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Minty fresh.

It's worth mentioning that he took it really well. No lecture, no shock, no "I'm disappointed in you". Well done him.

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Minty.

I took the wrong mail over to Dad's tonight, gave him the Mint statement with all my stuff on it. Bad move.

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Pretty.

The St John Ambulance canvasser who called at the door tonight had such pretty brown eyes.

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My first Facebook friend removal.

HHH.

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And

Mom shit on the bathroom floor today. That's a first.

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Okay, I admit it.

I did cry while I was out. But not much.

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How many days without an entry?

Quite a few, which was a good sign. Until today. Not a good day. Woken up at 5:30 by Mom wandering into my room. Didn't get back to sleep. My mood has gotten worse as day progressed. Very nearly cried while I was out for a walk. Went to the woods where me and her once went. Blah. Tomorrow is another day.

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Another so-so day

Got a bit more done on the house, not nearly as much as I wanted, but hey, it's all progress. Found out I have some kind of leprosy - at least that's what it look like. Where I sun-burned the other day is peeling. Not only that, there are loads of little gray dots in my skin. Very strange.

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Slightly better today

Got a few things done around the house, but spent a lot of time online. On the plus side, I did have a good chat. SR is starting to open up with me, trust me - that feels good.

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This isn't a good day

I've got the house to myself for the first time in months, there's so much I could be doing, but I don't feel like doing any of it. I want to cry. I want to go to bed. I want to go to sleep. I want to not wake up.

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I don't know what to say

Not feeling great, lots on my mind. Where will it all end?

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The day started early

I was up shortly after 5 this morning, out the house before 6. It's been a busy day. And I'm pretty sunburnt.

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Didn't sleep so good

and had some weird dreams. Don't even know how I feel today. Part of me doesn't want to go on living, part of me does.

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Slept well last night

I think I finally managed to get to sleep before midnight and slept a good  fives hours solid.

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Ut-oh

Having another of those time when I can't form coherent sentences that say what I want them to say. The words are all there in my head, I'm unable to translate them onto the keyboard.

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Improvement?

Perhaps not quite so suicidal this morning. Spent a while chatting online last night. Was nice to talk to someone without any baggage, just as friends.

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Sunday morning

More resigned than suicidal, more asleep than awake.