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RAY TORO SIGHTING

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my chem dump from my sketchbook!

last img is based off of irl stuff between roommates.

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hesitate alien and lola (+bullets gerard)

last image is lola seeing revenge gerard and thinking he looks like their friend. i wanna make an au where they meet different versions of gerard…. kinda inspired by the bella muerte AU by glousst_ (twt)

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THEY ARE CONSTANTLY INVADING MY SKETCHBOOK!!!

i got new acrylic paint (top two) so of COURSE I had to use them… lola has become my “lets just take a break from art to draw” muse.

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poor phone quality art

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Hang em high is so peak for me cause I like vampires and cowboys. Oh I should play dead rails with my sister soon I'm terrible at it but it's so fun when you don't get killed by zombies immediately

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My mom made me wash my converse and now that the dirt on the top is cleared they fucking glow in the sun I hate it sm. And they're like so stiff now cause I had to replace them and the laces are rough and not soft and eusghshsgs

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I spoke in front of 100 people and didn't have a panic attack!

I spoke in front of 100 people and didn't have a panic attack!

This may not seem like a big deal to most of you. But, to me, it's huge. My entire life, I've been crippled by panic attacks in social situations. Over 50 years of being afraid to go to weddings or funerals or comic conventions.

But, 3 years ago, I was diagnosed as Autistic.

For 3 years, I've been learning about my disability and going through therapy, and taking steps to advocate for myself.

My panic attacks, it seems, we're triggered by overstimulation. My brain couldn't process all of the noises and smells and feelings and sights. It was too overwhelming, and my body/mind would shut down.

You can see I'm wearing noise canceling headphones. I bring them with me everywhere. It seems silly that this is all it took to stop the panic attacks. But... it works.

I got up and introduced myself, showed a couple videos, and read a whole chapter of my upcoming book (Becoming an Artist... coming out in November) with NO PANIC ATTACK!

I just thought I'd throw this little victory out into the world because we could all use a little victory from time to time.

Sending big hugs from the Hobbit Hole ❤️

Scott

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One day (not today) I will commit to adding color to my drawings in a way that doesn’t suck ass...my favorite part of this whole drawing was changing all the posters in my room to SLIGHTLY different versions of themselves...anyways Illi am I right

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joining the war on illi mcmillin on the side of illi mcmillin

inspired by @asmogorna's art :)

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caged for our protection

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Aw shucks

It's really silly that I hate anybody other than family using my nickname irl but I just toss out Vannu as my name online everywhere I think it's cause I semi regret choosing a name with the word smell in it. I got too attached to my among us user and now I gotta live with it ig

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It's really silly that I hate anybody other than family using my nickname irl but I just toss out Vannu as my name online everywhere I think it's cause I semi regret choosing a name with the word smell in it. I got too attached to my among us user and now I gotta live with it ig

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Sigh

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Man what if one day someone pulls up my Tumblr cause I use the same account name everywhere and it's pretty uncommon like I have a few people that know my little name irl I don't want them to listen to me ramble about scratches and English teachers and father issues

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Achoo

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Why do I have a random half scabbed wound on my hand how did it get there I don't remember. Maybe my brother scratched me he does that. Reminds me of this one time my old English teacher pulled me aside and asked me if I was okay cause I picked my skin and was very accident prone and my seventh grade self was oblivious like "yup !!!" She was a good English teacher she helped me right essay well she let me write an essay on Gerard way and then at the end of the School semester when I wouldn't have her class anymore when I went to thank her for teaching my dumbass for three years she brought up my essay and complimented it and she said it was very unique and well done and it would be one of those that she would remember. I have the paper in a folder in my old sketchbook. I wish I had a folder in my new sketchbook cause like I have a bunch of loose drawings that I never get around to glueing inside my sketchbook. Alright it's 1.12 in the morning gn maybe idk I'm wide awake idk why. It reminds me of this one time my dad said I might have sleeping issues and I was deathly afraid of having something wrong with me still am but eh and I started crying and my dad was trying to shush me because it was like 3 am. I definitely got my issues from my dad. Anyways goodnight I need to lick in tomorrow and clean everything up cause we have visitors oh and also colour this page I've been working on or starting a new drawing. It's been so hard finishing drawings I just wanna nap all day. Maybe that's why I can't sleep I nap a lot. Alright goodnight for now