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Witch aesthetic (1)

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people should give me money so i can get more tattoos and look hotter and sexier

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master of seeing boobs and going "yay!!!!"

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In return.

For your friendship.

That's what I must be. As good friend as you are.

Otherwise I'll never be worth of you.

You, who deserves all the best in the world.

Darkness has always been a part of our existence. We born from dark to dark, to find our place in this world. To look for the glimmer of light that would make life worth all of our searching.

We went to do this alone. And eventually some of us were lucky enough to find it.

Our own way and reason to be happy.

Someone other who was searching too.

A friend.

The other who became so dear to us and to whom we grow so dear. The other, in whose light the world wasn't so dark and lonely anymore.

In the glow of that other, we were happy. For a friend was healing some part of us that somehow felt sore and numb at the same time.

But it's possible that one day the glimmer of the other starts to feel too much. Too bright. Too beautiful. Something we cannot be worthy of.

Not someone like us. Who deep down feel so permanently broken.

Too broken. And as too broken, we don't know how to be there for the other as we should.

We can't find words of comfort to the other when the other needs it. We cannot bear part of the other's pain, for it mixes too much with our own pain.

We can barely breathe. How could we be something to someone who is more precious to us than anything?

That's why we may retreat back into the dark. To the place where we belong.

We may spend a moment or an eternity there. We don't know and we don't care. It's all just so comforting and safe.

While we're there, our friend can find something better than us. While we are there, at least we are not a burden to those we love.

It doesn't matter if we'd disappear for good.

And yet, our friend comes to find us. Shining brighter than ever.

Saying they wants to be our friend. No matter how broken we are.

That's our friend. Wanting to give us everything, even though we ourselves can give nothing in return.

How could one bear such a debt of gratitude?

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Do you know this debt of friendship?

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I need people to understand that sometimes autism is just this

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the urge to disappear vs the desire to be wanted and accompanied

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not gonna lie to you guys, having someone play with my hair would probably fix half of my problems

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wish i could call in bitchy to work

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"im gonna treat myself" says me, who has rarely, if ever, denied myself anything

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Share how your Autism and ADHD find a compromise. I'll go first:

Autism: Wants the same breakfast everyday 🤛

ADHD: Wants a new breakfast everyday 🤜

AuDHD: Will eat the same breakfast everyday, until I get tired of it and change to a new breakfast to eat everyday and so on. 🤝

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princess tiana aesthetic

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i hope you write (i hope we both write)

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Sorry, I could never be a capitalist, I suffer from “wanting humans to have their basic needs met” disorder, where I care about people who aren’t me.

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𝘳𝘢𝘪𝘯𝘺 𝘤𝘰𝘵𝘵𝘢𝘨𝘦𝘤𝘰𝘳𝘦 𝘮𝘰𝘰𝘥𝘣𝘰𝘢𝘳𝘥 ⋆.ೃ࿔⛈ ݁ ˖*༄