought a second thought. im not on any social media so me going through my page (which was not much) and going through my two followers pages really got me thinking. specifically on one person

how are you ?

are you happy ?

its been a while and for some reason i really miss you

maybe its just the nostalgia kicking in on me, but i miss the days we walked home together and the days where all we did was nothing and talked. i miss your humor, you really knew how to make me laugh like no other. my sunshine, thats what you were to me. i see you in other people and i catch myself looking for you in them only to be later on disappointed that they are not you.

i feel like i am journaling right now and it feels nice. i know this isnt really private since its online but it feels nice enough to write all this out and have it be in a place where one day i know i can come back and read it... if you see this jessica i hope it wasnt weird to read and i want you to know i saw your wedding pictures. you looked beautiful in your wedding dress. it was like you were made to be in it. i hope you have a full life. dont be scared to make that step and dont let anyone bring you down.

you are pretty strong and really smart

[slow-cheese]

[slow-cheese]

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