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It just happened,

I kept falling and falling

All I think about is you.

Do you think of me too?

I build a wall with rhymes

I have guarded my heart,

but in every steps you make

the walls slowly falls apart.

-confession.

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I have so many questions to ask? but I can’t find the right questions to ask? ‘diba ang gulo.

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Hi, I hope all is well with you. I am aware that our recent interactions have not been all that frequent. Despite my desire to communicate with you, I will respect your privacy and time. Even though I'm aware that this note may not reach you, I still want you to know how important you are to me—not just as a friend. Please, always take care. ◐◯◑

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You can’t have all the things in the world. But, I believe that you can have all the things you deserve. Just learn to wait and continue on pursuing your dreams without losing faith in Him. Don’t compare your progress to others. Also, appreciate things no matter how they are simple. You will see, you will be happy and contented.

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“I want to be your lover, but I wish I can be braver. but sometimes I wonder, will the odds be in favor?”

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“Itong pag-ibig ay ‘di patas, marapat na hindi ipagtapat. Panahon ang siyang magwawakas.”

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They say, "Love rewards the brave". Then, I guess I will not be rewarded.

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Now I understand the importance of opening yourself to others. Its like making a deeper and strong connection with them. However, I am not that type of person. I am much more like of listening to the stories of others and giving them advices when they ask for it or needed it. I can’t find myself sharing my problems or rants to others. Because first of all, I don’t know how to express myself.

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Confused for a thousand times.

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Hindi pala talaga sa lahat ng pagkakataon ay mapagbibigyan ka nuh? Minsan may mga bagay na dapat ay maranasan mo para malaman mo yung halaga. Hindi sa lahat ng pagkakataon, panalo ka palagi. Hindi sa lahat ng pagkakataon ikaw yung bida. Minsan nagiging isa tayong side character (or mali yung ganitong thinking? hindi ko na rin alam). Pero ganun pa naman we should accept things like this, because how can we appreciate things if we are always experiencing things na pabor sa atin. Siguro kapag ganun, magiging super complacent na tayo, hindi na tayo maggrow as a better person. Kaya ayun let’s just do our best and believe in God’s plan.

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"I hope you are doing fine, please be fine. Please don't drown yourself in too many thoughts. I know everything will be alright. I will always be here for you even though we are far from each other."

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“I don’t know why I am doing this. I just find myself typing what is in my head. I wish I was able to do this before, before you left. I guess if I did so, you did not go. I think this is petty and pathetic. Rambling and ranting in this SNS but in reality I cannot talk to you. I guess when we met in person by chance, I cannot look you right into the eye. I have so many things to ask you but I think I should bury it in somewhere deep. And yet, no matter how hard I try, you keep running in my mind.”

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hindi kita namimiss kita

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Hi, kumusta ka? Sana okay ka lang. Sana lahat ng mga challenges at difficulties na dumarating sa’yo ay kinakaya mo. ‘Wag kang mawawalan ng kumpiyansa sa sarili mo huh? kahit na may mga pagkakataon na hindi umaayon sa’yo. Kahit na hindi mo minsan naaabot yung mga expectations na ibinigay mo sa sarili mo. ‘wag kang susuko huh? Alam kong kayang kaya mo ‘yan. Andito lang ako naniniwala sa’yo.

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“madayang tadhana, iyong pansinin”

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Since then, the moon has become my favorite.

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There are times that I don’t understand myself, and now is one of those times.